Lost The Momentem

Finally i find the energy to come back here to blog... But i guess there is nothing to blog about as i have been home most of the time... Ok, maybe i havebeen out, like yesterday was out with Minda. He accompany me to go buy some plastic modelling supplies while i accompany him wait for Maureen to to come help find clothes for somebody. But other then my occasional outings, life has been boring at the moment... And Minda, stop calling me any super hero name... I AM A NORMAL PERSON!!! Even though sometimes i wish have super powers though...

Man... I need to find a way to earn a little extra cash... Most of my allowencee this week is spent on my phone bill... And it is not like my phone bill is alot... Maybe i should start selling my extra cards that i have no use for...

I thinking about giving up blogskinning... Haven't create a skin for a few months... No inspiraton some more... But interesting the 2 people i introduced to blogskins, my sis and Minda, are still going strong... Ha... Consider more first... And now maybe most of you people know that WrinkySkins is kinda dead already, probably cause non of us actually have any passion to continue maintaining it...

ARGH!!! I want to sign up for this plastic modelling class... The price is $90... Man... Look liek if i want to sign up for it i am going ot need to be trifty from now on... WORK HARD KELVIN!!!

Hmm... I have been staying up late the past few days since i don't have school the nest day... Doing what?? Watching TV... Man... And when one watch TV late into the night alone, their imaginations tends to come up with with wishful situations, most which are impossible to happen...

Guess there is this song on the radio which i feel is played quite frequently at the moment... Jesse McCartney's Just So You Know. I was into the song around 2 months before the song came to the radio, probably i releated to it... Here i go taking about crap again...

Ha, that should be enough substance to pass this as a blog post, so here i go slack again before i get called up to do the laundry again... See yah!! Peicai And NYJC people, KEEP IN CONTACT WITH ME!!! XD

Left out to dry

Time To Do Some Business...

Just came back from a 4I gathering/dinner . It felt so good to be able to laugh at the class again. I haven't been laughing so hard for a very long time. PRATA ROCKS!! XD Hanging out with the class made me forget my worries for a while, so i guess that was another reason i enjoyed it.

I guess i may always feel that i am a little extra from anything. Like this class outing for example, if not that i was with Minda and Weijin and some of the people, i may have felt out of place. I guess maybe it is just my unsociable nature making me feel this... MUST SUPRESS IT...

Man... Today was doing an onlien puzzle, The Wicked, at home. google it to find out more. Then i reached this level where there was thsi flash animation saying to stare at a dot for 30 seconds. The suddenly this gastly face appeared and there was this piercing scream comign from my speakers. I actually ran out of the room course i was taken by shock... then after a while, the answer to teh next level appeared... Crap... And i was alone at home, so imagine how i felt... ARGH... Almost used the F-word...

YAY!!! Today i managed to beat Minda at pool!! But the only catch was that he was off ofrm today... And the worst part?? The cue ball i hit kept curving...

When i came hoem just now, i got some sort of dressing down from my parents cause i came back late... What time did i came back?? 9:30pm.. I guess it is kinda late by their standards... And i guess soem of my ex-clasmates are still going out after the late dinner while i will be at home doing the laundry... Man... Will this curfew be extended when i grow older?? I hope so...

Man... I am missing the class already... Even those i didn't talk to much... ARGH... I guess i even miss those wackings i got from M(aureen)&M(illi) and Cassandra... XD


Ah... I need to go do the laundry already... See yah poepl around!!

I guess Lonely is my middle name

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Hmm... Today wasn't excatly a bad day, but was just an average day i guess, except for the few hours spent playing those board games in church. A few of us managed to play a few games which shown the evil sides of us... Muahahaha... We were like hoping to see each otehr killed in when we were playing Star Munchkins. All the back stabbing sudddenly appeared... Maybe nest time should get more people to play...

Hmm... I still haven't been able to come up with a title for this post yet... Hmm... Maybe it should be up to you people to fill in the blank with what ever you think is the most suitable title for it?? Ha... Maybe i am just too lazy to some up with a title at the moment... XD

I got a call eariler offering me a job. I never appiled for any jobs so i was suprised. Later i found out someoen recommended me. But i guess i gave up the job as i don't even know who recommended me and my parents weren't really comfortable with it adn i guess poly is also about to start soon and now isn't a good time to work. Ha...

Man, i am bored now... I guess i will go youtube and look up soemthing to watch... See yah people around!!

What The... Say That Again??

Man... Posting results really takes a toll on people... When i got my posting results this Tuesday, i was like, "WTH IS THIS?!?!?!" Made a few calls to my parents before rushing down to Ngee Ann Poly to try to appeal to my 1st choice. But guess what?? Cannot appeal... Why? My points to high... Too high?? Yah, too high... The course cut off point is 9... CUT OFF POINT IS 9?!?! I was like so shocked seeing that... Man, that course is harder to get into then some JCs...

So i spent my time there getting to know about he course i got posted to... electronic and computer engineering. Why didn't i bothered to change course? Cause, i am more suited for engineering then any other courses, and this course seems to fit me best... The onl problem is that i will ahev the pressure to perform... 9 points enter a 16 points course... >.<

Ah... What the heck... Just be happy that at least you can continue studying lah... ARGH...

But man, toy should have seen how hard the lecturer tried to convince em to stay in the course... Like i was their last hope man... Even Lilin and her friend could see i was getting bored out of my wits... But i guess i decided to stay i the course as i remembered another dream of mine which can only be fulfilled if i learn electronics and computer engineering. What dream?? Don't want to say... XP

Remember when i said if i ge back to NYJC, God would probably be playing a cruel joke on me?? But guess what?? I didn't get into where i wanted to, and i didn't go back to NYJC as the points went down to 10... And i ended up in NP in another course... I guess God has a plan different form what i think it is... Ha, hope i am able to accept it...

That's all for today folks, see yah next time!!

Should I just say it or walk away?

It Wasn't Meant To Be Sad

Today is my last day in NYJC. It should be... (Unless God decides to play a very cruel joke on me...) So my classmates made it... *Drumroll*... "Last Kelvin Day"!! Sound like they are celebrating the day where there was only 1 Kelvin left standing on the Earth... And i wasn't the only one leaving the class anyway... But i guess out of those leaving(actually only 2...), I probably made the most impact in the class. Make your presence felt man!! XD

Man... And of all days... I guess i shall regret a little leaving NYJC. But i had to make a choice and i did, so no use sulking over it... Just look forward and move on... But i wonder what God is trying to show me today, what i will miss by leavign NYJC or what i won't miss by leaving... Cause of all my days in NYJC, today was the day i saw her the most... Managed to talk a litel while with her too...

During GP lecture, we watched a movie that was based on the book: Tuesdays with Morrie. Beautiful story. I am now so inspired to get the book for myself, and maybe even getr a copy for thsoe who haven't read it before. At the end of the movie, my friend sadi that it was very sad that Morrie passed away, but i said it wasn't meant to be sad. The movie was just Morrie tellign people that there's more to life then what it seems. Everyday we run the ratr race, but what are we running from?? Ha... I guess hanging out with Nat changes your makes one think more deeply after a while... But it will never be as deep as his... Why? Cause i am not him, and i have my own views and ways of doing things. (:

Someone just told me that i have to be more confident of my decisions yesterday. Another point to add to the list of "Areas to Improve Myself" points. Ha... And the best part is the list is not physical, it is all up here in the brain... XD

Enough of stories for today. See yah!!

I miss you... I miss you not... I hate you... I hate you not... I love you... I love you not...
I guess the right words to show show how i feel is not easy to say...

I Don't Know Anymore

Life has been really... I don't know how to say it... I guess every body thinks differently. The person someone says they understand you, i guess they are lying. The best one can do is understand the situation, but to undestand a person i guess is a totally different matter.

I guess Nat was right that i am a trend follower, everybody started blogging about the class, i guess i did too. Oh well, look like i need to learn to not be so easily influenced by the crowd.

An ex-classmate of mine from my primary school crashed NYJC. We were talkign until she reached an uncomfortable topic of who she calls my "ex-love" who is also in NYJC. I just said that i don't like her anymore and i am leaving the school anyway. But on my way back home, i was wondering if i was lying to myself. I don't know...

Ah... i guess the word to describe is coming to me... Blur... Yes, that's the word...

I don't know why i am having a very bad feelign about tomorrow... Like the class outing will totally screw up or something... But the problem is that i always feel like that when i am down and my gut feelings always never coems true. Unreliable gut i have man...

Anotehr reason to feel down is that i overshoot my allowence for the week... And now cutting into what i have been saving for a few weeks. And tomorrwo is 4I gathering = More spending if i don't control properly...

I guess sometimes i tell myself no use getting mad at someone over nothing. But what if there is a reason? But who am i to judge a person? Who am i to tell someone if he/she is doing right or wrong? I don't know guess. So waht do i know anymore?? Everybody around me seems to have different values. Everybody thinks differently. I guess that makes us who we are. Maybe i should try to put myself in other's shoes more often... I guess it must always starts from me... No one would do it unless someone else does it first... That's why pioneers are honoured right?? They dared.

Hmm... What will my story be? I don't know. I guess i will get a lecture from Nat after he reads this post. About how using "I-D-K", or i don't know, is not good. I guess it is not actually good, but i guess i can't be bothered by it now.

Man... Feeling emo now... Oh well... Shall release soem stress by playing a little later...

What else can i do?? I don't know man... I don't know...