It's times like this when i wonder if i did the right thing. Guess i will know the consequences soon... Wish i had the heck care attitude of some people now. Oh well... I guess even the worst thing i can think of that could happen isn't that bad after all...

Just Shake It

Woah... Just felt tremors at home... Imagine this: Here i am on my computer suddenly feeling myself shaking. Thinking that it was just me, i continued to ignore it... Then my dad asked if we felt any shaking then did i felt anything wrong... Man, i'm slow ain't i?

Seems like the quake originated from somewhere south of Jarkata. Then there was another near the west coast of Sumatra. I guess the quake this time was more major cause we could feel it. The last time i felt tremors, i could almost barely feel it. This time, i could see things in my house shaking. Then after the tremors, i joked with my dad about me shaking by shaking on a spot. And guess what he said? The Chaos Theory. My shaking could cause a major disaster in India...

Watched High School Musical 2 a few days back. To me, it felt like watching 1 very long music video... The soundtracks were nice, but i guess i prefer it to stay as something i listen to. Sometimes the scenes are just... dumb. Where can you find someone that will break people up cause they wanted to win a competition and succeeded in doing their dumb quest only to have it spoiled last minute and have everything work out nicely for the everybody in the end? Guess that's what i don't like bout some shows, how unrealistic this things are... But the music saved it from me. Guess u can also say i'm shaking to it too...

Ha... Guess that's all for now. See yah people met time!! And check out the video below. Beautiful, to me that is. (:



People in love get fast and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong

People in love get special treatment
People in love get everything wrong
People in love their hearts get eaten
People in love get everything wrong

Just Minor Stuff

Hey people, guess i'm back again with one of my mundane updates. Hmmm... I went to cut my hair this Monday before i went for the class gathering BBQ, forgot to say so in my earlier post cause was having a major headache. Guess i'm fine now. The headache was probably caused by lack of rest from the BBQ the night before...

The next event of the week was the minor(thanks to people not being free or not contacting me...) CG gathering. Had fun at Minds Cafe playing the different board games. Guess i'm not very good at doing business... Probably cause my mind kept wondering off... And stupid Thomas and Benjamin kept ganging up on me... Very hard to win with 2 cousins picking on me i guess... Hey, it's not cause i was a easy target, it was just because i'm... ME. -_-'''

Next was today, had a DG gathering. Went back to Dhoby Ghaut for the second day in a row... But to play lan. Man... I'm realli out of shape when it comes to playing computer games... Guess that's how long i haven't been touching that kind of games. Had fun killing the monsters anyway... XD

I guess that's all for now. Better rest early... Don't want a recurrence of that horrible headache... See yah people around!!

And when nothing is done about feelings for a long time, they die out. Guess that's what's happening now.

Killer Headache...

ARGH... Just developed a killer headache around 3 hours ago... The Panadol just set in so i guess i am posting before it comes back to haunt me again... Doc says it is just the chills. And i was ok a few hours ago... And i am helping Pastor Edwin organise people to come for the gathering this Thursday, and some people ain't exactly making it any easier... >.<'''

Yesterday had 4I gathering at Pasir Ris Park. Around 15 people turned up. Was actually planning to stay overnight but Jeanie chicken-ed out as she was scared of the dark. Dark, because there was a power trip in the whole park... Imagine BBQ-ing in the dark... I can't even see if my satay was done properly... But thank goodness Weijin was there to taste the food. XD

Ah... Jeanie is not going to plan anymore class gatherings anymore, or so she says. She said that if she was to organise another one, she will treat me. Do i have to force her to do one?? XD Or if she really keeps her word, somebody else will have to step up to organise one next time...

Man... can feel the headache coming back...Wrapping up this post now i guess. See yah next time!! When i'm better that is...

And as i stare into oblivion...

I Need A Haircut Or A New Hairstyle...

Today, i went back to both my primary and secondary school. I thought i would be the first ex-student to reach the school but looks like 4 other kids beat me to it... Reached there around 10.10am. Oh well... Had a chat with my ex-form teacher about how things are so far. Then soon i left for my secondary school after just spending 15mins there. Maybe i should have spent longer at Yangzheng and looked up more teachers but i guess i just didn't felt like it, probably cause i was alone. The school has changed much over the 4 years since i left. And my batch had to leave the school before the renovations were complete... Missed out on all the hype about having a new school building... Ha... Oh well, looks like i will also be missing out on all eh hype about Peicai shifting too, though temporary. XD

Ok, back on track. Took my time to walk to Peicai. I didn't actually looked like i was taking my time, but i was already walking at a slower speed then i usually would anyway. When i first reached outside school, only recognised a few people from the previous years but didn't saw any of my ex-classmates. Only when i saw a friend of mien arriving and followed him did i realise that a few of them were hiding behind a corner. Not exactly hiding but just out of my view. And there was the respond i expected cause of my hair... "OMG!! YOUR HAIR!!" And once in a while the "GO CUT LAH"s would come in...

Ok, back on track. Then also as expected, around 60%-70% of people who used to recoginse me didn't recognise me. I could walk right in front of them and stare, but they still don't recognise me... Can't help it i guess, i changed my hairstyle and specs since the beginning of the year. I guess no one actually thought i could change so much in less then a year. Guess i proved them wrong. And guess what i thought was one of the best lines i said today? "Who says poly very free?? I so busy until no time to cut my hair!!" XD

After that had lunch with Minda. And while having lunch, met Weijin cause he came to Peicai late and missed everybody... Then he just happened to bump into us while we were eating... We hen headed to COMEX to jalan jalan, and cause Minda wanted to look find camera lenses. In the end, found out there weren't lenses for his camera for sale... Oh well... Anyway, we had a few games of pool after that. I guess each of us wow a round each. And i realised my skills have all gone down the drain... T.T

We then boarded the train back to Serangoon and decided to follow Weijin for his haircut. Nothing better to do i guess. Then i left early cause i had to get home to help order pizza for dinner. ROSEMARY CHICKEN FEAST!!! CHEESE ROCKS!! CHEESY STUFF ROCKS TOO!!!

And this coming Sunday will be teachers day celebration over at church. Mei Hsien will be baking more CHEESE TARTS!!! YEAH!!! CHEESY CHEESY ALL THE WAY!! XD

Ok, i feel cheesy now... Better let the the cheesy-ness stop before it overflows. Get it? Overflowing cheese?? Ha... Ok, enough of cheesing around... XD

Ah... My hair is starting to irritate my eyes, guess i better cut soon or change the style. Lets see what hair-wax plus long hair equal to... Will probably try a different style this Sunday. Man... My tiredness is catching up with me... Better go grab some eye shut... See you when i will see you again!!

To do what i have to do is not he easiest thing to do. But i guess doing what my heart wants to do is harder.

Mistakes And Misunderstandings

About what my mom did, i guess i'm over it already. I apologized to her already after a talk with my dad yesterday night. What my dad said made sense i guess, we are from different generations. During their time, parents offer their children services. And now, i want to be consulted first before having our services offered. Ah... The generation gap or personality gap? XD

Now for some pictures i felt like uploading a few days ago...

Saw this my way home one day. Never going to use that vending machine again...

Man... I need a better camera... My phone won't do it anymore... Took this at the airport before Joshua flew off. Don't bother about my hair... I couldn't be bothered to gel it so late... XD

Before Josh flew off, we had a farewell lunch at a restaurant called "Mr Bean's". No, it has nothing to do with the food chain outlet which sell soya bean milk. They probably named the restaurant after The comedian Mr Bean. They had this image of Mona Lisa but with the face of Mr Bean Pasted on where the head is. Didn't take a picture of that cause i was just too lazy too. XD

Man... I'm looking for a job now. With 7 weeks of holidays here, Better use it doing something useful. Ha... Anybody can recommend me anything?? XD

Ah... I got to go already. Need the rest or i may end up with a bad flu in the morning... Oh well, see yah!!

我不能说的秘密 XP

Guess what movie i watched today? From the title should be quite obvious right? Went to watch it with Reuel and Melissa. The rest of the CG didn't seem free anyway, with promos/prelims coming up for them. Oh well... Look like only some of the poly and cooking students are free... So we decided to go catch a show. Ha... Was Mel's 2nd time watching it. Thank goodness she didn't mind watching it again with us guys... XD

Hmm... Come to think of it, this was the first Chinese movie i ever watched in a cinema... The rest was TV... So, how was the show? Well... it's supposed to be a secret isn't it? XD Still persistent eh? Ok... Shall only say 1 thing: The way the story is twisted is incredible. That all i shall say about it. Want to know more? You have to watch it yourself. XP

Ah... Was very angry with my mom yesterday. She offered my services without consulting me first. It felt like i was maid or an object to be traded for use among family and friends. And guess what she said when i confronted her? "I wasn't thinking about that." And after a few more exchanges of word? "I didn't know my son was so sensitive." So i guess 1) My feelings weren't exactly considered and 2) She didn't know that her son of 17 YEARS PLUS is sensitive. I didn't say the last part to her. Why? I kept to the topic i was on. The very fact that i felt i wasn't being respected was bad enough already. And i already told her i was going out today, so there was no reason for her to offer me helping out people today too. And she felt she did nothing wrong at all. I guess i am disgusted slightly now. Giving her the silent treatment now. Respect has to work both ways, never 1 way.

Sometimes i wonder if i am in the wrong. Am i wrong just trying to seek what's right? Am i wrong to want to get the basic respect i deserve? Oh well...

Ah... That's all for now... My mom spoiled my mood for the next few days already. Don't feel liek uploading pics now... Maybe next time then... See yah!!

我们都有不想说的秘密。不想让别人知道的东西。可是秘密能当秘密多久呢？

Heart-Wrenching Dramas Are Just Heart-Wrenching

Guess the first thing you people will see is a new layout. Just decided to change it after much consideration. However, this current blogskin is just a skin in transition. Cause i feel that there is something still missing. Will probably do something about it after my exams...

ARGH... Tomorrow is my first exam paper... On a Saturday too... A nice Saturday... One of those nice days where i can relax and take a break from the struggles of poly life... And they had to put a paper on that day... Oh well, at least all my papers finish next Tuesday. Maybe i can consider bringing those foreigners in my class out to play in Singapore before they head back to their home countries... Shall consider after all my papers...

Man, that stupid heart-wrenching Chinese drama... Guess they managed to accomplish their goal. When people can relate to their show can keep coming back for more, they win... Can't let them do that to me... Have... To... Resist... And now i feel like watching the finale next week... XD

Ha... If only life works out like in drama serials, many of us would probably be living our dreams now. But what's life without suffering?? And don't forget unfairness too. But in the end we still carve out our own futures regardless of what is thrown at us, only thing is whether we let it those stuff affect how we live our life.

Ah... Next post i think i will be uploading some photos for fun. Hmm... should i add music to my blog?? Whenever i visit someone's blog with music i tend to try to stop it or off my speakers... Okay, no music it is...

Oh well, better rest early for my paper tomorrow morning... See yah people around!!

Better is one day in your courts then a thousand elsewhere.

And You Can Feel The Hatred

Hmm, i wonder if anyone still reads this blog. The tagboard only gets tags once every few weeks or something. Oh well, this blog is just like a diary to me so who cares? Just some random thoughts of someone on Earth. Suddenly i seem so insignificant...

Man, a video company in SG, Odex, just licensed a whole list of anime a while back. And guess what? If you are caught downloading those anime, they can charge you for copyright infringement. And yah, they got the permission to find you, me and anyone who actually downloaded or are downloading those anime and fine them, fine right? Oh well, there goes my weekly fix of Bleach... And why did Odex license these animes? So they can sub and dub it. Then you have to buy it if you want to watch it. But as far as i know, the quality of their sub n dub ain't actually very good. And compare it to the better quality and free subbed versions that can be found online, what would you choose if you had a choice?? Obvious answer it should be... And at the rate this continues, SG fans maybe left behind when an anime progresses... Oh well, guess we have to pay the price for whatever we did, if we ever did anything.

Hmm... A friend of mine will be leaving SG this Sunday for London. He came from London many years back and that was when i first met him in church. Berry nice meeting it was. Why berry? Cause that's his surname!! XD Will be seeing him off this Sunday. Hope i will be able to see him again. His family may drop by cause his maternal grandparents live across the causeway. I will miss him i guess, like how i miss my secondary school days.

Oh yah, recently i did the letter to myself that will be given to me in a year time. I wrote bout different things from last time, like what i hope will happen and thanking God for helping me through all the while. I wonder how me in a year will be like... Only time will tell i guess. (:

That's all for now. See yah people next time!!

Half a year to renewal of promises to myself

This Very One Life Each Of Us Have

I guess i knew who he is. I wondered what was he thinking when he was falling down before contacting with the ground. Was it regret? Was his life flashing before him? I guess i didn't really know him very well, but i knew him. I guessed that was enough. Shocked me i guess. Never guessed he would be one who would do that, if he did. Sure he looked and behaved liked a gangster, but he had a good heart. He turned down an offer to be a councilor even thought u had the potential. A memory you may become, but a lasting one it will be.

Back on track to life, last time we heard, only 21 of the Korean hostages were alive. Pray that they will be ok... Too many stuff happening the pass few days... First a Korean hostage killed, then a Peicaian dying...

Now on to other stuff. One year ago i wrote a letter to myself during CG lesson giving thanks to God for things then. The now me reading the letter from me from a year ago, i guess i changed a little. 1 year back i was into getting into a JC. Look at where i am now. I was still slightly obsessed with my medical condition a year back. And now i practically don't care about my condition unless the pain comes back. Ha... Oh well. Hope i actually changed for the better.

That's all for today folks. See yah around!