There's No Fury Like My Own...

Wait a minute... What fury of mine? Do i have one? Of course i do... I am human too... You can't expect to push me around without getting any resistance. Disturbing me for doing my duty will only get you into trouble, cause in the end you will end up talking illogical crap which will probably end up contridicting yourself and u appearing to be an idiot which is the image you were trying to put on me..

In a moment of anger i wrote this today:

I felt the tears of the sky
Mixing with the rain of my face
Wash away the anger
I begged it to
Wash away the disappointment too
I have lost my patience once again
I the inner beast i may never win
Take away my troubles, please
Cause I'm losing myself over it...

Teach me again
Cause i lost the faith
In the word "Forgiveness"
Teach me again
What's it like
To be free of the burden
Of insults and curses
Of white and black
Life and death

This is just a work of impulse again... Nat called it emo. What's wrong with that? Do i look emo to you people? I got to balance it out somewhere. Honestly to me, forgiveness is earned, not just meant to be given. You want my forgiveness? Show some repentance. Called me petty? I've got a feeling you know i have forgived you people so many times you practically took it for granted. I never asked for a reason before. You want to go overboard? I choose to fight fire with fire. So what if i get burned? At least i go down fighting for a cause, and a good one to me too.

Calvin apologised to me already. That was a surprise but a pleasant one. He gave me an explaination too. Forgiveness is earned like this. So i am waiting for one from you people, Nat and Milli. Cause i am honestly hurt you can't get the fact i am doing my job. Got a problem with that? Go look for the higher authority in charge of me. Sure this paragraph may not sound nice but i got my values and if you got a problem with them, take a good look at your own values.

That's all the things i have to say for today, so till next time, keep smiling! Or you may get the same treatment as the picture on this new blog skin...

Try Googling Your Name... This Is What I Got...

Was googling my name cause i was bored. It came up with many entries on Lord Kelvin(The Scientist, not me, no matter how much i want it to be.. :P) Then i saw this link:
Kelvin is Lord

A Kelvinian site. Learn how the one, true Lord Kelvin can conserve you from Entropy and read His prophetic wisdom

here is the link: http://zapatopi.net/lordkelvin.html

You are going to have to see it to believe it... It is like some sort of religion(or cult) worshiping Kelvin(the scientist one, not me :P) When i first saw it, it was like: "W.T.H. is this?" Worshiping a scientist... What's next on the list? Donald Trump? Nat Ng?(Nat's name was just for kicks, so no offence...)

This will be a short post cause i am only talking about this, but you have to see it for yourself. So till next time, KEPP SMILING!!! (or you know the usual yada yada yada...)

Back From The... NIGHT CLASS!!!

Just got back from night class and had a cup of ice cream. Jealous? :P It was chocolate chip in vanilla. YUM!!!

Today wasn't really interesting or anything. School was just as normal except with a chinese test. Will i do well? I don't know. And Nat hit me in the chest. I was like: I AM STILL RECOVERING FROM A LUNG CONDION YOU..." you should get the idea. did he feel bad? He said he did, only a little thought... Now i am hoping his conscience will improve... or not just me will suffer, but a lot of people too... No offence Nat. :P

So my maths teacher does read my friends' blog... What bout mine? Everybody only care about the best. So What about the second or third? I feel left out sometimes... But what to do? Look like i have to work harder to socialise more. Getting a little tiring... And those who read this that got blogs... PLEASE UPDATE YOUR BLOGS!!! I visit them almost everyday... It gets boring with nothin to read...

I am going to share a song with you now... Cause i got nothing better to do now... Here i go...

Unbelievable- Craig David

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.


When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.


Now I see, what love means

Look for this song. It is soothing and nice. It does a noce jod of calming me down at times. It brings up alot of memories too...

That's all for today. So till next time, keep smiling... and i hope i have enough time to complete my new skin...

Rainny Inspiration

Strange title i came up with... I guessed you should be able to guess it is about inspiration from the rain, and i just told you even if you didn't figure it out. The pass few days have been raining. I won't really say heavy rain cause i chose not to go home when it was raining heavily yesterday but just raining such that it is noticable but not too distracting. Now that was one long snetence so take your time to analyse it. :P

I feel like writing a poem about the rain but i just can't seem to come up with any good lines at teh moment. Don't try to help me cause it will be your work and not mine. I want it to come from me and let it have as little influence by others as possible.

The talk by the vice-principal this monday was motivating. But after teh talk was chinese and i could feel my motivation level go down. I don't know why but i guess it is just the aura that chinese class gives off. And the chinese teacher kept picking on Kah Leong... Maybe the class shuld start a protect Kah Leong movement... Sound nice... At least today she didn't really picked on him today... it was getting a little outrageous... Kah Leong: Top boy of sec 3 2005. 4 A1s. How did he do that? Guess the only subject that is pulling him down is the same subject pulling me down. Do i have to explicitly say what is it? If you haven't figure it out, it is CHINESE.

That's all i am willign to type (get it?) at the moment... And why do so many teachers feel that blogs aren't good? We people also need a place where we can express ourselves. Is that a crime? Or are they scared we type (get it again?) something not very nice to type(I know it is lame but do you get it?) about them? I won't but i can't confirm about the rest of the class... They seem to be able to express themselves better than me but it has a limited vocabulary... No offence to anyone thought, so don't kill me...

That's all the time i have for today... So till next time, keep smiling. Need a reason? Go look for the song by Hoobastank and listen to it. There's your reason. Lame i know it is but i can't think of a better reason at the moment.

ARGH!!!!

Sorry bout the title. Just want to shout for no hell of a reason. Just for the fun of it. Nothing more. Nothing less. And stop thinking if i am mentally disturbed cause i shall answer that question for you: Yes(if you want me to play around) and No(If you want a damn honest answer).

Went to Mount E. Hospital yesterday for a second opinion. The doctor said teh pain could be due to scarring inside. SO STOP CALLING ME LUNG-LESS!!!! I have got two normal lungs working inside me perfectly normally. And the doc said i could continue with exercise already. YEAH!!! BACK TO BASKETBALL!!! Happy... Shalalala.... It's so nice to be happy...

Today was good friday. Was supposed to go cycling in the moring today with my family but east coast was too crowded so i ended up in Parkway Parade playing arcade with my siblings. Then i bought 3 chinese CDs. That's alot for a person who is more fluent in chinese then english. Come on... they were selling each at $7 and 3 of the $7s for $20... I SAVED A BUCK!!!

I am stopping here.Going to play RO again. Have to catch up with WeJin And KahLeong. They higher level than me liao... So till next time. keep smiling!!! (or you know "the usual thing" will happen to you")

Too Good To Be True...

This is porbably how i am feeling right now. Don't know why or how. Just enjoy the lyrics or go listen to the song.

Feelin' Way Too Damn Good - Nickelback

I missed you so much
That I begged you to fly and see me
You must've broke down
Coz you finally said that you would
But now that you're here
I just feel like I'm constantly dreaming

Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

For 48 hours I don't think that we left my hotel room
Should show you the sights
Coz I'm sure that I said that I would
We gotta make love just one last time in the shower

Well something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down and
Where it lands is where it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feeling way too damn good, oh
Feelin' way too damn good

Sometimes I think best if left in the memory
It's better kept inside than left for good
Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me
Well something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down and
Where it lands is where it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feeling way too damn good, oh
Feelin' way too damn good
Oh, oh, feelin' way too damn good

I missed you so much
That I begged you to fly and see me
You must've broke down
Coz you finally said that would
But now that you're here
I just feel like I'm constantly dreaming

Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feelin' way too damn good

And it's like, every time I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down and
Where it lands is where it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Coz something's gotta go wrong
Coz I'm feeling way too damn good, oh, oh
Feelin' way too damn good
(I missed you so much
That I begged you to fly and see me)
Feelin' way too damn good
(I missed you so much
That I begged you to fly and see me)

GIVE ME A BREAK!!!

Hah... Today was a tiring day... I am using the dots again not because i am upset(maybe i am but i am no sure...) but really am tired... Today school was just a drag... but at chinese lesson, chinese teacher scolded Kah Leong... said he will fial if he continues at the rate he is doing work... even thought he didn't find it discouraging(i asked him, he could lie for all i know...) but i did... how could you say such a thing about your student?? Want him to face reality, this is till not the way... why? he just said he may just give up on chinese cause he only need the rest to pass. He is only studying chinese cause he wants to go to a JC... MAN... Does she realised what she have done? We are till growing up and are the age where we are very sensitive, and one wrong move could affect us drastically... Oh well... Who is going care about this anyway? Me perhaps, and maybe you should to...

Also went to AMK Secondary Student Council Investiture today... Saw my friend dancing on stage... It was like :WOW!!! She can dance? I didn't know that... Oh well, didn't see her after that anyway, probably cause she was too busy taking photos or something... their steping down ceremony anyway... Wonder when will be my turn... i am getting very tired of my duties already...

Here is part 2 if the poem or something of that sort:

Cause in the end
The fool will always be me
Forever the one
Who tries too hard
To get things going
It all falls apart
One wrong move
It all falls apart

Why do my works always sound the same? Probably cause i am till growing up... learning the ropes... trying to get the hang of life... Life ain't always fair, but i wish is was, is and always will be... And interestingly, i can give the most logical answers at times for things even thought i am screwed up... ah... the irony of life...

I feel like collasping now... wanna sleep or talk to her... either way i will be happy... even thought it will probably be only short term but it is better than not being happy at all... Too tired to think now... my hands seems so distance from me now... probably the fatigue getting to me... So that's all for today... SEE YAH!!!

Time For Me To Calm Down...

Today will be the 7th day straight i will be going without painkillers. Why am i keeping count? Dunno... probably just for the fun of it. However, i think i have been putting too much strain on my lungs the pass few days. It has been a little paimful at times... (But they are not going to leak air or explode or anything, Maureen And Sammy...) Probably due to me laughing tooo much, talking too loud etc... got to remind myself to cool down... Try to do the same to for me can? I need constant reminders sometimes to do something. And stop talking abotu my lungs hissing out air or exploding. It is disturbing. My imagination runs wild easily. Everytime you people talk about my lungs leaking air or exploding or me coughing it out, i imagine it happening, except it is like watching a cartoon. Can't blame me. I watch alot of cartoons. And of all varieties too.

Today was some chinese "new creative poem writing"(Direct Translation) competition in school. I got a very bad feeling about what i wrote... like it is going to be classified under trash or something... Don't ask me what i wrote. All i know is that it feels sucky at the moment.

That's all the mindless rumblings i have for today. So till next time, keep that smile on your face, cause "I Can't Smile Without You" smiling. YEAH!!!!

I Take Back My Words

Now it is raining... Yesterday it was raining... Tomorrow? I shall guess raining it will be raining too. Yesterday i was caught in the rain and ended up ironing my books dry when i got home. Wasted one hour cleaning up when i ould have used it to study maths and go to bed early... Okay... I take back my words about letting it rain in my past post... I miss the sun already...

It is amazing how some people can change. Take Nat. It the past, he like to make fun of me But now, anyone can see him trying his best to not do anything negative.(Even thought he doesn't really succeced at times, but applaud him for his effort!) What triggered the change? Go ask him yourself. I shall not jump to conclusions here in case he comes back a knuckle sandwich made specially for me...

The rain... Guess too much of a good thing can be a bad thing. Guess now i wish that it will stop raining soon... It is gettong stuffy here with the windows closed thanks to the rain.

I got nothing much to say already. Maybe i shall just post part of a poem(or whatever you want to call it) that i am working on:

Why am I thinking
About your smile?
Why am I dreaming
About your face?
Why am I
Feeling this now?
When all I want to do
Is forget about
How I feel about you
And I want to do
Is just run away
From my life
From my mistakes
From the lies


I haven't come up with a title for it yet and it is not complete yet... Just can't get myself to sit down to do it.

I got to go now. So till next time, KEEP SMILING. Do i look like i care how you do it? Opps... looks like i am going overboard again... So just be happy, okay? SEE YAH!!!