Same Mistake

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again, I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

Hello, hello

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy, does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

And so I sent some men to fight,
And one came back at dead of night,
Said "Have you seen my enemy?"
Said "he looked just like me"
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice,
Give me reason, but don't give me choice,
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again,

And maybe someday we will meet
And maybe talk and not just speak
Don't buy the promises 'cause
There are no promises I keep,
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice,
Give me reason, but don't give me choice,
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again

So while I'm turning in my sheets
And once again, I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars
Look at the stars, falling down,
And I wonder where, did I go wrong.

-James Blunt

Got tagged by Lina a while back, shall do it now even though she didn't really tag me to do it...

RULES to follow
1. Do the following WITHOUT complains.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.

FAVOURITES
Colour: Black, white, green
Food: Chicken rice(any style, Jap or Chi Or Malay or blah)
Song: Currently? Same Mistake by James Blunt
Movie: Remember Flipper? First movie i ever watched...

HAVE YOU EVER
Dated Your Best Friend: No
Broken The Law: Erm... Can't really remember...
Been Arrested: No...
Been On TV: Does almost count?
Kissed Someone You Don't Know: No

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
1) T-shirt
2) pants
3) underwear
4) Spectacles
5)Erm... does the skin count?? o.o??

THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY:
1) eat
2) sleep
3) play pool
4) did common test
5) play psp
6) surf internet
7) think
8) iron cloths
9) talk
10) nothing

THINGS YOU CAN HEAR RIGHT NOW:
1) vehicles on the road
2) sis playing DS
3) me typing
4) water flowing

THINGS YOU DO WHEN YOU'RE BORED:
1) Play
2) watch anime
3) surf internet
4) nothing

The 5 lucky chosen ones:
1) Nat (Can't find anyone better for number one)
2) Melissa
3) Wei bin
4) Delia
5) Whoever you are reading this and got nothing better to do.

When Water Kills

Finally back to blog after more than a week. Didn't feel like doing last week cause my Laptop was having some problem. It was lagging like it got all the time in the world. Press something and around a minute or more later then i would get a respond. Had to use system restore to get it back running again... By then the week and pass and i had already wasted enough time in classes that required a computer to watch a movie. Note to self: maintain laptop at least once every week...

Lets see... Last week nothing much really happened besides the usual school stuff. Wait, got something happened. Campus crusade had a event call SMAD, or SM appreciation day. Had to dress up as heroes, even though Mickey Mouse was also around. Wonder in what way is he a hero... Hmm... My DG dressed in Men in black cause it was simple. XD

Yesterday when i was on my way back, it was raining cats and dogs. There was this particular stretch that wasn't sheltered. A sheltered is being built but by that time it probably completes, the raining season would probably be over. I was lazy to use my umbrella so i ran. Got wet nevertheless, can't be helped. Then along the way, i saw dead baby bird on the floor. probably dropped from somewhere and drowned in the rain. Fragile little thing it was. It was lying in the middle of the pathway so it was unavoidable. I wanted to walk away but i turned back around. I picked it up and placed it on a dry table at the void deck. Something inside me hoped that at least it would squirm a little so i can know its still alive. Nothing happened when i picked it up. I guess thats how fragile life is. All it takes is that one wrong move or situation to take it away. It left me wondering if i had arrived a little earlier i could have saved it.

So i guess i have arrived at another point again: Live life to the fullest. How am i doing that? For me i guess i'm living will God's guidance at the moment and searching for my life purpose.

ARGH... I missed a chance today to do the right thing. When i alighted from the bus at the interchange, someone sitting in front of me was still asleep. I left it for someone else to wake him up even thought i could have done it and save the person from walking a few more steps... Kelvin, you got to work harder...

I think i have this weird habit of observing the behavior people and trying to interpret what are they thinking about. What were they thinking when they were doing that? Rarely do people do something without reason. So when a action leaves me pondering, i guess i need to ask some else of their opinion or even ask the person who did the something in the first place. I guess i shall consult others first, even thought most people probably won't know... Oops... I just type a whole lot of crap... XD

Currently i'm learning how to commit everything to God. Why? Cause it's difficult for me to let go, be it things i own or problems. Strange that i even hold on to problems right? Cause i just don't want to trouble people most of time i guess. Got to place all my worries into his hands so i can live my life without being too emo. how did u think i became less emo in the first place? XD

Man... It feels a bit strange talking to myself cause that's what blogging is like to me. Self-reflection for the past few days and sorting out thinking processes. When i can see what i'm thinking, i guess i think better. I guess thats why from young i had to practice writing chinese so many times to remember how to write it for spelling... XD

Ha... That's all for now. Have to get back to real life. See yah!!

I turn left, you turn right. When i stare at u u stare right back. What are you?

What happens when a sick person blog :

Mcfly - The Heart Never Lies

Some people laugh,
And some people cry,
And some people live,
And some people die,
And some people run,
Right into the fire,
And some people hide,
Their every desire

But we are the lovers,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

And some people fight,
And some people fall,
Others pretend,
They don't care at all,
If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

Another year over,
And we're still together,
It's not always easy,
But I'm here forever,

Yeah, we are the lovers,
I know you believe me,
When you look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies,
Cause the heart never lies, yeah,
Cause the heart never lies

All Smiles are Beautiful

AAAHHHH!!! TOMORROW IS EEPS PRACTICAL TEST!!! AAAHHH!!! Control circuits are driving me crazy... And i only learned how they actually worked last week only...

Here's a equation my friends and i worked out a few days ago.
Knowledge = Power
Power = Work done/ Time
Therefore, Knowledge = Work done/ Time
This shows that one gains most knowledge when a lot work is done over a short period of time. And if we move time over,
Knowledge*Time = Work done
And from the above equation, we can see that knowledge when used over a long period of time will result in most work done. Yeah. XD

Was feeling emo for no particular reason yesterday and wanted to do a emo post. Then i read this from the daily bread website:

My nephew’s job was soon to be eliminated, so I was glad to hear from his wife that he had just accepted an offer for a new position.

“We prayed, I worried, and Eric was determined to get another job,” Angie wrote in an e-mail, explaining the journey they’d been on for the last few months.

It’s easy for us to panic when we face serious concerns—the loss of a job, a family member with cancer, a wayward child.

So we pray. And we get busy. We start doing everything we can think of to move forward in a positive way.

And we worry. We know it’s a waste of time. Yet a lot of us find ourselves in this dilemma—we know we should trust God, but we wonder just what He’s going to do.

That’s when we turn to His Word—to remind us that He is walking with us and inviting us to hand over to Him our worries and burdens. Scripture tells us, “[Cast] all your care upon Him, for He cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7), and “God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19).

When your mind turns to anxious thoughts about the future, remember that “your heavenly Father knows” (Matt. 6:32) and will give you what you need.
—Cindy Hess Kasper

I don’t know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One who feeds the sparrow
Is the One who stands by me. —Stanphill
© 1950 by Ira Stanphill

Worry is a burden God never intended us to bear.

I felt better after reading that. I guess i have a problem with letting go of my troubles. And people say i look relaxed. I guess i hide my feelings very well. Another strange thing bout me. I probably cause i find there no use worrying the people around to. So what if i bottle everything up inside? Explosions may happen once in a while, but most of you won't see it. One got to take advantage of every chance he has to release pressure. (:

I started a little on a new blogskin. And a little means collected all the images. Nothing more, nothing less. Going to continue when i feel like i'm going to do something stupid to keep me away from doing those stupid things. Hope it turns out better than my current one. Still thinking of a concept... Any suggestions??

It's ironic that sometimes i tell people to look forward to the future and not look back at past mistakes to feel bad but learn from them. I guess this is what they call regrets. We can only reflect on them and learn from them. Some of these experiences leave scars but thats what all they are, scars and nothing more. They are just a sign that we got through the problem, even thought we got hurt. But with Jesus by my side, i can move on.

Ah... Moving on... Going to watch CSI already before sleeping... See yah next time!!

All smiles are beautiful, non are ever ugly.

I Need a Recharge...

Finally got some energy back after the past few exhausting days... Friday played basketball until shagged out... Then Saturday helped out in Family Day for around 8 hours from 12 onwards... Then today had to wake up earlier for usher duty. Could almost doze off during youth today... Was super tired... Tomorrow morning going to have sports and wellness lesson and thus end up more exhausted... And look like tomorrow going to have to do loads of homework after coming back from school... zzzzzzz...

Mel was saying guys can't really multi-task, especially in relationships, after she chatted with me. I think that only applies to me thought. Why? If you multi-task, can you give your best when doing something? I just want to give my all when i do somethings and not be distracted too easily. Quality over quantity.

ARGH... It's still the little things that happens around me that affects me... I need to be slightly less sensitive of my environment and more sensitive of the people around me... I got a feeling i sometimes accidentally hurt someone without even realising it. Something still doesn't feel right around me. I guess it's because i still got some unsettled business with somebody but there still seems to be something else. Or maybe i am thinking too much again... Committing everything into God's hands in hope that everything will work out fine in the end...

FOUR MORE WEEKS TO SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!! Come on... Time fly by faster... Please let holidays be here soon... T.T

Going to rest now... Need the rest for class tomorrow... See yah!!

Here I go so Dishonestly, Leave a note for you my Only One - Yellowcard /Only One

Drifting to Lala land...

ARGH... Very tired now... Just came back slightly more than an hour ago... will try to squeeze in some work before going to bed... AH... Haven't prepare what to wear for tomorrow yet... Just remembered only... zzzz....

Better start doing and stop blogging... See yah next time!!

To Not Be Empty

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty

Empty - The Click Five

Sometimes we spent most of our time trying to fill up a gap inside. But no matter how hard try, nothing seems to fill it. Nothing fits either. And someone comes along and shows us what we have been missing. Christ.

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Lets see... School is starting to pick up pace. More schoolwork, more events, more activities to attend... Keeping my motivation level up to endure it all. Going to work all the way this semester to try to maintain my score. Going to make NP regret not giving me scholarship. XD

Hmm... Having training for Red Camp this Friday... Will clash with German lesson... Thank goodness German lesson semester attendance is not counted. First training.. then 1 hour of German lesson... Cramp timetable... Then Saturday got Church family day... Ah... Just remembered need to go find out what time do i have to report there... And Thursday is going to have a maths test... Following week German listening test... And followed by Pastor's wedding following Saturday too... Hope Red Camp doesn't put me on Saturday duty or something... So many things coming up... @.@

ARGH... Take things one step at a time Kelvin... Man, i must be losing it to start talking to myself... Must be caused slept late yesterday due to watching Heroes... And there's CSI tonight... Don't know if my body can tahan... At least tomorrow's lesson starts at 9 instead of the usual 8... Ok, can consider watching CSI...

That's all for now, need to prepare for tomorrow... And looks like i may also need a haircut soon... See yah!!

Ich Wohnen In Serangoon!!!

Hey, first time i actually typed out some German for my blog i think. The title means I live in Serangoon. XD

School was fine today. The only things major was German skit/presentation and Nathaniel dropping by NP to gather some info on admission to Mass Comm. Met up with Nat after discussion the German skit with my group mates. Had a short tea break before going for German lesson. Thank goodness my teacher allowed Nat to sit in the class, or he would have had to wait for me for 2 hours straight doing nothing but playing his DS. I'm sure he learned some things just by sitting in the class and using my computer to do some research. In the end, the presentation ended up quite fine. Previously was Weihao who got the most to say, now its me... Because i'm "The Man" of the group... Man... I guess this is what happenes whe nyou are the only male in the group... T.T

Man... I think i over strained my left side today since its aching now... I guess a massage will be good now... Ah... I guess i will continue dreaming... XD

God teaches us things in very different ways sometimes. This Wednesday, i saw someone accidentally dropped some money on the bus before he lighted. I realised i could have called him/her and let that person pass the day easier. I didn't and felt guilty. And i wished i could have done it, like alot of things that happened before. Then yesterday at Escape, someone dropped his wallet at one of the rides. This time i tried calling. In the end, he responded to someone else's call. And guess what? I felt alot better then on Wednesday. So what if he didn't respond to my call?? I tried. Now to try harder next time. (:

And recently i think i had a miscommunication with one of my foreign classmates. I was working with her on a assignment. In the end, our work came in first, and i think we managed to settle our differences at the same time. The coming in first part was unexpected but it helped settled things alot better. Thank God. Hopefully another situation in my life will turn out the same way... I guess that's what hope is for, to look forward to. (:

That's enough for now. Need to rest before forcing myself to do some work tomorrow. See yah!!

Escape to the Escape

Man... I think i just made a lame pun for the title... Ha...

Ok... Lets see... Didn't blog for so long cause no mood to. Today had something to blog about, so here i am(dot blogspot dot com XD). Looks like the lame bug got to me again... Ah choo... Ok, i will try to keep the jokes to the minimum then...

Today brought some classmates to escape. 2 Singaporeans bring 1 Singaporean(Who've never been to escape before), 2 Malaysians and 2 China-ese(so you will know they are Chinese from China) to go play. Met up with them at White Sands where some of them were playing arcade. Waited for one of us to finish with a game before we went to Escape. I guess Lucas was right when he said we will spend 70% of out time queuing for rides. The first thing we went for was the go-karts. Queued for an hour before we tried to out race each other.

Next, 4 of us went to eat while the rest went for the log ride. I didn't go cause i didn't want to get wet. After that we went for the flipper. I had my hands raised for fun most of the ride cause it was actually not that scary. Next, Weibin and i went for the flyer while Lucas, Jia Beng, PangKe and LiuYang of them went to the haunted house and Weileong sit aside cause he needed to rest after the earlier ride. Too bad 3 of the rides were closed, or i would have conquered them all!! XD

Next up was the most challenging ride with the longest queue: The Inverter. I never had a chance to sit on it before. Every time i came i was either too scared or it was closed. Now, i queued about half an hour for it. Hard to describe the experience cause i couldn't wear my specs for the ride. But i could still make out what was happening. After a few rounds, i got nauseas on the ride. And for fun i shouted "I want to vomit!!" in Chinese. only 4 of us went for the ride. The rest of them couldn't handle it. The most interesting part? Hanging upside down. the sky at the bottom while ground on top. It was... Indescribable. Wish i could have taken the scene. It was just different. Wait a minute... Now i just realised i could get the same effect if i took a picture and turned it the other way. XD

After that i went home while a few of them went for dinner. Then after my dinner, here i am(dot blogspot dot com). AH... Tomorrow have German presentation... Will prepare after my lesson tomorrow... Have a 6 hour break anyway... Got time to do a bit before doing the rest of my work too... ARGH... If only they can change the day of German lessons... Fridays are just the worst time to have extra lessons... I guess the people who planned the lessons didn't really think about the students... Going to see what i can do about it tomorrow. Maybe i should consult those in the German class before making a move. See if they want it to be on a different day. If it is a unified respond, i would probably do something.

AH... That's enough for today... See yah people next time!!

When a gift feels like a curse. When all you wanted was to help but was treated as an irritant. When all you wanted to was understand but was misunderstood. When all you wanted was accompany but amidst the crowd you are alone. When everyone hears you talking but no one is listening to the meaning.