Preparing For War...

Finally remember to pack my hobby tools from a hobby that never started off... Hopefully these tools will make my life easier over at Alpha Centre. Hopefully... =x

Just remember someone say all is fair in the game of love. I guess that's the excuse people give to back stab, sabotage, destroy, be unreasonable, beat up, kill, fight, push down, discourage, cheat, humiliate and other stuffs i can't think about now. I guess that speak volumes about their values. I guess to me it's not such a fair game after all.

Interestingly, 2 days ago on Sunday, while having breakfast (number 2) with friends and Auntie Lee Cher, we somehow ended up on the topic on relationships again. She said girls prefer guys who are sensitive and that the guys from church are actually quite decent. Then XX said i'm actually quite ok. Was shocked at first cause she rarely even compliments anyone, as least to me. =x Then Auntie Lee Cher went on about housework and how if a girl called you not man enough, she doesn't deserve you, and i just sat there staring while chewing my straw, cause i really didn't know how to respond... Was called nervous, but just really couldn't think of anything to respond cause was caught off guard... =x

I guess i don't like seeing people who run away from problems cause they can't handle it. What happened to responsibility? The problem would just come back later and bite harder then it did before... Yeouch...

Just wondering how fast can i bounce back from a set back now. Still seems very slow. Whenever i thought i'm okay, something else comes in and i feel lousy all over again, and the recovery process starts all over again. But i know i'll be fine eventually... Just a matter of when only... =x

Do you know who you are? Or are you just hanging around people in hope of becoming like them and hopefully having a friend? Find out who you are, not become like those around you. It gets harder and harder to be someone else, but all it takes to be yourself is just setting yourself free, and it gets easier instead of harder, cause you will be at less conflict with yourself. You are who you are, don't let anyone else tell you who you are, you show them who you are. There may be points we don't like, but that's where self improvement comes in. No one stays the same, but you can still be you even if you change. Look inside. Find yourself. Don't settle for being someone else. Show them who you are.

The paragraph above isn't random. It is meant for someone, don't know if that person will know it's for him/her. Can apply to anyone i guess. So do you know who you are?

I guess that's about all for now. Ulcer hurts now... Oh well, see yah around!

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day
- Nickelback - If today was your last day