Time For A Post...

Hey people!! Ok... Not that i haven't been updating my blog but my computer just broke down right after i came home... Then teh TV broke down too... Then today i discovered my EZ-Link card also died on me when i was trying to board the train to go to church... Everything justs break down when i come back from Thailand... Oh well, i didn't miss any of those items when i was in Thailand anyway so... You get the drift...

My computer had just received a totally new inside so it will work so technically it looks the same but sounds and is totally different from the older one... The older one sounded like a motorboat engine when it ran... Oh well, at least it is runnign decently now right??

Man, now i need to reinstall all my programmes from scrath... Oh yah, my mom just gave me an offer i could not resist: A laptop. So now my uncle is looking out for a set for me. Why my uncle?? He had the most experience with thsi stuff as he used to work in Compaq and he said he had some contacts where he can get laptops from... XD

Man... I just cleaned up so many files from my hard disk... There was once i deleted liek 92 fiels at one go... And all were secondary school work, soem all the way from sec 1... Man, i really need to learn to clear stuff when the time comes... But at least this tiem i cleared it in time for new year... with an hour to spare... phew... XD

AAHHH!!! The new TV is so flat compared to the older set!! The older set is like 5 tiems the thickness of the older set!! Ok... Random right?? Oh well... let me see if i got a photo to end it off with... Tiem to go search the CD of photos a friend gave me today...

Erm.. Not really a good pic to end things of with so more are coming... Let's see who shall i suan today... XD

Us With some Thai friends with the HUMONGUS rice fields behind us... This should be a good photo to round things off for the while. I will update some more photos next time. See yah around!!

I need a punch line, NOW!!

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!

HEY PEOPLE!!! I AM BACK FROM THAILAND!!! Came back around 10pm yesterday and was busy packing up so couldn't blog or come online. Then today my monitor didn't respond for most of the day until i had my dad take a look at it when he came back from work just now...

THE FOOD IN THAILAND ROCKS!!! I am going to miss the food the most... Oh well, i didn't went there to eat anyway... The food was just extra... XD

The first day i reached there was mainly spent travelling and settleing in Pastor Eng Kiat's house. Nothing much did on the first day. Then night came... And the next morning we woke up to the blistering cold... I never expected Thailand to be cold so i slept in shorts the first night... So i was like shivering my ass off that morning... That morning we did some visitation and went to the Chao Phraya River for some reflection. We ended up with lots of food for our reflection time as during visitation the people just gave us food... And more food... But the food was nice!! You should have the nut called buffalo horn or something, we called it the "moustach"chio nut. Why? It looks like a moustach... XD


That afternoon we went to a Kids Bible Club. We performed a short skit and had some games before having dinner with kids. soem kid was liek so close to kicking me in the crouch because of SOMEONE... Right XiaoXi?? I didn't mention any names did i??XD Oh yah... A kid also jumped onto my neck from the back and was hanging onto there for a while... I almost suffocated...


The next day we went to See Winit High School to teach English. Based to team members that went before to Thailand, the English standard was very bad. But it was fun teaching them. And thank Cass for that wake up call!! That afternoon we went to Thachang church to help out with the English Homework Club. The kids had English assesment books with Thai words... And i don't actually have much synergy with kids so... The most i actually did was help direct the kids to some answers and did some reading with them. Thanks to Chi(someone over there) who helped me!! And the dinner was heavenly, yours truely by Aunty Krisana!! YEAH!!

Third day, i felt strange i didn't miss anything in Singapore. But anyway, we went to Wat Chalermat Primary School to also teach English. The kids were more adorable, obviously... And i got the nursery kids... Imagine me... A giant among them... But nevermind, after the lesson was over, we had soem free time with the kids, you should have seen the kids playing with my watch, with all the *BEEP*ing sound... The wonders of morden technology i say... XD After that we went to a cell-group meeting at a rice mill. We did a short mime, sticky chair, and Ryan did sharing.

Next day went back to the primary school again and managed to try out the canteen food. And the kind of food was like fried stuff so it is currently BANNED IN SINGAPORE SCHOOLS!!! But it was like cheap and it looked good so i had to try some. So since nursery session ended earlier then the rest of the other levels, My teaching partner, Eunice, and i wandered around buying canteen food. XD Later in the afternoon, we did a Kid's Christmas Party. at a village. I am sure the kids had fun... especially with me suffering... T.T We had dinner at Thachang Church(YUM!!) again and helped to clean up the place to prepare it for Christmas.

Then 23th December, the day i will have a hard time forgetting... It was the day we were to do the English camp at Inburi Church. I and Eunice were in-charge of teh nursery kids again... Then there was this kid, Bat(pronounce with me, BA-T). There was this once he came to me, Then he kicked me in the crouch... Then while i was on the flooring sitting down trying to hide my pain he came with a puch to the same place... Then again... And again... Then i have to wander off... Or i would have loss my chance to have a father day... I had to change class to recover... and i never really did recover from it until the evening... The side effects of getting hit multiple times in the crouch: Blurness, pain and lasting pain... And Nat, stop laughing if you are... After that, we had dinenr at Singburi Church, and it was buffet style. The flow of food never stopped until the end... The Thais beat Singporeans at food man... Singapore only get big portions, but in Thailand, There will always be extra food left over, and the left over ain't just 1-2 plates, it is one whole tub of food...

Christams Eve!!! we were ar Inburi church with some at service, some at Sunday school and some at Youth service.
we had luch tehre before heading to Thachang church for for their service and sunday School. Dinner was at Thachang Church again(YEAH!!! BOOO YAH!!!). And we went Carolling to houses after that.

CHRISTMAS!!! We did some helped to clean up another church in the morning before heading out to KhokChang village to do an open air Evangelistic Concert. It was mainly kids and it was also lots of fun... XD

Then Boxing Day!!! We first went to Inburi High School to do a short christmas programme. Then we did a few visitation. And WOW... Was the padi fields big... Next time when the internet is more stable then i upload them... Then in the afternoon we went to Wat Yai Soi Village for another Evangelistic Concert. You should see me escort this small little girl home after the event... She was like so CUTE... Wait... I don't have her photo... Need to get someone to send it to me...

Then 27th was spent packing up and travelling form Singburi Provience to the airport then to Singapore... We almost missed our flight... But thank God the flight was delayed 10 minutes... Divine Intervention, yeah?? XD

The trip was memorable... I ended up with some video clips and pictures i cam blackmail people with... HEHEHE... That should be enough for now... And man... What a long post... Oh well, see yah around!!

The Greatest Gift

One of the grestest gift i have ever received is Jesus Christ. Wonder why am i doing this all of a sudden?? It is just the pastor challenged teh youth in my church to do this. XD

Have any of you ever wondered what the true meaning of Christmas is?? It is the coming of Jesus. Unlike popular believe, christmas is not the most important festival for us Christians. Easter is. Why? Christmas is like only the birthday of Jesus, While Easter shows that HE is Truely the son of God having died and rose again.


I am not sure how to elaborate further so i shall stop here. If You got any questions can ask me when i come bacl from Thailand on the 27th. So till then, see yah around!!

yeah... Yeah... YEah... YEAh... YEAH!!!

Ok, stupid title i know... But i can't help it... I MANAGED TO GET INTO NANYANG JC!!! YEAH!!

Today, i also visited Cassandra in the hospital with Nat. She looked so weak at the moment until that i had to help her wack Nat. And she always whack me everytime she sees me, but this time she was like strugling in the bed to get a good position... And a simple thing like coughing also seems so difficult and painful... Man, and i almost ended up like that during Chinese New Year this year... The only reason why i didn't go through it was because the the doctor decided i was fine enough and didn't have to go through the operation to get a tube stuck into me... Hope she gets welll soon enough... But not so soon as that i can't run away from being whacked...


Man... Now waiting to download finish the latest bleach episode... My siblings are hogging on to the internet... When it can be downloaded finish in around 2 hours it now takes 3 to 4 hours... Man...


I think i will go pester people about which JC tehy are going to now... Mwahahahaha... Remeber i will be away from the 18th to 27th of December, so this may be the last update until when i come back, but remember to tag my blog!! See yah!!

Stupid dreams... Cause me to to be scared of good things happening to me...

Just Need Some Minor Details...

Hey people, here i m(. blogspot.com!!! XD) to tell you that i will be away from the 18th to the 27th of December. Callign me during those periods may result in out rageous phone bills. XD

I will be away in Thailand for a mission trip. What is a mission trip? Well, it is something like a Christian go some where to share the word of God. Anything more elaboration may bore you people so i shall keep it short. Want to know more?? Go google for it... What else did you think google is for?? XP

Oh well... remember that I will not be around for 10 days so this website may be barren for that long a time unless i can find time and a computer to blog something... Other than that, you people can keep here as lively as possible by ahve conversations on my tagboard. You never know if there is someone else reading it... XD

That should be enough for now... maybe when i get some more time i will post up the mini vid of Nat doing ParaPara... Oh well, see yah around!!

P.S. REMEMBER TO TAG!!!

Erm... Sawat Dii Khap?

Hello people, long time no see and update. How's it going over there with you people?? I heard many of you found jobs, or are out on holidays or are busy with something... Oh well, better get down to business, or my business that is. XD

I have been busy the past few days with preparation for my mission trip to Thailand (the land of a thousand smiles?) Preparation of skit and dances going quite okay... Missed my second lesson of Thai lessons due to some medical appointment just to get my medical report... Now thinking about what is needed for the trip as i am 2nd in-charge of logistics...

Man... First it was Delia with teh same Chinese surname as me... Now found out another person in church has the same Chinese surname too... Found out by accident cause some one mistaken us beign siblings as her surname is feng, which of course wasn't true. It then sparked up my curiousity about what her Chinese surname was so i asked... Then the answer: The 'hourse' figure with 2 dots besides. My face reaction: 0.0 . Then i said same as mine. Then she like went, "EEEWWWWWW!!" -_-'''


And two evenings ago when i had to attend a church meeting up to 9:30pm and i reached home around 10pm++ as i went to grab a bite before going home. After i reached home, y mom started talkign to me about peopel from the mission team. then when she reached someone, she said, "Hey, i saw that person's father that day at teh NTUC nearby. They stay some where nearby too." I was like so... erm... -.-'''. Why? I could have hitched a ride home as her dad was there to fetch her home... T.T

Ah well... That should be enough for now... So till next time, better tag my tagboard... XD

There are days I look out the window hoping that it will happen, but it never will...

1 More Straw To Go...

Just back home from chalet and public concert. Chalet was fun but tiring, and the concert was enjoyable still... But i wonder why am i still here in this house anyway. On my way to the Singapore Conference Hall, my mom called me asking why didn't i put my clothing into the washing machine, and before i could explain myself, she went, "Next time you not going liao! *Beep*" Then she put down the phone. Man, i said i was putting the clothing aside in the balcony and she said she was ok with that, now she says she said that she asked me to put the clothing into the washing machine.

And she goes on about why hasn't i helped in the housework when i came back but go on straight to the computer. I said i needed a break, but she went, "Then you go chalet for what?? " Man, she will never know the problems in my life, cause she never really bothered about them, and now she asks me didn't i have my break yet?? I never have any break, everywhere i go i just can't sit down and let everybody do things with me slacking. Why that?? I was brought up this way. Who cares if people takes advantage of me? As long as my conscience is clear, itr doesn't matter.

Maybe my family should try living without me. Let them find someone else to shoulder the responsibility on my shoulders now. Let someone else take over all the housework i have been relied on to do. Let them find someone else that can take my mom's temper without blowing up. Let them find someone else who can help keep my dad from jumping down. Let them find someone else who can speak up for my siblings. Let them find someone else who can speak up for whats right and tell the truth. Let them find someone who they think can replace me. I would like to see that happen, if they can find such a person that is.

Guess the chalet was was tiring for me as i was the handy-man for most of the things, but i had fun doing it. I just hope next time i do this kinds of things i get more sleep... And it was refreshing to see everybody working together in the BBQ. Never had i seen such a united stand in the class for something POSITIVE before. Even the person who i thought was the quietest in the class was doing something. It was a touching sight... *SNIFF* To bad it will probably be the last time... *SNIFF*

Ok... Enough of this crap from this tired person. See yah around.

Busy.. Busy... Busy... ARGH!!!

Man... Just came back from my graduation dinner and dance. It was fun and the food was great. But i am not going to lie that i enjoyed myself fully. Maybe i as just tired from my tight schedule. But i just can't really find the mood to really play my heart out. Oh well... hope this doesn't carry over to the chalet...

Yesterday was the Blogskinners BBQ otuing. It was muddy... VERY muddy... And Adrain, Leslie and me had to sacrifice ourselves walking in the rain to find the BBQ pit... Which is at the other end of the park from where we were... Then we walk and walk and walk until we wet and then tell the others how to come when it has stopped raining... Next time, maybe i shall not help Adrain anymore... XD

Now... Tomorrow i ahve usher duty in church early in the morning and now it is late at night... Then after that in the afternoon got mission trip meeting... Then Monday to Wednesday class chalet... Then Wednesday night School Public Concert... Tight schedule right??

I better go to bed now since my hair is finally dry after that bath a few minutes ago... See yah around!!

Would You Choose Water Over Wine?

Stop And Listen

All i asked for was that my mom just stop moving and listen. But no... there she goes shooting of the mouth without thinking about what are the consequences. This situation has been expected everything my bro get back any results, especially today when he got back his PSLE results. HE got a 169. And once my mom came home, all she did was just went,"See lah! Don't study some more!" And many more variations. Guess my dad got fed-up with it and bursted out. He waned to walk out of the house but my mom stopped him. My bro was also breaking down over the pressure.

That was when i stepped in. My mom was like saying that it is all her fault and my dad has no reason to walk out. My mom said she didn't wanted my dad angry as he had a heart condition. I tried to get them to sit down, but only my dad did. I tried to get them to talk it out, but no... my om wasn't actually listening or getting what i was trying to say. In the end, I just gave up. She asn't listening, why waste anymore of my breath explaining that all she did was just bring up the past and kept putting my bro down. Ah well, can't say i didn't try. In the end, i got the image totally different from what she said to my dad. She kept defending herself, thus showing that she believes she is right.

I guess i plan to ignore her for the time being, like how she tends to ignore how any of us in the family feels. She should have seen this coming. the last time this happened, she said she was going to change and control her temper better, but no... now she says she can't change. What am i being taken for here?? Someone to help you defuse conflicts wich you started? Next time i am going to stand down until it reaches the limit. Let's see how she is going to settle it properly without me.

Man... Today i almost got un-necessary attention too. Some how, Adrain convinced the head of blogskins to make me featured contributor when i did nothign at all to deserve it. Thank goodness i managed to get him to change it. Or else the future will be very bleak for me...

Argh... Enough emo-ing. going to chase my mom off my bed. She thinks i have forgiven her, but who actually forgives someone so fast for something so big?? She better face her problem soon before it ballooms...

Ah... Enough for today. See yah around!!

I was there when you didn't see me. Now you need me, too bad, cause I'm gone and will never be back.

Farewell Council...

Ah... The farewell party is finally here... Decided to go because F-cube: Food, Fun, Friends. Yeah. There were funny moments, strange moments, embaressing moments and touching moments. Sometimes you can't help but tear when you see everyone around you tearing up. Ok, i admit i cried a little. But come on, Melvin also cried a little... Wait a minute, that is no excuse... That kind of behaviour is expected from him... XD

Argh... Still feeling a little emo at the moment... Especially when i got hugged by crying people when i was off guard... And still feeling pain from the hug from Minda and SweeHao and from that jump hug from Yingen... Fell on the floor on the jump hug... Ouch...

Man... Tired already... Going to take a break before going to bed... See yah!!

Break the limit.

Eat Till Full...

Yesterday was at Cystal Jade Restuant. Ate until very full. Never ate so full for such a long time. Next time i am going to go back there, that is if my parents can afford it... XD

Man... It is painful saving up money for my mission trip... I don't even know how much i have to save up to... Look like this coming class chalet will be time for me to be as trifty as possible... T.T


I think i have given up on my private blog. It will be free for you to find but i won't tell you the address. You have to be damn lucky to find it... XD

Oh well... Going to look for something to do now... Maybe play or whatever... See yah.

It's Gone...

Interesting what the 'O' levels can do to one without any signs. 1st is that i have gone crazy. Second is that i am now lost without really a goal in mind. thirdly is that i am worrying about my future. Forth is that i suddenly don't fel anything for any more girls. Not that i am becomeing gay or anything, but i just can't be bothered about it anymore. It's just like the feeling suddenly disappeared, it's gone just like that.

There was so many things i would like to do during the exams, but now i have lost the mood to do them. I have suddenly lost my solitaire playing skills too. It was probably only now did i realise that a lot of those things require a lot of $$ to start, Put them all together and you have me in debt.

I remembered during when we got the news that the papers will be pushed forward an hour on thursday and friday. Having gotten teh same news from 2 totally unrelated people must mean it is true, so i decided to spread the news too. A few replied. One was saying thanks, 2 others were in doubt. One of those in doubt was my crush a few years back. Let's call her J. She's attached now so don't ask me to do stupid things. It's interesting how some things work out. We never worked out, but probably kept in contact due to my sheer will. Maybe i still have to learn to accept certain things. Maybe i have already accepted my fate.

I used to wonder why was i helping people when i had nothing to gain. I knew the answer to that question deep in my heart, but was probably afraid of facing it. I helped people because i want to. Because it makes them happy. I didn't to it for my own gain but for their gain. So now i tell this to myself everytime i feel like giving up, that i am doing it not for myself, but for others.

Some times i wonder if i am a burden to people, it i was better not ever being borned at all. It not what comes naturally to my mind but what peopel around me put into my head. Some times people can say they are your friends only to talk behind your back, saying what an ugly person you are. It teh previous statement true? I don't thing so. J asked me not to give her a birthday present. I don't know why. And some other people force me to give them presents. Anyway, then it sounded like she didn't wanted to see me. All she said she needed was a greeting. I insisted on a present for a while until i realised she was really serious that i give her nothing at all. I gave in. It just wasn't worth it anymore.

I guess i gave up on many things cause it just wasn't worth it. And i still will be giving up things because they arn't worth it. What's teh use of fighting for a worthless cause when it will cost all you have and you will still lose?? It's all about weighting the pros and cons. When there are too many cons, give it up, it ain't worth it.

All the feelings,
It's all gone.
Don't even try to bring them back.

It's never coming back.
I'm sure.
Don't call me a fool for giving up,
It's worth it no more.

IT'S OVER!!! RUN RIOT!!! WOO!!!

IT OVER!!! IT'S FINALLY OVER!!! THE WAR WITH 'O' LEVELS HAS ENDED!!! I SURVIVED!!! YEAH!!! OH YEAH!!! YEAH!!! XD

oh well, back to more pressing matters. Should i get a job or something?? Even thoguth i wll be spending the next close to 3/4 of my life working?? Ok... maybe i will look around... if i am free that is... XD

finally a burden is off my shoulders... Now to start searching for that gundam model... LET ME FIND IT!!! It's just such a work of beauty that i have to get it for myself... ARGH!! XD

Now i am going to chill on my com while waiting for this bleach episode to download finish. SEE YAH AROUND MAN!!! XD

Losing It

ARGH... I am losing it... All the stress is getting to my head... Want to destress by playing games also got no mood to play... Wait. I am in the mood to play solitaire, maybe i shall go play 1 round now...

YES!! Just completed another round of solitaire. Have you ever wondered how i got inspiration for my current blogskin? It was an idea from an anime. Actually an ONA, or Original Net Animation, as it first released on the net. Look up Gundam Seed C.E. 73 Stargazer. I just watched the subbed last part of 3 parts. Sure watched it before but that was when it wasn't subbed yet. Finally now i understand what is happening unlike last time i had to read facial expressions and body languages. It is probably the best Gundam series i have seen. AND I WANT THAT STARGAZER GUNDAM MODEL!!! T.T

This is how it is supposed to look like. I am planning to brush up my modelling skills on other models before working on this model. GAH!!!

Oh yah, i wouldn't mind if anyone is willing to buy the model for me. It should be out any day soon. SPONSER ME!!!

Ok... Sorry for being hyper and all. Can't help it i say, i'm losing it after all... XD

That should be enough craziness for today. See yah around!!

It's 10% luck... 20% skill... 15% concentrated power of will... 5%pleasure... 50% pain... and a 100% reason to remember the name...

Embrace The Darkness

I am feeling kind of dark now even though it is kind of bright and early in the morning. I was feeling a little confused yesterday night, but i guess i am alright now. Honestly, i would like to hide in the darkness for a while, but since it is day, everywhere is bright and i have lost my hiding place...

I guess it is interesting people can be refering to you without you even knowing about it. And the worst thing is that you aprticipate in the conversation too. Guess I just made a fool of myself. But i guess i do that all the time don't i? So nothing much surprising about it i guess...

Did i actually tell you that actually thought of killing every body that ever knew me then running away to start a new life in some other country?? I didn't?? Well, now you know...

Oh well... I am going to watch you-tube for a while before i go back to studying... Enough of me for today... See yah!!

Hope Is Just A Word

Ah... I have been neglacting my private blog recently... But i wonder who reads it anyway?? There ain't much sign of people reading this blog either besides the tags once in a while which i try to reply to all the time... Dead blog already... Or actually more active then i thought it is??

Man... Not many people are onlie in the morning... I was hoping to find someone i can at least play a bit with... But oh well, they are probably studying hard so i shall not disturb them... 'O' Levels have already started... Tomorrow will be english paper, so i probably should start looking for some motivation for the paper 1 and start studying for the letter formats... Man...

The internet is just so big and full of information now... I could just go to blogger and search for some person's name and the school and i can find post and pictures of the person... I guess boredom drives one to do interesting things... Or boring things i guess...

Lost without a goal in sight,
Wandering aimlessly throught the night.
See me she will never do,
Cause in the shadows i loom.

What was that?? The product of boredom and stress all added together. Maybe another one will come out along the way again... Oh well... Now where was i?? Oh... No where at all...

I need your smile to light up my day,
To make all the pain go away...

Here i go again and just came up with some 2 liner again... Must be going crazy because of the 'O' Levels... Feeling stressed and nervous...

I have been playing solitaire the past few days. And that is a statement of how bored i am. I just finished another round of solitaire. Wow... I seem to be getting better at it... Ha...

Hmm... Now i am going to read through my english before heading out to get my lunch later... See yah!

The reason to believe is no more. I can see no future or hope in this. Just leave it as that cause I really doubt that you want anything more to do with me.

Feel Like Falling Sick...

Looks like tomorrow is the beginning of the end. The beginning of the 'O' Levels and the end of the secondary school. ARGH!!! I am getting stressed just thinking about it...

Today, i had a nose bleed. It just came while i was sneezing... I must have sneezed too hard... Nothing else much happened recently, with the 'O' Levels around the corner. But recently i discovered somethign ironic: I seem to be better at playing games during this period. Hey, i was just playing to de-stress, so don't come for my neck. It has been so boring staring at books and notes all day anyway...

Hey, if you need some thing to watch during the exams to destress, go you-tube and search for akihabara@deep. It is about otakus, or fans of animes, and their story. Sounds strange?? Wait till you see it, the lame-ness is alot higher than that of mine, WeiJin and all of us in class combined together. But word of warning thought, each episode last close to an hour so you should watch a 1 part out of 5 for each episode a day, as you-tube has only been uploaded to the third episode. the series has reached the 8th subbed episode by the way. Or a beter choice is to watch it after the exams. And a even better choice is to not watch it at all, agree? People like us will only get addicted to this kind of things...

Man, i am tired... maybe i will rest early tonight and hope i will be refreshed for tomorow... ARGH... That shouild be enough for today... See yah around and all the best for the exams!!

WHAT'S UP PEOPLE!!

Ok!! I know what's up!!! Don't tell me... I am quite sure i know... It is the ceiling!!! XD

I am feeling tired... Also a little sick... Dunno why the past few days got flu with block nose... AND I WANT TO STUDY NO MORE!!! ARGH!!! I am in games-playing mode, but trying to force myself to study... ARGH!!!!

ARGH!!! I just saw the a gundam model which is selling at a cheaper price at a online store compared to what i saw at a store in Singapore... I WANT ONE!!! T.T

I got nothing to blog about at the moment i guess... My mision trip has already begun preparation, but i don't have to do anything at the moment due to my 'O' Levels. YEAH.

Ok... That should be enough for today. See yah around!!

Alone I Guess...

Hey people-who-are-still-reading-blogs-during-study-break, how have you been?? There doesn't seem to be much people here nowadays as the tagboard doesn't have anybody tagging... Man, look like my blog's rating has just went down...

I am getting tired of studying... Where is everyone?? Are you people studying too? I'm sure you are... I am taking such a long time just to type one entry now, usually getting distracted by alot of other things... And the same can be said about my studies... Losing steam... Come on, i am human too...

ARGH!!! I AM GOING CRAZY!!! Anybody rejoicing over this?? Man, just kill me and get this over with... My siblings have finished their exams and are playing away everyday in front of me... Just help me pull that trigger...

Hey, look like now you have proof that i am insane. I am just talking about anything that is coming to my mind now...

Man, this ulcer hurts... And my mom forgot to help me fidn the mouth wash to treat it... Using salt is damn painful, but looks like it is the only other option then... T.T

ARGH!!! I am dreaming about what to do after the 'O' levels... Someone please pull me back down to earth... I am losing it over nothing already...

Ok... That should be enough random-ness for today... So let's celebrate the ending of the fow of crap...

Will you ever look at me the way I look at you??

The Reason.

Everything happens for a reason. The only thing is how we look at it, or we just do not know the reason. This problem may occur because of this "stupid" reason to you. But to another person, this reason may be valid. Many problems occur because we don't find the other person's reason isn't valid enough for us, i guess. Accepting people's reason is not easy if it is totally different from our own values. But it is not impossible. That's why i choose to sit on the fence most of the time. It gives me a clearer view on things even thought my ass hurts after staying there for a long time... XD

Oh well... I figured out the reason to why i will never have super powers... Cause if i had any, i would have ended up killing everyone accidentally and thus go crazy with guilt and thus became insane and end up a super villian. Ok... That was a bit random... But thats the truth. SO you people better be happy that i don't have any super powers. XD

Wow... I just realised my post is both serious and non-serious at the same time. What is this called?? Erm... Just typing what comes to my mind?? Losing my mind?? Or i just seriously can't stay serious?? Ok... I shall stop being lame...

I am tired. Tired of waiting. After the 'O' Levels i am planning to take up a new hobby. What hobby?? Gundam modelling. It is not really an easy thing if you actually took time to find out all the equipment needed. But now, studies come first. But not before God and life and health that is.

Nat says i haven't been updating enough. Is that true?? Not that i really care as now i am studying, but maybe this place collect dust very fast. But come on, look at Sammi's blog, updated only once in a "Whatever-colour-you-want" moon. So just tell me your opinions, ok?

That's enough for today. Some people around me ain't happy for reasons of their own, and i hope things get better for them. Cause like i said before, only i am allowed to be depressed. Yah, i know i am selfish, so much taht i can help the fish monger. But i prefer that i am the depressed one cause i feel i can hide it quite well. You can share your problems with me. It will lessen your burden. But i will retract the previous statement if my phone bill starts to go up obscene-ly. Ok, you can stay deopressed, but do not dwell in it for too long. Learn from me that it is never a good thing.

Alright, i better end here before this becomes the "Neverending" post. Get it?? The Neverending Story? The Neverending Post? Ok... Nevermind... See yah!

All i am is a phone all away, 16 hours a day, seven days a week. Public holidays non-inclusive.

GO AND STUDY!!!

Yes, if you have time to read this you should be studying, so... GET BACK TO YOUR BOOKS!!! XD

Ok, enough of the study crap... I have studied both physics and chemistry... Now to move on to other subjects... Geography... Social studies... Both maths... Thats all right?? Or did i forget something?? Hope i didn't...

Was out studying with Minda and Xiaoping yesterday... Was struggling to not get distracted by Minda's lameness so i could study, but i gave up in the end and decided to grab a bite instead... And now my pic is posted BIG BIG on his blog... T.T

ARGH... Tired after studying Chemistry... Exhausted... Want to rest and also want to play now... SAVE ME... ARGH... All the random-ness is coming out... Ha... But be teh fatigue getting to me...

Enough for now... AND YOU BETTER GET BACK TO STUDYING!! See yah!

Anotehr Personality Quiz...

Ok... It seems more accurate then the previous one, but you have to try it for yourself. Heere you go... http://quizilla.com/users/katerinad18/quizzes/The%20Most%20Accurate%2C%20In-Depth%2C%20Personality%20Analysis%20Test%20Ever%20Created%20on%20Quizilla/

My result?? Here you go...

You are focused on making the world a better place for people. Your primary goal is to find out your meaning in life. What is your purpose? How can you best serve humanity in your life?
You are an idealist and a perfectionist, who drives yourself hard in your quest for achieving the goals you have identified for yourself.
You are highly intuitive about people. You rely heavily on your intuition to guide you, and use your discoveries to constantly search for value in life. You are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through your value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help you define or refine your own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - you are driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, you are a good listener and put people at ease. Although you may be reserved in expressing emotion, you have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making you a valued friend and confidante. You can be quite warm with people that you know well.
You do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If you must face it, you will always approach it from the perspective of your feelings and emotions. In conflict situations, You place little importance on who is right and who is wrong, instead focusing on the way that the conflict makes you feel, and indeed you don't really care whether or not you're right.
You don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes you appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, you make a very good mediator, and you are good at solving other people's conflicts, because you intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
You are flexible and laid-back, until one of your values is violated. In the face of your value system being threatened, you can become an aggressive defender, fighting passionately for your cause.
When you have adopted a project or job which you're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for you. Although you are not a detail-oriented individual, you will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for your "cause".
When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, you are completely unaware of such things. You might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of your project booklet.
You do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. You focus on your feelings and it is difficult for you to deal with impersonal judgment. You don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes you naturally ineffective at using it. You try to avoid impersonal analysis, although you may have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical.
Under stress, it's not uncommon for you to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.
You may have problems working on a project in a group, because your standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, you may have a "control" problem. You need to work on balancing your high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, you will never be happy with yourself, and you may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with your life.
You are a talented writers. You may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing yourself verbally, but you have a wonderful ability to define and express what you're feeling on paper.
Your personality type appears frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. You are at your best in situations where you're working towards the public good, and in which you don't need to use hard logic.
You function well i the world and can accomplish great and wonderful things, which you will rarely give yourself proper credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been people like yourself.

Hah... Very long right?? Take your time to read... Cause i also got lost some where a few times. XD

My dad just got back from the hospital again... This time he was there cause a machine blew up in his face. Yes, BLEW UP, and in the FACE too... Now i have to help him apply his eye drop every hour... Look like i won't just be studying this study break... I have to take care of my siblings and dad too... Talk about responsibilities... Hah.

Enough for today. Have fun still next time. See yah around.

Oh, I am copying you Nat?? I am so sorry... XP

Long Post Coming Up Some Other Time...

Was actually planning to blog about missing school and people and things, but i guess i will leave it for some other time when i have enough time to finish everything i have to say in one go. But it will be going out to everybody, so watch out for it. (:

School ends finally... 10 days to physics practical... Studying started... Life goes on... Something ahppened to my dad's computer... I feel tired... I want to sleep more... I need new blogskin... I want that new gundam model... I want to start new hobby... Man, talk about random huh?? Oh well, i am making this post short as i have to go do some housework anyway...

Now back after my houswork... Man... was it hazy... I took a few photos of how it looked like but i can't find the wire... Man... But PSI level of 130 was already quite high, and when i took pics in the direction of Minda's house, most of it was just haze. That's how bad it was.

I set a record for myself today. I played computer for only around 10 minutes!! Yeah. Tomorrow will probably be only 5 minutes, but might as well not play right?? STUDY ALL THE WAY!!! XD

Man, you people should have seen how Yong Kang was trying to convince me to go play LAN with him yesterday. HE wanted us to go play this morning. He was so desperate. Begged me to go. When that didn't work he tried another method but it was a guranteed failure. Why? Cause I wanted to study. Yes, study. Better start now then later right?? And i will tell you how desperate he was... He told me this, "I asking Sam leh... If she go you can go wit her wat..." Please... When had this method ever worked on me?? Find your own minion that you can influence... XP

Oh well... It has been confirmed that i will be flying off on the 17thor 18th of December for my mission trip. Will only be back on the 27th. So this means i may not be replying calls or messages for that period of time. Will anybody miss me?? It will also be my first time on an aeroplane, so i am damn nervous... But the worst thing is: I won't be celebrating Christmas in Singapore. But the good thing is: I won't be celebrating Chrstmas in Singapore. Why?? Obvious not celebrating in here with friends and family is no fun... But the good thing is that i don't have to give out presents!!! But must remember my presents hor... Keep them for me until i come back, cause i still want them. At the most i bring back some souvenirs for you people, ok?? See if i save up enough $$ first... XP

Things change very fast in lifes sometimes. Friends to foes, love to hate. Conflict cannot be avoided i guess... But why let what has already passed affect the present and future?? So what if you are scarred? So what if it is awkward? If you let it affect you, you are technically letting yourself be stuck at a road-block at a certain part of your life. Then progresswill be made. Get over it. It never will be the same again, but isn't that an excuse to avoid the problem?? ow much worst can it get if you say it is so bad already?? Look like i am scolding myself over here too... But i am slowly trying to get over this road-block. What about you?

ARGH... Enough of this nonsense for a day... See yah around, yah?

Live life with no regrets. It's too short for regrets. And keep smiling. Cause you never know when that smile is needed to pick up another's day.

Open??

Yah, today i went to the NYJC open house. Walk until leg very tired... Saw Shawn Wee and Carrie Cheong from 9.87FM and many old school mates, like my seniors and ex-classmates. Too bad i didn't have the time to catch up with any of them. Tomorrow will be going to SAJC open house too after i re-new my passport... Passport expired 2 years ago... Now have to re-new for my end of teh year mission trip to Thailand... Hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow... Now emo time...

Man... You ignored me... But you won't even read this blog and i know it... Ok, maybe you do but i will never know... Guess you just didn't want to see me or hear from me right?? If you want that i am fine with that... I have let go of the past... What about you?? Look like i am just an obstacle in the way then... Maybe i am thinking too much... But who knows what is the truth?? Ok then, you don't want a birthday present no matter how much i insist on giving... And guess sawing you again today i felt you were probably just trying to get away from me... I shall make that job easier for you then... I will stay away from you.... The only time you will hear from me will be on msn and sms then... Or should i reduce it to no communication at all? Then there will be totally no problem as there is nothing to talk about right?? Oh well... What's the use of letting it out when she will never know?? Waste of effort...

Told yah SweeHao!! Everybodies' blog got emo post one. XD That should be enough for today... See yah people next time.

Cry I won't. Regret I won't. They never change things for the better, only make them worst.

Hazy Day...

Lousy haze... make me feel the strain in my chest... The air smells so bad... worst still is that my room dont have air-con... argh... when will this haze go away??

Just came back from Minda's house. Was there to celebrate mid autumn festival (or something like that...). Had fun there... Got food to eat... got people to be with... But something seems missing... I will figure out what is that when i have time... But yeah... it was fun, and filling, too!! XD

Ha... Feeling tired now so shall wrap things up here... A more serious post maybe next time... See yah!!

I am nothing more than a friend. May it stay that way...

Quiz again...

Everybody is doing it and i was bored so i decided to do it...

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

Erm... ok...

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Bull-shit?

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Only time will tell...

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Bull-shit again?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

Erm... Not sure bout this...

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

Okie...

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

Ok... ok...

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Hmm... i think so...

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Hah... Heart rather than head?? Most of the time it is solved with the head...

Man... The quiz can be a bit crap at times... Some of it is pure nonsense i feel... but this kind of things can never be 100% accurate right?? Oh well...

I don't understand why I feel sad, everytime I see you out with someone new...

Stupid Haze...

Back again!! This time to complain about the haze!! It was damn bad today. All i have to do is take a look out the window and a layer of haze can be seen right in front of me. It is gets any worst, i probably won't be allowed out the house. The worst thing?? I am feeling more tired, probably due to the haze aggravating my condition... I was breathless after my walk back home, when usually i will feel energetic when i get home.

When i reached home, i started up my computer and logged into my account. Then my anti-virus crashed on me... I wanted to continue downloading my gundam episode... Then this happens... Spent around 1-2 hours solving the problem... Then i have to wait for the episode to download for another 1-2 hours... ARGH!!! But the wait was worth it at least... That episode was beautiful... If you understand it that is... XD

I won't talk bout my results here... scared people say things bout me... But all i am going to say is, " I WILL GET MY A1 FOR PHYSICS BACK!!" And i have to work on my humans too... Ah... Time to start studying at full steam...

I am goin to share a song again. Here you go...

Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg

Well you're the closest thing I have
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didn't last
But I could never call you mine
Cause I could never call myself yours
And if we were really meant to be
Well then we justify destiny
Its not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

Well I can't let go
No, I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go
I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

And then we saw our paths diverge
And I guess I felt OK about it.
Until you got with another man,
And then I couldn't understand
Why it bothered me so.
How we didn't die we just
Never had a chance to grow.

I can't let go
No, I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go
I can't move on from the past.
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

And it might not make much sense
To you or any of my friends
Though somehow still you affect the
Things I do.
And you can't lose what you never had
I don't understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new.

I can't let go
No, I can't let go
No, I can't let go of you.

I can't let go
No, I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go
I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

I can't let go
No, I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to.
I can't let go
I can't move on from the past

How are you going to interpret how i am related to this song is up to you. That should be enough emo-ness for a day.

That's all for today. See yah next time!

Yup, New Skin Again...

Just completed this skin. It is supposed to be an improvement of the previous one. Hope it really is. Based on my sis opinion, this skin is actually better than the previous one. How true it is, i will find out in the coming days...

Prelims are over. Now brake for a while then before back to studying at full steam. I want to get that A1 for my sciences and maths. Is that possible? Yes. Do i think i can do it? Sometimes no. Why? Everything just keeps getting more and more difficult with each coming day. Ten year series, here i come...

Man... The gundam episode is not loading... LOAD!!! The problem with torrents: They can be very unreliable at times... I just saw some videos on how a professional gundam modeller does and paints a model. It was amazing. It was either he destroy the model or turn it into a totally beautiful piece of art... I want to take up this hobby, but don't have the space or resources... T.T

Oh well, enough for now. See yah next time.

What ever will be will be... The future is not ours to see...

I Feel A Need For A Emo Post Here...

All the very emo post has been all going to my private blog such that this place has became happier. Not that i blog on my private blog much now a days and i know the previous post was abit emo with the anger. Looks like i became a more relaxed and hapier person already. And damn... Youtube took down the video of that magician due to complains by Fuji TV or something... Now what?? Only the Japanese people can watch it?? Crap...

This year D&D, i actually wanted to ask somebody. But i asked myself, what is the use of asking?? Chances of being accepted is close to nothing at all. She's attached. And i ain't excactly the nicest looking guy on Earth. Oh well, too late to ask already anyway. Life goes on. And i got a life to live. So what if she is attached?? I still got a friend. And don't anyone come ask me about the D&D anymore. It will just be another event after the 'O' Levels. So just let me keep it out of my head.

I got bored of computer games... Everything is like the same. Now i can't get pass the a mission in Jedi Academy and thus became bored of the game. Ha. Maybe i will try playing it again some other time. Now, back to studies.

Oh well... Tomorrow is the end of the prelims. I only hope i did well but my feeling tells me other wise. The results will only be seen on Friday. Oh well... Life still goes on... It doesn't stop because of a paper.

That's enough for today. See yah next time.

Shouting At Me For No Hell Of A Reason Gets You No Where

The first time my mom came back was to complain. "Why use this spoon? This spoon is dirty!! Don't use it!!" Man... Did you tell me not use it?? No... And what is the problem with that spoon?? It is still a spoon... Oh... the nshe went on like, "Next time don't use this spoon!" for around 3 times. Being really irritated, I just kept quiet and continued eating my dinner. I was wondering if i should just walk out of the kitchen and just skip dinner totally. Then she asked, "You want some more rice?" I usually had second servings, but this time she totally spoiled my mood. I tried to ignore her but she wanted to scoop me some more rice. I muttered a no but she insisted. It was only when i gave the evil eye did she get the signal that she has already went overboard and i had no mood to eat anymore.

Man... does having a bad day at work give one the right to vent it out at home?? NO!! I don't take abuse. You think i just let you scold me for no hell of a reason, hell no. And you know that i am the one right at the moment too, so why bother to even continue?? I could have just took the folk and stabbed you. And that, won't be nice. Imagine the headlines, "Unreasonable mom stabbed to death by son with folk." Laughable? Definately.

I feel i can go on and on now cause she hasn't bothered to apologised. Not worth it?? In the end she will be the one suffering, not me. Cause out of all the people in the house, removing me will result in a problems like who is going to do the housework when my parents are busy or tired? My sis? Maybe... My bro? Never. Sure you feed me, but i am quite sure alot of parents want to haev a kid like me. Can't see you are that lucky?? I pity you...

You look at everyone else but me. I wonder why i still remain when most of the time i just feel unappreciated.

Never Expected Anything Back

Just to explain the title: I do things for people. I never expected anything back. Besides you being happy. Althought being appreciated would be nice.

Argh... I think i am addicted to Jedi Academy now... Bring on those lousey enemies!! You can't beat me!! MUAHAHAHAHA... Why can't they win?? I always save my game before fighting them. So in the end, i always win. YEAH!!! XD

Tomorrow is Maureen's birthday... So HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!! (Even thought i got a feeling she will only see this when it becomes belated birthday... Or birthday itself so...) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! Saves the trouble of the unpredictability of life, as all aspects are covered. YEAH!!! XD

Opps... Was being lame again... Don't know why but i just feel lame the pass few days... Must be the limping around the pass few days... Ha... Was lame again without knowing it... XD

I got into the mission team for the mission trip to Thailand at the end of the year. Good thing? I will be having fun. Bad thing? Will be spending Christmas out of Singapore. Oh well, nothing loss, nothing gained... And many more will gain from my work, or at least i hope so...

Oh well... Got to go now... See yah!

I tried so hard and got so far... But in the end, it doesn't even matter... - Linkin Park

Just When All Seems Well...

Just when it looks okay, everything can just go down the drain... Erm, ignore the random-ness, i just wanted to explain the random title. Just feel there is a need to explain anyway, cause study too much until must also apply what i have learned to real life. XD

For the past few days i have been gettign tired of playing computer games. Probably play it to pass time only, besides the sense of accomplishment when passing a mission, nothing more. Oh, i just started playing Star Wars Jedi Knight: Jedi Academy again. Probably cause seeign SweeHao having so much fun playing it, I decided to play... Finally i am able to pass the first mission... I remember i used to be unable to even complete the fist mission, even with cheats, as i always lose my way in the map... Oh well, now i am stuck at the mission with teh AT-ST... How am i suppose to take down a machine with just a light saber??

Go take a look at this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=nxHq1__Hccc. Man... I wish i could do that... If i could, imagine what kind of pperson i would be... *drools* Opps... Sorry... Daydreaming... XD

Just finished hanging up the laundry... Man... Tired, so i shall end here and go brush my teeeth... See yah around.

"You Have STOLEN My Heart..."- Dashboard Confessional

This, That, These, Those

Prelims... Man... Tired of studying, but also tired of playing, so no choice but to study... Good or bad thing?? For you to decide...

I stopped playing too much at the moment, but only to get back to designing blogskins for myself!!! I am planning to change skin again!! This skin seems a little too plain to me and some people. So far, it is looking good. Now all that is left is the coding. It probably will look abut the samebut i feel it looks better. Try so many colour combination be4 come up with one that i feel looks nice. Don't worry, cause it won't be yellow anymore after the change. (:

Wow... Never knew trying to teach someone DotA is so difficult... especially when i am actually a noob myself... Minda going to enter the gaming industry cause people want him to play with them for the WCG... He has to learn totally from scratch... No easy thing... Oh well, now is time for studying, not playing, so... STUDY KELVIN!!!

Nothing else much to update on now... So here i sign off. See yah around!

Seeing Stars...

YAY!! I finish new skin already!!! In less than a day!! YAY!!! Oh well, do comment on it if you want. I hope you peopel like it. :)

Look like by some divine doing of God, i signed up for the prom night. And i intend to go alone. YAY!! No dance partner!! Wait a minute, is that a good thing? Maybe not... Oh well, lets see how God work things out for me this time... If anything is going to be done that is. But i try not to expect much, cause expectations only come with disappointment.

I started on this skin today when i was sick og playing computer games. And it was done in around 3 hours. I know Minda can do one in a few minutes, but what do you expect from a kid who doesn't do blogskins so regularly?? Oh well, at least i find my own skin nice. :)

That's all for now. See yah around!

Tired...

If everything ended up the way i wanted it to be, i would have been a very selfish man. Expectations only comes with disappointment. Don't believe me? Why are you disappointed then? Because you expected smething to happen but it didn't. See? I am just tired and just typing what ever comes to my head now.

Sohould i go for the Graduation dinner and dance (D&D)? I find there no reason for me to go. Why should i go?? To "Experience the mature setting"? (Quote Miss Ming) My mom is willing to sponser, but she finds it fine if i don't go too. So Nat, It is not my mom is scared i won't get any girls, get it? Think straight. Why should i go? I would rather go for the class chalet where everybody can have fun instead of going to something which maybe the whole class may not be going... So in the end, should i go?? Tomorrow is the last day to sign up. So maybe i wouldn't go, unless by some divine intervetion of God that got my name onto the list or something forces me to go or i find a reason to go, and the chances of any of these happening is very, and i mean around to 1%, low.

Just studied finish physics. I know i know the textbook. But everytime i look at the TYS, i am dumb founded (is that how you say it??). I can't do some of the questions... Even after staring at he answer sheet for some time, it still doesn't go into my head. ARGH...

The past few days i have been having sneezing incidents. They say diferent amount of sneezing show what people are thinking about you. I forgot what the numbers are, but i keep having lone sneezing incidents, liek i sneeze onece then don't sneeze at all for the next hour. New type of flu?? maybe. Wishful thinking? Definately

So now everyday i study a little, then rest then study again then rest... Then after studying then play game for a while. At least i dont play KongKong. Childish racing game...XP

Hmmm... What else can i blog about?? Life been going on fine for me... My bro just lost $2 given by my parents... My mom isn't that supportive of my sis talent for art... I think that i got no particular talent... I don't like people calling he when i am going to sleep or sleeping already... I try my best to be a listening ear at times, but i can't be one all the time. My parents will KILL me...

I got nothing to blog about already, so that's all for now. See yah next time.

Of all times, why am i thinking about you now?

Nothing Said Nothing Done

Man, the game i am playing is down cause the server is down... Crap... Come back home because want to play but when i start the programme, "Server is not active" appears... Unfair... I was getting to love it...

English intensive is finally over!!! Ironic that i am happy now that it is over, but actually wanted it to last longer... But it would have been nice if Mr. Koh was teaching instead. Miss Kodi would also have been nice. Other than that, no comments for the rest... XD

I wanted to blog about something but i guess i forgot... the title got nothing to do with anything. It was just for show. :P so now all i am going to do is just ramble nonsense...

I got 3 blogs. 2 blogs can be found easily. The third is never meant to be found. You are looking at the first one. The second? Where i test out my blog skins. The third? Private blog. Try as hard as you might to find it but you will never. Why? It is a PRIVATE blog. And no Nat, I am not going to tell you where it is.

Little know there is a evil side to me. Todoy it showed itself, but everybody knowing me wouldn't have suspectesd me of doing anything. Cannot collect notes for absent people? Well, they will still get thir notes. Source? Somebody. XD

Going to try to play that online game again... If it still doesn'twork, i am going to just surf the web. See yah.

Crap... Crap... And More Crap...

Man, guess i wasn't so good at Dota yet... People say i noob at b-net... staying away from there from the time being. Same thign for Dota too. No Dota until some time later...

Anyway, at least i found a new game to play. and it is online too... Graphics are good... And it is fun to play and is free too. Interested?? Go to this website: http://sco.gpotato.com/. It is 3D by the way. If you are going to lay it, tell me. I just started anyway.

Nothing much to talk about now. Everybody seems to be studying so hard for their exams. Waht about me?? I just found myself a new game to play... ARGH!!! Everybody is like so hard working now, how can i just be so relaxed now??? Crap...

Very dry on ideas now, so wouldn't ontinue to blog. That's all folks. See yah.

Curse me all you want. It doesn't show what kind of person I am but it shows what sort of person you are.

Responsibilities...

Long word with heavy meaning. Without this, i may not even be here today, the way i am. If not for this word too, you won't be seeing me every other day.

This word. This word is probably one of teh factors that kept me alive all these years. "I couldn't just end my life like this", i always thought, i still had to fulfill many it.

But this very word, has cause many and me pain at times. It forced me to do the right things, hurting some along the way. "With great power comes great ________" they say. Is this power worth it?? Because of it, everything gets pushed to me at times. "You are the eldest!" "You are a Councillor!" "You are..."

There are times i wish to ignore this word and just live life as a bad guy, just for once. But i have to live up to it. It is not a choice, it is what must be done. "You have not been entrusted with it for no reason you know..."

Because of this word, my conscience is always heavy. I have problem forgetting bout the past. Mistakes i make cost me hours of sleeps. Wrong moves haunt me at night. But don't ever ask me to forget about it, cause i will never forget about it.

I meant you well but you say humans can't be trusted. I just did what I felt was right. And I will prove to you that humans can be trusted.

Windows Messenger?? I Am Sticking To Msn Messenger Now...

Man, for some sort of reason, no one seems to be able to see me shen i sign in to windows messenger. But now i managed to find back the old msn messenger, everything seesm back to norm again... phew... only found out this afternoon chattign with Maureen when she asked me why i was offline. I was like, "Really meh? Offline then how to chat with you??" And guess what? she was right. I just sent in a "complain" to the peole supposely in-charge of windows messenger. I should be getting my reply in "24 hours". And that's quoting the website. Better be worth the effort... I took such a long time just searching for this old msn messenger... Hope nothing screws up again...

Why am i thinking about you? You got a guy. I am nothing compared to him. Why can't I seem to let go? All you are is a friend in my life, and it will stay that way unless God says otherwise...

Study... Study... Study... Crap...

I must study... Everybody was in school and i was at home. So i forced myself to study... ARGH!! Physics notes... 1 chapter in half an hour... Crap... at this rate i will be churning out notes by the hour soon... But now my attention span has ended and i am back on the computer!! MUST FORE SELF TO GET BACK TO STUDY!!! Hah...

Hm... maybe tomorrow i will study Chemistry... then do a little maths... then can relax... or tomorrow whole day study Chemistry... Choices... so many choices...

Now to get myself back to studying. Unless some body just suddenly gives me a call or turns up at my door needing my services. Like that will happen. XD

That's enough for now. I better be getting back to my revision... See ya

I've got nothing left to lose. No reason to get something which I will lose some time or later right?

Is This Something To Be Upset About??

English intensive for many of you will be on this coming Monday and Tuesday. Mine will be the following Monday and Tuesday. What's the reason for this?? I Just feel upset that majourity of the class is in that group while i am in the other group. Some times life just seems so unfair. Looks like i get grouped with don't know who... When almost the whole class gets to have fun, where will i be?? At home wasting away?? Crap...

You can say i am furious over it with the more i think about it. But at the same time, i can't but help feelign that it's not worth getting angry over it. Break up class then break up class LOR... Like I care Like that... I still get the attention for my english intensive... Crap...

Oh well... Enough of my thougths for for now... See yah...


I had enough of all this feelings!! Why can't they leave me alone?!?! I want no more anger! Sadness! Hurt! Especially love! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!

HEAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

First things first... HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!! Erm... Why didn't any body from 6D show up at YZPS?? I was there all alone. (Not really alone, but WHERE ARE MY EX-CLASSMATES?!?!?) Said hi to Miss Kong and Mdn Wong. Can't really find any other teachers...

Man... The blood clot on my wound has disappeared and now it can bleed freely... so today the bandage got bloody... thank goodness my dad was here to help me change the dressing or i have to force myself to go through the pan of cleaning the wound myself... OUCH...

Nothing much going on now and i got nothing much to blog about, so that's all for now. See yah around!!

If beating me up will allow you to be happy, go ahead.

Bloody... Leg... Literially...

Man... yesterday i accidentally hit the sot which was bandaged... It was supposely healed properly until then, blood was like flowing out... And i mean flowing out until i had to remove the plastic covering or there will a red blood soaked cloth and a bloody leg. I tied to change the dressing myself but when i digged(REALLY dig...) out the first aid kit, i realised how out dated it is... Had to hange dressing like 2 time before i felt it was ok. Then i went to take a bath. But somehow, water leaked in and it was liek bloody leg all over again... I made my way out and did another round of dressing. It was better this time as i finally found what wre the right things to use. All the blood i saw yesyterday was alot...

Come today, went back to the doctors to have a dressing done properly. Then the nurse came in first to clean it. Man, she was rough... thank goodness she didn't try to clean the inner area of it.. I would have screamed... Then afetr she cleaed finish, i had to wait for the doctor as she had many patients. I was left alone in the room. I took a look at the affected area. then i suddenly got the idea to take a photo of it. I am not going to post it up. It will seriously gross all of you out so for the sake of my blog, the photo will not be published. You can take a look at it if youwant. I took the pic with my handphone so when you see me with my hp you can ask. XD

Tomorrow is teacher's day and i am alo\most broke from all the doctors fee.. My parents haven't paid me back... And i still have to pay my HP bill... Oh well... I'm going to chill fro a while... can't find motivation to study... Don't believe me?? Too bad for you then... I am sucha trust worthy uy and you don't trust me... XD

Crap, i can't think of anymore emo quotes from me... Wait a minute... This can be a quote...

Look At The Size Of That!!

Was back at the doctors today to change the dressing for the wart removed that day. I decided to puck up the courage to take a look at the scar that is supposely left after the wart was removed. I was all shock when i saw how big it was. It was like one a few layers of skin has been reoved and there is a ditch when the wart used to be. The wart was only as big as the tip of my finger but the scar is has the diameter of my thumb...

Now it hurts like crap. Must be the medicine on the that special bandage doing its jobs. ARH... Feels like burning... Fried chicken anyone?? XD

That's all i have for now. See you around!

You don't have to rub it in that it is impossible between me and her. I have accepted that fact long ago even though the pain was great...

Forget About It...

Now i am in a bad mood... Must be you people, now a days so bad mood now spread to me... See what happen!! Now i also in bad mood... Losing streak in games... Parents forgot that they are suppsoed to treat me to dim sum today... Then reading alot of people blogs with them being in a bad mood... Crap...

I need to find something i am good at, besides studying that is... Look around, SweeHao is Mr. Music. Nat is "The Great One". WeiJin is the I-Rule-At-Games person. Looking around some more, I see more talents. Not that i am jealous. I am happy for all of you. But some times i can't help but wonder what do i have. What can i do? Do i have any special talents?? Or am i just some person with nothing special?? Looks like i only have questions, but no answers.

Look like i am going to need some time alone to think over some things again.

Look carefully, and you will realise i was there all along.

CHECK OUT MY LEG!!!

I had my wart or on my knee removed yesterday. Now my knee looks like this:
The doctor put the bandages just to restrict my leg movement so that the wound would heal. First i had an injction to numb the pain. The doctor was like using some sort of electronic device to burn away the skin. Then she was cutting away the burnt skin with a pair of scissors. How did i know? I wasn't looking, but i could smell fried chicken somewhere... and i heard the snipping noise the scissors the made.

Man, was limping the whole day. Then Maureen thought it was a sprain and hit it.... What the... Only after she realised what it was then she went all "!!!". Man... she is a little slow at times... do things without thinking one... XP

Just got home and ate lunch/tea-break. Going to do pack my file now. See yah around!!

The Flame Of Passion Will Die Out. It Always Does Anyway...

Oh well, just back from school. Had a course on motivation and study tips. Will i apply the tips and tricks i have learned?? I will try to. But the this fire, drive, will die out eventually. I only hope there will be someone to light it back up for me when that time comes.

For the past few days besides getting trashed by WeiJin at DoTA and seeing all the gundam anime i can and also getting trashed again by Nat at LF2, i have completly wasted alot of time. How can you people leave me out of the study group at SweeHao's... I have ben looking for a place to study and have fun at the same time. Studying at home only results in things like me ending up here, in front of the computer... XD

I was in a bad mood yesterday. Probably still haev a little hang-over now. My mom own me a treat. A treat that we will go eat dim sum. With me getting B# for my chinese all the more reason to bring me out to eat. Anyway, she already owned me this treat from like 2 to 3 months ago. Everytime when i could get my treat, my bro will just spoil her mood on the previous day. Happened so many times that I almost cried yesterday, not just because i couldn't get my treat, but also she tried to replace it with a treat some where else. Pure nonsense.

I want dim sum. Is that too much to ask?? So what if you tell me that have to go early to eat and we always don't have time?? You are the one not making time for it. So what if that pesky little bro of mine spoils your mood?? Then treat me only and ignore him. Or is it that you can't bear to do it cause you pamper him too much? He ended up this way because you pampered him too much in the past. And i dont even ask you for something all the time. You offered me a choice and i have chosen dim sum.

Do you know it is kind of unfair that whatever he wants you can get it for him within a day and week at most? And what about me??1 month? 2? Oh... thank goodness i am patience? Ah... but it is wearing off already, did you know?? And do you know what it is like living in hopes that you will keep to your word when most of the time it is just empty promises? That's why i don't make empty promises, cause i don't want to hurt anybody the way i have been hurt.

Should i study now?? I usually peak from 7pm onwards so maybe i shall do my work later... Now for me to relax a little while i wait for this anime of mine to download finish. That's all for now. And you better keep your promises to people, or may your conscience haunt you forever. If it doesn't maybe i will...

I guess it is too late to want you back. Just remember i am will always stand by you, even in your darkest day. So all i am asking is for you to be happy and keep smiling.

I Look Lonely?? Erm...

Hah.. Maureen just said i look lonely and was very quiet today. It must be because i did not disturb her for the past 2 days. You really want me to suan you, is that it? I was like talking with WeiJin in class, you say i quiet?? I was was hanging out with people almost the whole time in school, and you say i lonely?? Must be because... Crap... I not supposed to suan you at the moment... Cannot say anything...

On the way back, when you asked why i like so lonely, i think i said, "Sometimes people just want to be alone. " It sounds rude now but i was saying in a very normal manner like it was just some pasing remark. I walk home alone, cause it gives me time to reflect about events in my life with out being disturbed. But i guess it can make life a little dangerous. How? There was once i was walking to school in Sec 2 and i walked pass Mrs Lim, my then form teacher, without even nowing it. She was like, "Kelvin?? Are you ok??" Then i was like shocked to realise she was like beside me, so i replied, "Erm... yah... OH... Good afternoon Mrs Lim..." Then she went, "Don't be so caught up in yours thoughts when you cross the road. Take care." But anyway, I have learned how to be caught up in thoughts and still pay attention to the roads. That, is a skill. XD

Recently, I was liek on my way back from school passing through central when this group of boys were like in front of me. I could hear them going, "You know him right?" When i am deep in thougths, i can hear more clearly around me but i never really pay attention to it anyway. the when i walked pass, one of them went "KELVIN!" I was surprised, cause i don't know who on earth are they. I looked back to see. They were like pointing to one of their own saying, "He say he know you one..." So i looked back and gave them one of my one-eyebrow-up-look while walking forward. I ended up walking face into a Singapore flag... They went, "BOOM!" When i walked into the flag. But i conuldn't be bothered with them then so i just walked away.

Then yesterday, another strange thing happened. I got a phone call from someone i totally don't know. No one i know knows too, unless someone lied to me. The person went, "Hello? Are you Kelvin??" I was stuned. Then i went, "Who are you??" This 2 lines repeated a few times before the guy talked to is friend in the background, "Oh shit... I think we call wrong guy leh..." Then he repeated his question again. So i also repeated mysef. Finally he went, "Ok... Nevermind..." Then dail tone. What's with the behaviour?? Don't dare tell me who you are?? Not man enough i guess.

Are both incidents related? Are both by the same group of people? Is this a sign of me becoming more popular?? XD I doubt the last one but the questions are stll there. Hope someone can find a answer for me.

Oh well... That's all for today. I updated Nat, Happy? Please try not to tell me to play so much LF2 with you... My hands need a break from such a long post... Oh well, till next time...

YEAH!!! NO!!! HUH?!?!?!

Blogging from my dad's comuter now. It is brand new... Damn... i want one too...

Today was the day the 'O' Levels chinese results came out. I GOT A B3!!! I expected myself to get something like a C5 or B4. But i got a B3!!! YEAH!!! My dad wanted an A, but nevermind, i did better than what i expected...

Hey, for those who feel you could have done better, cheer up!! There is a second chance for you to shine. Show tthe world that you are not going to let this setback pull you down. Strive for your goals. And if you need a listening year or a punching bag ( Yes, punching bag/ stress reliever/ whatever you need to relax/...) , I am here. Crap... i am starting to soud like a counsellor... Maybe i should look up a job as a social worker... HA...

Ah... i just came back from wating fireworks at the Esplanade. It was like "BOOM" and "BAM" and "KABOOM" and... you get the idea... If you don't, do some reflection. XP

Anyway, it was fun but the crowds sucked. It was like so crowded that even walking around was like squeezing in a can of sardines. Oh well, i had fun and that's all that counts. XD

That's all for today. Keep smiling, cause you never know when someone could be looking at your face for that smile to brighter up their day. See yah around!! :)

OUCH!!

There is some sort of wart on my knee... I didn't know it was a wartuntil today... had it for like 2 weeks already. My dad thought it was some sort of pus but when he tried cutting (yes, CUT) it out, it jus didn't actually came off liek a pus... It is some sort of harden skin... Ouch... Or is it a corn?? Going to see a doctor soon to see what it is...

Minor update for today. Stay happy!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!

First things first... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF ME!!! YEAH!!!

Today, first thing was waking up, blah blah... let's just skip to teh part i leave home, ok? Went to AMK MRT station to meet Phoebe. Was actually thinking about how she looks like as it was the first time i am going to meet. But ended up thinking where did i dropped my ez-link card as i dropped it... Was like thinking, "Phoebe, please faster come so i can go find my ez-link card..." she arrived but i was like, "Would you mind proceeding to the bus stop and wait for me? I need to retrace my steps to find my ez-link card..." In the end, it was at the control centre of the MRT. Someone actually found it and passed it to the control centre... -.-''' And i was like wondering there for about 20 mins and no one told me... It was so crowded then... At least i got back my ez-link card but i have just seen how some people can't just come over and tell you you just dropped something...

On a lighter note, I brought Phoebe all the way to Serangoon to Mac to meet up with SweeHao and Delia. I actually expected Phoebe to look a bit more plum, but oh well... still looks fine at least... Can't expect much of a person that doesn't eat lunch often... XP

First we studied at mac for a while then Minda came. After all the hard work, I was DRAGGED to the nearby karoke by them. But in the end there were no rooms avaliable so... YAY!!! XP

Afetr that, I went to AMK again, at the same time brought Phoebe back. Left her at the bus stop as we went different directions. Man, should have brought my card album today... could have made some cash to make up for my losses through out the whole week... Oh well, too late to regreat already anyway... Just be happy with what i have, that should be enough. :)

Thats all for today. So stay happy, be happy with what you have. Take nothing for granted, cause for all you know, soemthing may happen. TOUCH WOOD!! XP

Erm... No Title??

Man... i can't come up with a title, so i will probably write about what happened today. First things first, i went to church like any other sunday and had lunch after that with my family. After that just went home and played abit of computer. I play too much?? If i am considered playing too much, then WeiJin is addicted... XP

Then don't know for what reason, i started watching You Tube. Was lookign around some forums when i just decided to check out what the latest maksed rider is. Lame i know it is, but it was only a look. But check out where i am now, watching the first episode and planning to watch the rest the rest when i can take the time to. Shit... Now i am addicted to another show... But the fight scenes are nice... Oh well, there is no excuse for childish i guess...

Now, where was i? Oh yah, tomorrow is the school cross crountry. And i can't run in it... T_T

And now, i am feeling a little moody. Have no reason to, and if i do, i probably don't know what the reason is... This must be what teens experience as they grow up... mood swings... Hah, i am only giving myself excuse for not knowing why i am moody.... Quote: "Oh darn... "

Maybe i should just just go to bed early and sleep on it. Man... did i just rant?? Oh, i did... Oh well, I think i need extra sleep... That menas no more playing late into the nigth on Fridays with Weijin... Is that a good thing or bad thing?? Who cares?? As long as i get to sleep again. XP

But if that is the case, i will still ahve another problem. I can't just go to sleep straight after falling on to my bed. Thanks to this, I probably wasted at least an hour every night lying on my bed with my imagination running wild. Want to know what i think of then?? I like to imagine i am on some sort of adventure, or some sort of super hero. Lame i know... But if you didn't know, you would probably pester me to find out...

I am tired... better end here for today. See you next time, same place, same time, same blog. XP Beam me up scotty!!

Last Will

Now i remember what i wanted to blog about some time ago... Man, wanted to blog about this during racial harmony day but totally forgot... Some bad memory i have...

I was suppsoe to die on racial harmony day, but i survived... Why? The people that were suppsoed to kill me forgot to prepare the day before... -_-''' Then what now? They say postpone killing me. Thank goodness, cause i forgot to write my will... I was suppose to write teh night before that day but it totally slipped my mind. (Or i couldn't be bothered to cause i knew something was going to happen, but never expected the something to be nothing...) Okay, I shall get it over with today, so i can move on... XD And Lilin, you are NOT getting any part of my brain after i die... ESPECIALLY the maths part... XP

First things first... All my things are NOT going to anyone... ONLY my Dad have the power over how to distribute my stuff. The only thing i will give away is: My personal notebook that have some of my thoughts at times. Who will get? Who want it the most lor... But i have not died yet so don't try anything funny... You want something else from me?? Get my dad to approve of it first. XP

That should be enough crapping for today. Hope you people have fun. SEE YAH!!!

YAY!!! NEW SKIN!!!

Hey people!! I got inspiration for this skin from the state of the class at times... NOT. Minda said my skins are too orderly so i decided to mess things up a little. Hope this works... So stop chasing me to make a new skin!!! Cause i already done this one!! Hah...

Minor update this is only, so till next time, HAVE FUN!!!

Just Feel Like Blogging...

I just feel like bloggin now, so i wll blog. I plan to change blogskin soon, how soon? I think i left the programming... Should be able to finish in an hour or less if i want to. But do i want to? I keep losing the mood to do after a while so u still have to wait some time... Sorry Adrain. XP


Yesterday in church, i did an activity that was a little different from normal. Normally it will be like lessons on things in the Bible, but this time we are to write a letter to God. It will be then kept for a year before it will be mailed back to us. Someone said that someone that did this activity before cried after seeing the letter a year later. I wonder what my respone will be... That will probably depend on what kind of person i am a year from now... Will i be the same? All I hope for is that i become a better person...

I have been in a daze the past few days... Don't know why. I was also in a daze during my english papers too... and A-maths papers too... Must be my hair getting too long... not... I want to keep long hair... Maybe i am not meant to... Oh well, time will reveal everything...

I am out of the singing competition group already. There is no need to say sorry to me Swee Hao. I know i can't really sing and i just joined because Adrain and Nat pulled me in. So pushing me out is okay... and did i really looked depressed today? Hey, you people were singing songs that got a tinge of sadness and songs touch me very easily, so of course i will look a little depressed. Especially when I start thinking og some of my past... Don't you dare bring it up,. The past is the past.

This is all for now i think... So still next time, have fun!!

Not Sure What To Call It...

Today was one of the rare days i get to get out of my house on a Saturday. No cjoice anyway. Don't want Nat pesterinf me for life for not allowing him to show me around...

I am not sure what to type about now... should i look for a quiz to do? nah... maybe i should just go play some online games... Or maybe i should go disturb some people online... oh well... all i know is that i feel a little lost right now...

Minor update today. So till next time, have fun!!

Update On Life

Let's see... how has i life been the past few days besides all the events... My granma was just sent to an old folks home. My dad's sis finally agreed to pay part of it afetr my dad found out that his sis and his mom were actually sharing an account. And it is no small sum in there... First she only want to pay 150 out of the 700++. Now find out she got money then decides to pay... What nonsense is this? You refuse to pay even for your own mom?? How would you like if some outsider decides to pay everything for you? <--- This was Nat's idea of tormenting her but too bad the matter is resolved, or else he could have done it... scary...

Okay... I am bored so here is another quiz:

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of it all, choose 5 people to do this. Ready? Start~!

1.Nat
2.Swee Hao
3.Wei Jin
4.Sammi
5.Maureen
6.Sam Lim
7.Milly
8.Delia
9. Minda
10.Phoebe
11.Calvin
12.Jeanie
13.Lilin
14.Shuwen
15.Guipei
16.Yvonne
17.Rachel
18.Shu Zhen
19.Joanne
20.Jac

How did you meet #14? (Shuwen)
In sec 3 in new class. Probably more blur now then then... XP

What would you do if you never met #1? (Nat)
Erm... My life would be totally different? I won't have someone that i can actually talk to?

What would you do if #20 and #9 dated? (Minda, Jac)
They don't even know each other... It is a different jac from the one in peicai...

Did you ever like #19? (Joanne)
Long time ago. Don't bring up the past.

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple? (Sam Lim, Rachel)
They are straight and would not date each other...

Describe #3 (Wei Jin)
Lame, funny, lame, and did i mention lame?

Do you think #8 is attractive? (Delia)
Erm... I don't really think anyone is attractive...

Tell me something about #7 (Milly)
Her lack of gentleness? XP

Do you know any of #12's family? (Jeanie)
No... Are you going to kill me Jeanie? *GULP*

What’s #8’s favorites? (Delia)
(Delia please fill in the blanks)_________

What would you do if #18 confesses that he/she likes you? (Shu Zhen)
0.0<--- See those eyes? I will probably be too shocked to do anything.

What language does #15 speak? (Gui Pei)
English and chinese. Any more i don't know...

Who is #9 going out with? (Minda)
Erm... How would i know?

How old is #16 now? (Yvonne)
15 going 16 in October

When was the last time you spoke to #13 (Lilin)
Argh... I forgot...

Who is #2's favourite singer/band? (Swee Hao)
I only know the Click 5...

Would you ever date #4? (Sammi)
Only God knows the future...

Would you ever date #7? (Milly)
She will probably opt to beat me up instead...

Is #15 single? (Guipei)
I think so... Or does Shuwen count?

What is #10's last name? (Phoebe)
I dunno... never asked before... cause i just met her online like a month ago...

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11? (Calvin)
0.0 I am straight... and i hope he is too...

What school does #3 go to? (Wei Jin)
Peicai Secondary School

Where does #6 live? (Sam Lim)
Some where in Serangoon?

What's your favourite thing about #5? (Maureen)
The blurness? Very easy to bully one... XP

Have you seen #1 naked? (Nat)
No

END!
Now, 5 people I would like to see doing this would be :
1. You
2. You
3. You
4. And
5. You

Ha... That's all for now... Till next time, See Yah Around!!

Lung Boy Strikes Back

Today had Racial Harmony Day celebration in school. Fun man... I had to mop the area by myself with no one helping... Where were you guys?

Anyway, I had fun with my camera. Taking photos of people, best when they don't even know it. XDSleep Well... XP

Okay... The girls are sad cause my lungs bursted... Not...

Mr sleepy head in a kilt or something. Layman terms: Skirt. Next to him, Maths Genius Kah Leong!!

The two girls dressed as... as... What is it again??

Poh Chun rocking with his instrument the... the... his instrument...

CLASS PHOTO!!! YEAH!!!

Enough photos... the rest next time publish... And now, time for the latest song i just downloaded!!

Hate Me - Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

Ha... don't know why i like this kind of saddening songs... But is nice ok...

That's enough for today. Till next time, SEE YAH AROUND!!