Was down with fever yesterday, and thus rested at home. MC supposedly covered today as well, but went back to school to do project which in the end didn't get done cause 2 people couldn't make it... Man... And presentation is next Wednesday...
Didn't really tell anyone i was sick yesterday because 1) was lazy, 2) was tired, 3) brain was operating at snail pace, 4) body was moving at snail pace too, 5) wanted to test a something. But anyway, my sis was saying that i fell sick cause of overworking again, cause i'm the kind that only fall sick when i overwork... But i haven't been overworking... Or at least hasn't been noticing such things... Kind of enjoying the work at the moment... Happiness not from results but results from happiness!! =x
Wednesday night was dinner at a uncle's place. Steamboat again. Didn't really eat so much, probably already felt myself falling sick since the beginning of the day. Didn't finish my lunch tat day... Rare occurrence it is... Always end up eating more unless got something to hold me back. Even if i don't eat or eat later, it will be over something important. If i ever skip my meals over something, it is important, cause to me food is already very important. =x
Didn't wanted to blog recently cause wanted to test something, but looks like i still want to blog... Just have to find another way to carry out my experiment... Or find another way to wean me off my blog...
Forgot about what i wanted to type already... Another case of short term memory... Ah... Maybe one day i forgot about something and just walk home from school... Wait a minute... My school is at Clementi and i live in Serangoon... Why am i suddenly thinking about walking home all of a sudden? Still feel like doing some walking around... Or was it cause i suddenly thought about the quiz of ZhuXi from last term about me walking home? Hmm...
Anyway, here's a very addictive game: http://www.spacetime.us/arcade/starshine. One of the best games i played on the net. Try and find out. XD
Decided not to go out tomorrow, don't want me spreading any bugs to the primary school kids.
Tammy recently approached me for hip-hop dancing for Easter celebration... Accepted it jsut to see if i can take it. Hopefully i still got some moves... Don't want to embarrass myself in front of the whole church or end up doing something stupid. =x
Ran out of stuff to blog about. Will be trying not to blog for a while, want to test something out somewhere. Maybe i will post the results of the experiment, maybe not. Let's see what happens first. See yah next time!
Hey... No one told me walking home would take so long...
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I didn't wanted to blog, but just had to share this from someone's msn personal message...
Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Humans can Fly!! Er... I mean Jump!! =x
Today morning was the same as yesterday, woke up about 5:30am, can't sleep cause started thinking about the same thing... And only after consciously stopped myself from thinking was i able to sleep again... Troubling...
Anyway, helped cooked lunch today. Spaghetti with carborana sauce. All i did was boil the pasta and heat up the made sauce. Was okay, could do with a little more sauce though. Next time to try tomato-based sauce instead. Better get some tips from Reuel first before doing it again. XD
4ooth post today. Been a long way since i started this blog. July 2005 to now... About 3 and a half years already... And i wonder how some people manage to log up to 999 in less then a year... =x
Since it's the 400th post, i decided that i should stop blogging for a while. Just to try not blogging and see how life goes. Hopefully there won't be withdrawal symptoms... Don't want to go into "cold turky" or something...
Back to school tomorrow... Hmm... Morning prayer too... Maybe i should just go earlier and just watch the sunrise... It's amazing seeing the sun just move upwards and lighting up the whole place. Enlightening? Not really. Just feels like an awakening. Walking around school before 6:30am can be daunting task at times, especially when you can't see what's in front sometimes. And sitting in the spot in front of block 50 is also a little scary, hearing all the stories about the block. But just sitting there and jsut soaking in the atmosphere is priceless. And when the place starts to light up, it feels warmer. Transit from a cold place to a not so cold place just because of the presence of light.
Hmm... Maybe one of these days i should just go to the Esplanade roof top garden and jsut sit there and soak in the atmosphere. Maybe see the sunset there if possible. Maybe. If my flashbacks don't get me too emotional first.
Ahh... Should be going to sleep now... Probably going to attempt reaching school very early again tomorrow. See yah around!
Anyway, helped cooked lunch today. Spaghetti with carborana sauce. All i did was boil the pasta and heat up the made sauce. Was okay, could do with a little more sauce though. Next time to try tomato-based sauce instead. Better get some tips from Reuel first before doing it again. XD
4ooth post today. Been a long way since i started this blog. July 2005 to now... About 3 and a half years already... And i wonder how some people manage to log up to 999 in less then a year... =x
Since it's the 400th post, i decided that i should stop blogging for a while. Just to try not blogging and see how life goes. Hopefully there won't be withdrawal symptoms... Don't want to go into "cold turky" or something...
Back to school tomorrow... Hmm... Morning prayer too... Maybe i should just go earlier and just watch the sunrise... It's amazing seeing the sun just move upwards and lighting up the whole place. Enlightening? Not really. Just feels like an awakening. Walking around school before 6:30am can be daunting task at times, especially when you can't see what's in front sometimes. And sitting in the spot in front of block 50 is also a little scary, hearing all the stories about the block. But just sitting there and jsut soaking in the atmosphere is priceless. And when the place starts to light up, it feels warmer. Transit from a cold place to a not so cold place just because of the presence of light.
Hmm... Maybe one of these days i should just go to the Esplanade roof top garden and jsut sit there and soak in the atmosphere. Maybe see the sunset there if possible. Maybe. If my flashbacks don't get me too emotional first.
Ahh... Should be going to sleep now... Probably going to attempt reaching school very early again tomorrow. See yah around!
Monday, January 26, 2009
On the First Day of CNY...
Hmm... Looks like this coming Saturday will be having fun with the kids from Farrer Park Primary. Hopefully will have the stamina to keep up with them... Note to self not to over exert myself on Friday on any basketball games... =x
Today, all i did was eat, play, watch TV, eat, watch TV, play, watch TV, eat, watch TV, play, eat and whatever i just did. Wait a minute... Was that all i did today? Ah... Wasted... Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive... Maybe squeeze in a bit of homework and guitar and basketball... =x
ARGH... Woke up too early today... About 5:30am... Probably body used to it already... Started thinking about some stuffs... Then only after coaxing myself to stop thinking was i able to sleep again... I need to talk about it soon... Or i will experience other times of trying to sleep...
Some people are able to not care about situations, but to me it seems to be like running away. And i don't believe in running away. It's just giving it a chance to come back and bite me some other time, or it could just go and bite someone else. And the bite hurts. Not nice for someone else to get hurt for what i did anyway.
Hmm... After this holidays need to extend my handphone plan... And continue chasing that person for my pay... If my nice tatic doesn't work, may have to consider changing to what my friend does... Offensive technique... =x
Just saw a guitar tutorial on youtube. Will probably be trying it out tomorrow. Howie Day's Collide. Hopefuly will be able to get used the strumming pattern.
That should be enough nonsense for today. Have a blessed year ahead!
Today, all i did was eat, play, watch TV, eat, watch TV, play, watch TV, eat, watch TV, play, eat and whatever i just did. Wait a minute... Was that all i did today? Ah... Wasted... Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive... Maybe squeeze in a bit of homework and guitar and basketball... =x
ARGH... Woke up too early today... About 5:30am... Probably body used to it already... Started thinking about some stuffs... Then only after coaxing myself to stop thinking was i able to sleep again... I need to talk about it soon... Or i will experience other times of trying to sleep...
Some people are able to not care about situations, but to me it seems to be like running away. And i don't believe in running away. It's just giving it a chance to come back and bite me some other time, or it could just go and bite someone else. And the bite hurts. Not nice for someone else to get hurt for what i did anyway.
Hmm... After this holidays need to extend my handphone plan... And continue chasing that person for my pay... If my nice tatic doesn't work, may have to consider changing to what my friend does... Offensive technique... =x
Just saw a guitar tutorial on youtube. Will probably be trying it out tomorrow. Howie Day's Collide. Hopefuly will be able to get used the strumming pattern.
That should be enough nonsense for today. Have a blessed year ahead!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
I wonder what would happen if i run into that wall...
Ok, so finally had the tossing of that salad called yu sheng or something. Family bought abit too much... So ate too much today for dinner... Very full now... Ah...
Still kind of tired today... Hopefully tomorrow will be able to catch up on alot more of the sleep tonight.
Kind of bored now... Maybe i'll meddle with my guitar a little... Don't feel like touching any homework, let alone maths now. No motivation to do work during the holidays... =x
Hmm... I wonder what else should i do? Someone to talk to about random stuff would be nice... Ah... Flashbacks again... Of less then a year back when i would be chatting with someone...
But anyway, just got a capo today. Hopefully will be able ot help with the guitar playing a little.
Looks like next Saturday won't be meeting up with CG at Uncle WeeLiang's place. Hmm... Better remember to tell Nicole that won't be meeting her at the bus stop then... Maybe meet later at the MRT station instead... Short term memory don't strike me now... =x
Seems like everytime when it seems like a good time to ask a question for me to be at peace, the situation changes, spoiling the mood for me to ask anything at all... Oh well... Just pray about it at the moment... Please grant me wisdom and patience...
Ah... Enough of troubles for today. See yah around!
Still kind of tired today... Hopefully tomorrow will be able to catch up on alot more of the sleep tonight.
Kind of bored now... Maybe i'll meddle with my guitar a little... Don't feel like touching any homework, let alone maths now. No motivation to do work during the holidays... =x
Hmm... I wonder what else should i do? Someone to talk to about random stuff would be nice... Ah... Flashbacks again... Of less then a year back when i would be chatting with someone...
But anyway, just got a capo today. Hopefully will be able ot help with the guitar playing a little.
Looks like next Saturday won't be meeting up with CG at Uncle WeeLiang's place. Hmm... Better remember to tell Nicole that won't be meeting her at the bus stop then... Maybe meet later at the MRT station instead... Short term memory don't strike me now... =x
Seems like everytime when it seems like a good time to ask a question for me to be at peace, the situation changes, spoiling the mood for me to ask anything at all... Oh well... Just pray about it at the moment... Please grant me wisdom and patience...
Ah... Enough of troubles for today. See yah around!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Happy CNY
Woah... Steamboat dinner at home was great, besides the fact that i burnt myself at so many different places... But ate my fill anyway. Hasn't ate so full for quite some time already. Now to see when i be able to go to a buffet again... =x
Chinese new year around the corner... Time for new clothes!! And will this be another new year, so another new start? Don't think so. More important is too move on with life. Don't get bogged down by troubles. Especially when i have already entrusted them to God. So what's left to be worried about?
Muscle aches all over the body... Must be from all the playing of basketball yesterday. Kind of feels good though, not because i enjoy the pain, but because it shows that my muscles are having a chance to grow a little. Wanted to go to the gym initially this year to work out a little so i won't appear so skinny, but didn't really find the time to... Probably need to discipline myself if i want to continue with that plan. Hmm... So should i gym? Hmm...
Hmm... Looks like i got 2 more weeks before i put a plan of mine into action... Better plan everything carefully now while i still can... Before i get carried away by the moment...
I guess that's all for now. See yah around!
Chinese new year around the corner... Time for new clothes!! And will this be another new year, so another new start? Don't think so. More important is too move on with life. Don't get bogged down by troubles. Especially when i have already entrusted them to God. So what's left to be worried about?
Muscle aches all over the body... Must be from all the playing of basketball yesterday. Kind of feels good though, not because i enjoy the pain, but because it shows that my muscles are having a chance to grow a little. Wanted to go to the gym initially this year to work out a little so i won't appear so skinny, but didn't really find the time to... Probably need to discipline myself if i want to continue with that plan. Hmm... So should i gym? Hmm...
Hmm... Looks like i got 2 more weeks before i put a plan of mine into action... Better plan everything carefully now while i still can... Before i get carried away by the moment...
I guess that's all for now. See yah around!
Friday, January 23, 2009
The one regret in life that i won't regret having.
I wonder what is doing too much and what is doing too little for someone. Trying to find the balance. I don't want to do anything i will regret, but i don't want to live in regret for not doing something. Hopefully i don't step out of line or do too little...
Hmm... Fingers seem to be getting use to the pain of playing the guitar. Less attentive to the pain now, at least until i think about it... =x
Stupid trigger memory of mine... Can't remember things until i get a jump start...
Chinese New Year is around the corner. Need to start digging out my new clothes... Now where did my mom put them?
I wonder if anyone realised found out the hidden part in my previous entry about hope. Kind of obvious if you realise that there is something kind of weird in the middle... Not really hidden anyway, jsut not visible until something is done... Okay, too much info already, tiem to shut up. =x
For those out there who wants to or try to imitate someone elses traits or behaviour or actions, i've only got 1 thing to say: It's useless to imitate if you don't have the same heart behind it. Understand and know why it's that way before doing it. If you don't have the heart behind it, it will never ever be the same. It wil always be fake, casue the heart is never there.
I can't lie and say that i don't want anything to happen, for things to be like it was before. But i've learnt that these things can't be forced. And i understand so i'll be fine. Learned alot from this experience. If i ever will have such an experience again, i would have done some things differently. I choose to remember the good times, the happy times. The bad times i take as lessons learned the hard way. The one regret in life that i won't regret having.
I don't see not caring about a problem as an solution. But i still deal with my problems even when they seem too much to handle and still be able to relax. How? I trust those who help me with it. And when i trust God, i know everything will be fine. (:
I guess that's about all for now. Thank God for the long weekend... Need to catch up on sleep... Before it start affecting my studies... See yah next time.
Hmm... Fingers seem to be getting use to the pain of playing the guitar. Less attentive to the pain now, at least until i think about it... =x
Stupid trigger memory of mine... Can't remember things until i get a jump start...
Chinese New Year is around the corner. Need to start digging out my new clothes... Now where did my mom put them?
I wonder if anyone realised found out the hidden part in my previous entry about hope. Kind of obvious if you realise that there is something kind of weird in the middle... Not really hidden anyway, jsut not visible until something is done... Okay, too much info already, tiem to shut up. =x
For those out there who wants to or try to imitate someone elses traits or behaviour or actions, i've only got 1 thing to say: It's useless to imitate if you don't have the same heart behind it. Understand and know why it's that way before doing it. If you don't have the heart behind it, it will never ever be the same. It wil always be fake, casue the heart is never there.
I can't lie and say that i don't want anything to happen, for things to be like it was before. But i've learnt that these things can't be forced. And i understand so i'll be fine. Learned alot from this experience. If i ever will have such an experience again, i would have done some things differently. I choose to remember the good times, the happy times. The bad times i take as lessons learned the hard way. The one regret in life that i won't regret having.
I don't see not caring about a problem as an solution. But i still deal with my problems even when they seem too much to handle and still be able to relax. How? I trust those who help me with it. And when i trust God, i know everything will be fine. (:
I guess that's about all for now. Thank God for the long weekend... Need to catch up on sleep... Before it start affecting my studies... See yah next time.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Waiting for my handphone to charge finish before going to bed. Long day today, in school from 7:30am to 9pm. Tired already, probably from teh lack of sleep from waiting for my sis to come home yesterday. Somebody got to stay up to make sure she got home safely... And the rest of my family don't have the endurance to or fell asleep already so... My job it is then. XD
Looks like i have to invoke my memories on blogskin coding again. Been some time since i helped someone with a blogskin. Looks like i still roughly remember how to do some of the basic editing stuff... Now if only i can find inspiration for the design of my next blogskin... Can't find the same inspiration i had to do the current one... Argh... Probably need a theme first...
Note to self: Remember to renew handphone contract... And choose the correct offer...
YAY!! Phone battery finally charged finished!! XD
That's all for now, need to grab some shut eye before my eyelids becomes too heavy to be lifted. See yah.
Looks like i have to invoke my memories on blogskin coding again. Been some time since i helped someone with a blogskin. Looks like i still roughly remember how to do some of the basic editing stuff... Now if only i can find inspiration for the design of my next blogskin... Can't find the same inspiration i had to do the current one... Argh... Probably need a theme first...
Note to self: Remember to renew handphone contract... And choose the correct offer...
YAY!! Phone battery finally charged finished!! XD
That's all for now, need to grab some shut eye before my eyelids becomes too heavy to be lifted. See yah.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
What's Living without Hope?
What's hope? Is it just not bothering about what life is about cause it doesn't make sense? Is it trying to escape from reality? Or is it about living each day to the fullest, giving your best and believing that everything will be fine? What's your take?
Are we all just wondering around aimlessly in this life? What's the meaning of life? What's our purpose? And where can we find our purpose for living? An analogy will be a cup made from clay, what's it purpose? To be used to drink something from? And from where or who does it gets it purpose from, the person using it from the person making it? A lump of clay is useless for anything except for molding, and it's purpose is decided by the potter. The potter needs a cup, and thus a cup was made. So who do you think is your maker?
Hmm... Long break tomorrow... Wondering if i should bring my laptop to do other stuff... Will decide later when i pack my bag...
Someone told me today a reason why i felt like crying last Friday that made sense to me. So why did i feel that way? Because i still care.
That's all for now, don't have much going for me today but some talks with some people who have more experience then me. Enlightening it was. Learned a few things, which hopefully i can remember. Having a short term memory at the moment... Maybe i should eat something that includes fish tomorrow... Oh well, see yah around.
I wonder if anyone noticed anything strange in my post today... =x
Are we all just wondering around aimlessly in this life? What's the meaning of life? What's our purpose? And where can we find our purpose for living? An analogy will be a cup made from clay, what's it purpose? To be used to drink something from? And from where or who does it gets it purpose from, the person using it from the person making it? A lump of clay is useless for anything except for molding, and it's purpose is decided by the potter. The potter needs a cup, and thus a cup was made. So who do you think is your maker?
Hmm... Long break tomorrow... Wondering if i should bring my laptop to do other stuff... Will decide later when i pack my bag...
Someone told me today a reason why i felt like crying last Friday that made sense to me. So why did i feel that way? Because i still care.
That's all for now, don't have much going for me today but some talks with some people who have more experience then me. Enlightening it was. Learned a few things, which hopefully i can remember. Having a short term memory at the moment... Maybe i should eat something that includes fish tomorrow... Oh well, see yah around.
I wonder if anyone noticed anything strange in my post today... =x
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end
Hmm... I wonder if i'm in the condition to do any sports at the moment... Legs were screaming out in pain last week... This week seems to be my chest's turn. Looks like i have to be extra careful at the moment...
Something about reading body language is that it can be faked if you know about it... Hmm... So what's real and what's fake?
Helped WeeLeong with his new blog today. Hopefully it will be set up successfully soon.
Found out today that my discovering skills are still quite ok. I guess there's no reason for me to do anything more, or is there? Ah... More things to wonder...
I wonder what to expect of things now. Anyone care to tell me? Still kind of lost on what to do with some parts of my life.
I wonder if i still should ask anything if it bugs me... No one told me moving on from the past would be so tough... The past is what made me today.
An offer to help was given, it's up to you to accept. No pressure.
Now if only my body can keep up with what my mind is thinking... Or is it the other way round? Ha... Another pondering point... XD
See yah next time.
Something about reading body language is that it can be faked if you know about it... Hmm... So what's real and what's fake?
Helped WeeLeong with his new blog today. Hopefully it will be set up successfully soon.
Found out today that my discovering skills are still quite ok. I guess there's no reason for me to do anything more, or is there? Ah... More things to wonder...
I wonder what to expect of things now. Anyone care to tell me? Still kind of lost on what to do with some parts of my life.
I wonder if i still should ask anything if it bugs me... No one told me moving on from the past would be so tough... The past is what made me today.
An offer to help was given, it's up to you to accept. No pressure.
Now if only my body can keep up with what my mind is thinking... Or is it the other way round? Ha... Another pondering point... XD
See yah next time.
i guess there will be always a hint of bitterness unless people come clean to me, but i don't think it will be happening soon.
Looks like some people choose to just ignore a problem, hopeing it will just fade away. But it will never really fade away, all it does is leave a string of broken relationships. That's why i chose to take action last Friday. Better to have trashed it out then just leave it the way it is. Don't let there be space for any misunderstanding. Don't care what other's think? Are you able to live with that burden of being unforgiven? Oh, you can? Then what about the other person who has to live with the bitterness? Hope that the person can release it too? Not everyone is the same and can live with such burdens. Come clean, don't let there be space for misunderstanding.
Maybe that's why i did something last Friday. Been seeing too many broken relationships due to misunderstanding. The heck care attitude is only going to things worst, and that could be seen with the growing rift then. So let the misunderstanding get worst by keeping quiet? There may already be bad blood, but what would an acupuncturist do? Bleed it out. If nothing is done to address the bad blood, it may get worst, damaging the other organs.
So here's my point of view. Choose to ignore it you can, but treatment is always better then not doing anything at all. There is always a chance of getting better if you take action. But you never take action, it will never really be resolved. So what's your take?
Looks like some people choose to just ignore a problem, hopeing it will just fade away. But it will never really fade away, all it does is leave a string of broken relationships. That's why i chose to take action last Friday. Better to have trashed it out then just leave it the way it is. Don't let there be space for any misunderstanding. Don't care what other's think? Are you able to live with that burden of being unforgiven? Oh, you can? Then what about the other person who has to live with the bitterness? Hope that the person can release it too? Not everyone is the same and can live with such burdens. Come clean, don't let there be space for misunderstanding.
Maybe that's why i did something last Friday. Been seeing too many broken relationships due to misunderstanding. The heck care attitude is only going to things worst, and that could be seen with the growing rift then. So let the misunderstanding get worst by keeping quiet? There may already be bad blood, but what would an acupuncturist do? Bleed it out. If nothing is done to address the bad blood, it may get worst, damaging the other organs.
So here's my point of view. Choose to ignore it you can, but treatment is always better then not doing anything at all. There is always a chance of getting better if you take action. But you never take action, it will never really be resolved. So what's your take?
Monday, January 19, 2009
ARGH... Was originally intending to stay back in school to do a little homework... Ended up at home practicing my guitar skills... Was having a slight headache and feeling fatigue anyway, don't think would be able to give my 100% into my work so decided to just go home and relax... Or at least try to relax... Went for a walk behind school for a while before bumping into WeeLeong and deciding that i should be making a move first. Just went a little time traveling...
Looks like knowing too much things can be a burden at times to... But i still prefer to know what's going on then be left wondering in the dark, knocking into walls. Observation of people's behavior can only tell me so much about them, but doesn't say about what's going on. All i can make on observations are just assumptions. But that's all they are, assumptions. Facts will be better though... Anyone willing to fill in my blanks? =x
I guess i'll be touching my private blog again after all...
Finger pain from all the guitar practice today... Wonder how i managed to type so much today... Must get used to the pain so can play more next time? =x
Oh well... That's should be all for now. See yah around.
Looks like knowing too much things can be a burden at times to... But i still prefer to know what's going on then be left wondering in the dark, knocking into walls. Observation of people's behavior can only tell me so much about them, but doesn't say about what's going on. All i can make on observations are just assumptions. But that's all they are, assumptions. Facts will be better though... Anyone willing to fill in my blanks? =x
I guess i'll be touching my private blog again after all...
Finger pain from all the guitar practice today... Wonder how i managed to type so much today... Must get used to the pain so can play more next time? =x
Oh well... That's should be all for now. See yah around.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sometimes You don't Need a Reason to Shed Tears
Yesterday's Dinner at Uncle Wee Liang and Auntie Ellen's place was great. Alio Olio by Reuel was fantastic, not even the chili couldn't stop me from eating it. Only the potato wedges was a bit strange tasting. Other then that, everything else was amazing.
Looks like i kind of have the don't-notice-me aura going on. Bought a birthday with Nicole for XiaoXi. While we were going into the condo, met Melissa, Louisa, Amanda Feng and XiaoXi. First respond from me was, "Oh shit... Birthday girl there... Hope she doesn't notice..." And guess what? She didn't even know there was a cake until the cake appeared... Er... I was walking in front earlier and she saw nothing? Didn't knew i got such a sneaky skill... XD
Ah... Mind in a blank... Can't really think at the moment... Maybe i shall grab my curry puff before heading to bed...
Had lunch at Jack's Place with family today to celebrate my sis' 'O' level results. She did quite well... Better then me actually. Happy for her to be able to do what she wants. (:
My mom showed me an article in the newspaper today. Written by PM Lee's daughter. It was something about choosing to do the right thing over doing nothing at all. Something about choosing not to do anything at all is as bad as doing harm in the situation, especially when it's within your power to do the right thing. Can't really remember much now, probably because i'm too tired...
Ah... I think i better be going... Preapare stuff for tomorrow before i collapse from sheer exhaustion... See yah.
Being attached is nice, but i'm staying single until i get convinced otherwise.
Looks like i kind of have the don't-notice-me aura going on. Bought a birthday with Nicole for XiaoXi. While we were going into the condo, met Melissa, Louisa, Amanda Feng and XiaoXi. First respond from me was, "Oh shit... Birthday girl there... Hope she doesn't notice..." And guess what? She didn't even know there was a cake until the cake appeared... Er... I was walking in front earlier and she saw nothing? Didn't knew i got such a sneaky skill... XD
Ah... Mind in a blank... Can't really think at the moment... Maybe i shall grab my curry puff before heading to bed...
Had lunch at Jack's Place with family today to celebrate my sis' 'O' level results. She did quite well... Better then me actually. Happy for her to be able to do what she wants. (:
My mom showed me an article in the newspaper today. Written by PM Lee's daughter. It was something about choosing to do the right thing over doing nothing at all. Something about choosing not to do anything at all is as bad as doing harm in the situation, especially when it's within your power to do the right thing. Can't really remember much now, probably because i'm too tired...
Ah... I think i better be going... Preapare stuff for tomorrow before i collapse from sheer exhaustion... See yah.
Being attached is nice, but i'm staying single until i get convinced otherwise.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
And The Silence was Deafening
Maybe today i will figure out why is there the urge to let the tears flow. Then maybe they will finally flow unhindered.
Friday, January 16, 2009
If it's Meant to Be, It Will Be. If it's Not Meant to Be,Too Bad for Me.
Long days for 3 whole days... Wednesday was school by 7am for morning prayer, then in Orchard Road by 10am for Social psychology lessons, then back to school by 1pm again for maths lessons... Traveling around has never been so tiring...
Thursday almost forgot to go for Crusade... Maybe was in too much of a daze? But anyway, it was only after i finished my soldering practice did i realised that i was staying back in school for Crusade... Ah... Maybe i should start eating more fish and ginko nuts...
Friday was... Messy. Things got out of hands, finally got a hold, and got out of hands again. I don't expect anything to come of this for me, just hope that everything will be fine after this. Just remember, running away is never a solution to any problem. Thank God everything worked out fine... Was praying all over the place... Desperate for a closure i guess... Don't really like to see people hurt.
Felt like crying a bit on the way back. Can't seem to identify the reason why. But i decided that i have seen enough crying for a day, and can't find a particularly good reason to do so, i decided not to add to that number. Oh well, time for self reflection to see what i can learn from today...
That's probably all for now in the not so interesting life of Kelvin. See yah next time.
Thursday almost forgot to go for Crusade... Maybe was in too much of a daze? But anyway, it was only after i finished my soldering practice did i realised that i was staying back in school for Crusade... Ah... Maybe i should start eating more fish and ginko nuts...
Friday was... Messy. Things got out of hands, finally got a hold, and got out of hands again. I don't expect anything to come of this for me, just hope that everything will be fine after this. Just remember, running away is never a solution to any problem. Thank God everything worked out fine... Was praying all over the place... Desperate for a closure i guess... Don't really like to see people hurt.
Felt like crying a bit on the way back. Can't seem to identify the reason why. But i decided that i have seen enough crying for a day, and can't find a particularly good reason to do so, i decided not to add to that number. Oh well, time for self reflection to see what i can learn from today...
That's probably all for now in the not so interesting life of Kelvin. See yah next time.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Daily Dose of Randomness
Even if my whole world collapse and i lose everything i have,possessions, family, friends, i know i'll be fine, because He will always be there. He is where my trust will never be wrongly placed. Thanks for being there. (:
It's tough being an observer, especially when there is nothing that can be done to improve the situation. But it's times like these that one realise that only by trusting God, things will turn out fine.
I don't expect anything to happen for me, i just want to know what's going on. I'm not so unreasonable that i don't want anyone to be friends anymore. I just don't want to be kept in the dark. Kind of hard to find my way around when i can't see anything. Don't want to accidentally step on someone's shoes by accident.
Life seems to be slowly falling back into place again. Took some time to pick up the pieces, but looks like i'm almost there already. Things could be worst, but grateful it turned out okay.
Hmm... Where can i find good locations for photos? Think i will probably need a few for my new blogskin, if i ever complete it. =x
I wonder how am i going to help Reuel with the cooking this Saturday... Previously was prawn-peeling marathon and pizza baking... Guess i'm looking forward to the food... ARGH... Stomach acting up from all the thinking about food... XD
That's enough for today, nothing else left to say. Don't want to assume anything. Oh well... See yah next time.
If i wanted to run, i don't think you would be able to catch me.
It's tough being an observer, especially when there is nothing that can be done to improve the situation. But it's times like these that one realise that only by trusting God, things will turn out fine.
I don't expect anything to happen for me, i just want to know what's going on. I'm not so unreasonable that i don't want anyone to be friends anymore. I just don't want to be kept in the dark. Kind of hard to find my way around when i can't see anything. Don't want to accidentally step on someone's shoes by accident.
Life seems to be slowly falling back into place again. Took some time to pick up the pieces, but looks like i'm almost there already. Things could be worst, but grateful it turned out okay.
Hmm... Where can i find good locations for photos? Think i will probably need a few for my new blogskin, if i ever complete it. =x
I wonder how am i going to help Reuel with the cooking this Saturday... Previously was prawn-peeling marathon and pizza baking... Guess i'm looking forward to the food... ARGH... Stomach acting up from all the thinking about food... XD
That's enough for today, nothing else left to say. Don't want to assume anything. Oh well... See yah next time.
If i wanted to run, i don't think you would be able to catch me.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
For Happiness, Peace is First Needed
I don't think i got total peace yet. Feel like i need to know the answer to 1 last question before i can achieve peace. Should i ask?
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Broken Strings - James Morrision featuring Nelly Furtado
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
Friday, January 09, 2009
You Can't Play On Broken Strings
Thank you God, for last year. For the ups. For the downs. And for those times where it went sidewards too.
Thank you for the blessing of giving me a relationship even though it didn't last. For allowing me this chance of being able to love someone. I remembered that before then, i would always try to hide when ever i see a mushy scene on TV. Now i am able to sit there and know what its like. Thanks for helping me mature. Thank you for her, for being understanding and patience with me, for being there when it mattered. I just didn't know how to treasure it then. Thanks for the lessons learned from this relationship. Thank you for showing me what it was like to love and be loved. Thanks for what she has taught me. Thanks for those happy times. Thanks for those sad times. Thanks for never forsaking me when i was at my lowest.
Thank you God for the people around me. For the friends that were there. Thanks for my the friends in my class for bearing with my emotional turmoil. Thanks for my DG for being there and providing advice. Thanks for Pastor Edwin for listening and the advice too. Thanks to Melissa for being a supporting friend. Thanks for my CG for lifting up my spirits every time we meet. Thanks to those around for just being there. Thanks for my family. Thanks for everyone around me.
Thank you God, for all the things that my life have been and is now, good or bad, cause i know you have something in stored for me. Thank you for helping me stand up after such a bad fall. Thank you for your continuous guidance, the glimmer of light in the darkness. Thank you for the rock to hold on to in the midst of the storms. Thank you for every step i'm able to take. Thank you for the hurts and pains to show me i'm still human and still need to rely on you. Thank you for everything thrown at me.
I know i'm nobody in this whole world. And when they say nobody is perfect, i would have to disagree, cause i'm not.
Am i missing out on something? If everything is back to the same as last term, nothing much actually happened i guess. Only factor missing now is just one emo boyfriend. Anyone willing to tell me what's going on? It's fine if you don't want to, but i prefered to be slapped by someone then to find out things and slap myself over it.
Going to reorganize my playlist, got another new interesting song. See yah.
Thank you for the blessing of giving me a relationship even though it didn't last. For allowing me this chance of being able to love someone. I remembered that before then, i would always try to hide when ever i see a mushy scene on TV. Now i am able to sit there and know what its like. Thanks for helping me mature. Thank you for her, for being understanding and patience with me, for being there when it mattered. I just didn't know how to treasure it then. Thanks for the lessons learned from this relationship. Thank you for showing me what it was like to love and be loved. Thanks for what she has taught me. Thanks for those happy times. Thanks for those sad times. Thanks for never forsaking me when i was at my lowest.
Thank you God for the people around me. For the friends that were there. Thanks for my the friends in my class for bearing with my emotional turmoil. Thanks for my DG for being there and providing advice. Thanks for Pastor Edwin for listening and the advice too. Thanks to Melissa for being a supporting friend. Thanks for my CG for lifting up my spirits every time we meet. Thanks to those around for just being there. Thanks for my family. Thanks for everyone around me.
Thank you God, for all the things that my life have been and is now, good or bad, cause i know you have something in stored for me. Thank you for helping me stand up after such a bad fall. Thank you for your continuous guidance, the glimmer of light in the darkness. Thank you for the rock to hold on to in the midst of the storms. Thank you for every step i'm able to take. Thank you for the hurts and pains to show me i'm still human and still need to rely on you. Thank you for everything thrown at me.
I know i'm nobody in this whole world. And when they say nobody is perfect, i would have to disagree, cause i'm not.
Am i missing out on something? If everything is back to the same as last term, nothing much actually happened i guess. Only factor missing now is just one emo boyfriend. Anyone willing to tell me what's going on? It's fine if you don't want to, but i prefered to be slapped by someone then to find out things and slap myself over it.
Going to reorganize my playlist, got another new interesting song. See yah.
Hey God, would you mind doing me a favor?
I just need you to remove the feeling of me being concern for someone. Help me care less about this person. Its kind of getting a bit hurting trying to be nice when it just doesn't seem reciprocated. Sure i have given up on the person being anyone special now, but why am i still concern? Is it possible for you to remove it? That's not possible? Why? I have to face it? Or do i have to run away? An answer would be good...
I just need you to remove the feeling of me being concern for someone. Help me care less about this person. Its kind of getting a bit hurting trying to be nice when it just doesn't seem reciprocated. Sure i have given up on the person being anyone special now, but why am i still concern? Is it possible for you to remove it? That's not possible? Why? I have to face it? Or do i have to run away? An answer would be good...
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
I wonder why is it so hard to find sincere people.
And yup, screwed up one paper so the rest could at least be salvaged. Hopefully the when i get to see the rest of the papers they will be fine. Looks like i have to work harder till the end of the semester to make up for it...
Was packing some stuff away. Got a bit shaken up i guess. What stuff? What's left of the relationship. That gift with " Love Forever" on it... That small gift that was given back today that i done with my heart... A small teddy that doesn't provide company anymore... Was pissed at first, wanted to just throw the stuff all over the place, but decided that since i have moved on, to just put them away. Somewhere that i won't be packing anytime soon.
Time to look forward and stop looking back. See yah at the finishing line.
Was packing some stuff away. Got a bit shaken up i guess. What stuff? What's left of the relationship. That gift with " Love Forever" on it... That small gift that was given back today that i done with my heart... A small teddy that doesn't provide company anymore... Was pissed at first, wanted to just throw the stuff all over the place, but decided that since i have moved on, to just put them away. Somewhere that i won't be packing anytime soon.
Time to look forward and stop looking back. See yah at the finishing line.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Eagle's Wings
Started the day thinking about how to survive to the end. Then sometime in the morning, Joel sent me a message containing some verses:
Isaiah 43: 18-19
18 "Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.
The first verse was like a wake up call for me again, to move on. To stop thinking about the past, about all that happened before. Thanks Joel. (:
During MPI lab, got kind of pissed cause my program wasn't working, couldn't do a single thing. So had to leave the lab having done nothing at all. And since i was going to the bus stop alone cause Lucas had meeting and everyone left earlier already, decided to use the back door in school again to get home. Didn't wanted to end up pissing myself more with the crowd at the bus stop in front of the school.
Behind school as i jsut entered the carpark behind school, saw something big bird flying. Wanted to know what it was so went closer for a look when it landed on a tree. The first thing that came to my mind was "eagle" when i saw it. Slowly watched it soared away.
First thing i thought of was an eagle probably cause last Sunday in church was talking about prophetic drawings, and one of the common ones was an eagle soaring. And Uncle Henry said he saw up soaring above the church that day too.
After seeing the majestic bird soar away, for some reason this song came to mind :
Still - Hillsong
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Kind of calmed me down, wasn't pissed anymore, was just wondering why didn't i turn to God for help when i needed it. Sometimes we don't realise we need help until some time later. But its never too late to ask for help, especially when you still need it. And earlier i think i resolved the the problem already, so thank God. (:
Was thinking about going for a run when i got home, but decided was getting a little too late with some stuff still left to be done. I like to go for runs, helps me to de-stress. But i've learned one thing about running in life: In life, no matter how fast you run, sooner or later you will get tired, and your those problems you have been running from will catch up. And by then, some would have ballooned so much that it becomes a very enormous task jsut to resolve. So my point? Running away from problems never solve them, it may just worsen the way things are. Don't think you can face them alone? Get help. Reliable help that will pull you through.
I guess that's about all i have for today. Ran out of stuff to blog about already. See yah.
Isaiah 43: 18-19
18 "Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.
The first verse was like a wake up call for me again, to move on. To stop thinking about the past, about all that happened before. Thanks Joel. (:
During MPI lab, got kind of pissed cause my program wasn't working, couldn't do a single thing. So had to leave the lab having done nothing at all. And since i was going to the bus stop alone cause Lucas had meeting and everyone left earlier already, decided to use the back door in school again to get home. Didn't wanted to end up pissing myself more with the crowd at the bus stop in front of the school.
Behind school as i jsut entered the carpark behind school, saw something big bird flying. Wanted to know what it was so went closer for a look when it landed on a tree. The first thing that came to my mind was "eagle" when i saw it. Slowly watched it soared away.
First thing i thought of was an eagle probably cause last Sunday in church was talking about prophetic drawings, and one of the common ones was an eagle soaring. And Uncle Henry said he saw up soaring above the church that day too.
After seeing the majestic bird soar away, for some reason this song came to mind :
Still - Hillsong
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Kind of calmed me down, wasn't pissed anymore, was just wondering why didn't i turn to God for help when i needed it. Sometimes we don't realise we need help until some time later. But its never too late to ask for help, especially when you still need it. And earlier i think i resolved the the problem already, so thank God. (:
Was thinking about going for a run when i got home, but decided was getting a little too late with some stuff still left to be done. I like to go for runs, helps me to de-stress. But i've learned one thing about running in life: In life, no matter how fast you run, sooner or later you will get tired, and your those problems you have been running from will catch up. And by then, some would have ballooned so much that it becomes a very enormous task jsut to resolve. So my point? Running away from problems never solve them, it may just worsen the way things are. Don't think you can face them alone? Get help. Reliable help that will pull you through.
I guess that's about all i have for today. Ran out of stuff to blog about already. See yah.
Monday, January 05, 2009
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Thinking About What Lies Ahead
Lets see... Was thinking about my new year resolutions... What do i want to accomplish this coming year... But first, maybe i should see what happened in 2008, the ups and downs.
2008 (in no particular order, just what comes to mind first)
2009 looks like a year of challenges ahead... Economic crisis... Rising cost of living... Fear of tomorrow... Ah... Such bleak uncertainty ahead... What would you do?
And resolutions for 2009
Man... Time flies... It's already 11pm+ already... And i need to wake up early tomorrow cause just took over my dad's job of getting breakfast... Oh well, sooner or later i will have ot end up doing almost everything anyway... See yah next time.
2008 (in no particular order, just what comes to mind first)
- Finally started to attend Campus Crusade more regularly
- Got closer to crusade thanks to Restored Camp
- Went into a relationship that i thought would last
- Broke up cause she didn't want to work things out
- But thanks anyway to those who provided me advice, just sorry it didn't turn out the best way
- Friendships strained cause she got close to another friend
- Got closer to DG
- Graduated from Youth and moving on to Young Adults, will miss Pastor Edwin's nagging i guess =x
- Picked up the guitar even though not practicing regularly YET
- Got irritated at some people who say part of the cause is them but yet don't see them doing anything to correct the situation. RESPONSIBILITY is what that is called.
- Used the f-word most times, usually average about 1 or half a year but last year alone was about 6 to 8 i think. Failing relationships can do that to you.
- Burned my finger in the weirdest way possible
- GUNDAM OO!!
- Got PSP
- Learned more about love
- Learned that falling out of love sucks and is totally demoralising
- Learned that a relationship got so many factors to consider, like values, background, religion, culture, point-of-views etc..
- When see teacher approaching you for help, RUN IF POSSIBLE
- I need to start training for NAPFA...
- Remember to always scribble something down on the worksheet, can always pass off as attempted but failed =x
- Flying is not possible for humans without technology to help
- NBA is interesting to watch...
- BRING ON OLYMPICS!!
- I wonder if singing can be trained...
- Don't work as a door to door surveyor unless you are good with words.
- And try to work with a bigger company if possible, some smaller companies don't really pay in time... T.T
- Still chasing for pay... T.T
- Need money...
2009 looks like a year of challenges ahead... Economic crisis... Rising cost of living... Fear of tomorrow... Ah... Such bleak uncertainty ahead... What would you do?
And resolutions for 2009
- PLAY MORE GUITAR!!
- Read bible more often
- Save money regularly (Less on food... T.T)
Destroy the worldContinue walking with God- Try to contribute more to Crusade? (thinking about)
- Put more effort into homework... Even slightly more would be good...
- Start training for NAPFA
- Complete blogskin... Have to escape people stereotyping me as emo...
- GET MY PAY!!! *Finds trusty knife*
- Think about what i want for my future. Got a few things in mind.
- Use basketball more regularly, try shooting with left hand
- Pull skates out of retirement if time allows?
- STAY SINGLE (unless some how God shows me otherwise =x)
- Forgive all that have wronged me
- SELF-CONTROL KELVIN, SELF-CONTROL!!
- Improve on last year's horrible rating
Man... Time flies... It's already 11pm+ already... And i need to wake up early tomorrow cause just took over my dad's job of getting breakfast... Oh well, sooner or later i will have ot end up doing almost everything anyway... See yah next time.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
New Year, New Start?
Happy New Year people. The old has pass, so let the new in. My resolutions some other tiem when i got time to think them through.
Ran into Cassandra this Monday at the bus interchange. Waited with her for her friend and caught up a bit at the same time. She didn't change much i supposed, still as fierce and lives in self-denial. =x
Went out for lunch with DG mates yesterday. Ate at Pasta Mania. We then headed to The Esplanade just to chat a little. Had an interesting session of discussion and catching up.
Ran into Cassandra this Monday at the bus interchange. Waited with her for her friend and caught up a bit at the same time. She didn't change much i supposed, still as fierce and lives in self-denial. =x
Went out for lunch with DG mates yesterday. Ate at Pasta Mania. We then headed to The Esplanade just to chat a little. Had an interesting session of discussion and catching up.
Group Photo
Just some random scenery i took
A pic secretly taken by Justin on my phone =x
Saw something interesting while i was out finding stuff recently. Saw it at a gift store of sorts. They sold cards for different occasions. Just happened to caught my eye. There are cards for troubled relationships? Interesting... 
Ok... Hmmh... Time to start thinking about resolutions and probably the future too. Thinking about what i'm aiming for in the end.
DJ Max Black Squre is harder then the previous version... ARGH... Finger aching just after 3 songs... Time to start thumb exercises i guess... =x
Signing out. Need some rest after yesterday's late night at church. It was quite an interesting service. Oh well, better go off already. See yah.
Saw something interesting while i was out finding stuff recently. Saw it at a gift store of sorts. They sold cards for different occasions. Just happened to caught my eye. There are cards for troubled relationships? Interesting... 
Ok... Hmmh... Time to start thinking about resolutions and probably the future too. Thinking about what i'm aiming for in the end.
DJ Max Black Squre is harder then the previous version... ARGH... Finger aching just after 3 songs... Time to start thumb exercises i guess... =x
Signing out. Need some rest after yesterday's late night at church. It was quite an interesting service. Oh well, better go off already. See yah.
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