When every inch of you screams to run away but still you stand tall facing the storm.
Random Thoughts at a Random Time
Hmm... Sometimes you just know that the possiblities of you ending up with that person you are interested in is so low, but realise that its so much more higher for another person. So what do you concentrate on? Building on something that will probably not work out or something that probably will work out? What if you chose not to work on the one that has the least possiblities but will have ot live with the choice that you chose to do nothign when somethign could be done? What if the things with the lower chances happens? Wouldn't it be happy if you ended up with the one you were interested in? Or sad cause nothing happened at all in the other case?
What if you think the world hates you? Paranoid becomes a common thing. Always wndering what others think of you. Do they hate you? Are they scared of you? Or are they planning something malicious? What are they talking about you behind their back? Backstabbing? Doubts? Disbelief? Distrust? What could be brewing in the mind of the people around you?
What if there was someone very nice to you? And you can't sense any bad thing at all from them? What if you think the person has some feelings for you? And you don't return them back cause you jsut don't think you are ready? And the thing is that it is just thoughts you have that may not be accurate at all? And your religion tells you not to get too involved with non-christians. What do you do? Draw a line and hope that nothing bad comes out from it? Then what's next?
So what would you do if everything comes to you at one go? Do you run away? Or would you face it boldly? Which would you choose to do?
For me? All i know is God will be there to protect and guide me. That should be enough. (:
You haven't learned how to walk if you haven't fell before.
One More Down, Dunno How Many More To Go...
ECE MAGAZINE FINALLY OFF MY HANDS!! WOOTS!! XD And Mr Liew will be treating Mingjun and i to LUNCH!! YEAH!! XD
Let's see... Now to settle the cultural tour and the kick off tournament and most of the stuff should be done already.
Yesterday morning was spent working out with the designer on how the magazine will look like and passing the files over. Learned some tricks from him too. He was a 2 time drop out from NAFA. Said the some parts of the place was the bit screwed up. Not sure how true is it thought. XD
Today went back to school to settle just accompany some people around and buy some of my notes. Came back home with lunch and played Cabal for while. Wasted a lot of time just signing in and out cause of crazy lags and graphic card failing or something... Had to restart computer because of the graphic card... Should have installed it on a more powerful desktop instead... But not like i play much of it anyway, only plays it when i'm bored or got time to spare... XD
After Cabal, i went to Kovan Melody for a Campus Crusade training session for an up coming campaign. And after all that, i'm back home again. Met Joanne on my way back and caught up a bit.
That probably wraps up what has been happening the past 2 days. Now to ponder on some thoughts that came up during the training and get some rest for tomorrow. And if possible, squeeze in some of my other stuff too... See yah next time!!
Was it happiness or despair i felt when i saw you? Or was it something else i do not understand?
Still Searching for Something I Guess
Hey people, finally back to blog again after a whole week of events. Next few days will also be filled up with things to do... Next thing prioritized to do is minutes for ECE Delegate Meeting today...
ECE FOC 2008 was fun. As a GL, i learned many things. The event was a successful because of all the people who gave their all for the camp. Did i gave my all? I think i did. Maybe i needed to give more then that to have done a better job. Maybe i was better being a logistic hand instead, since i prefer doing hands on work. Maybe i'm thinking too much and should just move on. Oh well, all that matters is that the freshies enjoyed themselves. And oh yah,
GROUP 1 OII!! GRIM REAPERS OIII!!! XD
Now that's 2 events off the list of things to do, FOC and FOP. Next up, ECE magazine, Cultural tour and Kick Off... Let's see... Tomorrow will hopefully be the 2nd last meeting for the magazine cause we will be seeing the publisher tomorrow. Then after that, next Monday will see the sample, and if its ok, Then we will get to see the final draft before it's published... Then... YAY!!! XD
Oh well, better get started on the minutes of the meeting now... See yah next time!
Gone For Camp...
Hey people. will be gone from today still Staurday. And why hasn't i been updated as frequently as i would? Cause i was busy wit hcamp preparation and doing the magazine for my school. First time blogging from school also. XD
That's all for now i guess, trying to get mentally prepared for the camp now... See ya in 5 days time then. (:
