Yesterday night was chatting with my 2nd mom. I guess she finds it weird that i still choose to trust even when things look so messy at the moment... Don't know why i got the tendency to choose the harder choice. Maybe i'm more rebellious then i thought? Hmm... Sometimes i wish someone would tell me everything will be fine in the end, but i guess no one can predict the future.
Hmm... I wonder if patience and tolerance are the same thing... Lets see... Hmm... They seem to be about the same meaning based on Thesaurus.com. I guess i have been feeling that my tolerance levels are being stretched every time i'm in school. Some stuff just happens in front of me that i find very hard to ignore... Am i supposed to react in anger? Lose my head? Thank God i have yet to go crazy... Or maybe i already have... Remembered climbing onto a structure recently just to grab soemthing even though there was no need to... Dangerous i guess, but i guess the adrenaline helps me clear my mind.
Man... 1 week to exams and i have yet to start studying. Looks like this week is going to be chiong studying all the way....
Today during church service watched quite an interesting video. Seeing how someone's life can take a 180 degree turn for the better. From a drug addict and being in and out of prison and drug rehabilitation centers for 20 years, to a person now that helps others kick the habit. He now provides hope to those who wants to kick the habit. Total life change, only possible through Jesus Christ.
Sometimes it would be nice if there was someone in my class who really understood how i feel now.
Was discussing after service today with friends about what we should cook next Sunday at pastor's house. Pizza, frugal(or something... Some fatten goose or duck liver...), and some chocolate desert came up, thanks to our chef Reuel! Hopefully next Sunday will be a good break before i officially start my common test. Will be a good time to recharge before the battle ahead. XD
I guess that's about all for today. Wondering why i have been blogging so much recently? Just needed to let out some steam, to let out some thoughts. Time to go choose my modules options. See yah.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Ah... Having Trouble Sleepign Again...
Went to bed about 12am yesterday, hopeing to be able to as least sleep until i've recovered the sleep lost in the past 2 weeks, but only to wake up at 6am for some reason... Then back to sleep again at about 6:30am, only to wake up at 8am again... Ah... Probably too many thoughts floating around in my head... Too much thoughts casue insomia... I need someone to knock me out... If i can be knocked out that is... =x
Sometimes i wonder what does those actions and faces around me means. I once said i could knwo what one was thinking about just by seeing the body language. That was very far from the truth. I realised that it isn't what the person is thinking about that is shown with body language, but its teh heart. And the heart can't lie. The body can only react the way one is feeling. It's natural. We can't force our bodies to work the way we are not feeling. Actions speaks louder then words.
Been feeling quite horrible today. Can't really place a finger on why though. During CG at church, just lied on the floor and didn't feel like sitting up. Didn't really have the effort to pull myself up. In the end, got MingCi to help pull me up. Wonder what's wrong with me today... Feel exhausted even though didn't really do much...
Oh well, life still goes on. There is a time for everything. I guess bidding my time is also a strategy. Never believed in a strategy that involved using people's feelings.
I think i got a friend in Thailand. Heard on her birthday that she was going there for a holiday with her family. Hopefully she and her family are safe.
I wonder what the future holds... That's all folk. See yah.
Sometimes i wonder what does those actions and faces around me means. I once said i could knwo what one was thinking about just by seeing the body language. That was very far from the truth. I realised that it isn't what the person is thinking about that is shown with body language, but its teh heart. And the heart can't lie. The body can only react the way one is feeling. It's natural. We can't force our bodies to work the way we are not feeling. Actions speaks louder then words.
Been feeling quite horrible today. Can't really place a finger on why though. During CG at church, just lied on the floor and didn't feel like sitting up. Didn't really have the effort to pull myself up. In the end, got MingCi to help pull me up. Wonder what's wrong with me today... Feel exhausted even though didn't really do much...
Oh well, life still goes on. There is a time for everything. I guess bidding my time is also a strategy. Never believed in a strategy that involved using people's feelings.
I think i got a friend in Thailand. Heard on her birthday that she was going there for a holiday with her family. Hopefully she and her family are safe.
I wonder what the future holds... That's all folk. See yah.
Friday, November 28, 2008
I Wonder...
I wonder if people ever wondered what i was thinking about and how i will react to different actions.
I wonder if the people around know how i'm feeling.
I wonder if they actually help me through with what i'm thinking.
I wonder if the people around either don't care about how i feel or they just don't know how to react to it.
I wonder if i'm considered just a passing friend or did i impact anyone in life.
I wonder why memories can be so sweet yet so sad at the same time.
I wonder why life is so tough at times.
I wonder... I wonder why...
I wonder if the people around know how i'm feeling.
I wonder if they actually help me through with what i'm thinking.
I wonder if the people around either don't care about how i feel or they just don't know how to react to it.
I wonder if i'm considered just a passing friend or did i impact anyone in life.
I wonder why memories can be so sweet yet so sad at the same time.
I wonder why life is so tough at times.
I wonder... I wonder why...
And Finally The Results...
Here are the list of questions and the my first respond to them. It's the first thought that comes to mind that count, cause after too much thinking the answers may become too clouded.
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1) Let's say you have to go to the desert to find your loved one. You are wearing a pair of shoes. Would you bring along any extra pairs of shoes? And if yes, how many pairs?
1a) Don't need bring what... Already wearing one pair enough already. Even though my shoes tend to fail me at the strangest of times, the pair i wear should be sufficient.
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2) On your way you find a glass bottle. Would you pick it up?
2a) Yup, Never know when it will come in handy.
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3) After walking a distance in the desert, you got very thirsty. You saw a pond with questionable cleanliness. Would you drink from it?
3a) Drink lah... If thirsty should drink what... Stomach upset better then dying dehydrated. =x
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4) Then after walking along a while, you see a pond of better quality of the previous one, maybe of mineral water quality. What would you do?
4a) Remember the glass bottle earlier? Store water and get a drink too. =x
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5) Then upon reaching your loved one's house, you discover that he/she is not at home. Would you choose to walk into the house yourself or let the servant of the household bring you in?
5a) Let the servant bring me in. Not very nice of me to just go into someone's house just like that.
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6) You brought along a bouquet of flowers to the house, but only to find that there are flowers already in the vase in the house. What would you do with your flowers?
6a) The glass bottle came in handy again. =x My flowers are placed next to the ones in the vase.
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7) You waited for quite a while but he/she is yet to be come back. So you decide to get home. How would you choose to get home?
7a) Walk home. Since i walked there, shouldn't i walk home too?
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And now to see how those answers i gave relates to how i react to relationships.
1) I chose only the pair of shoes i wearing. Meaning that i will only be in 1 relationship at any one time. You chose more then that? Hmm... It reflects the number of relationships you can have up to at a time. =x
2) Never really got this part. When i chose to pick up the glass bottle, it means i'm willing to pick up an old relationship again. Anybody mind explaining?
3) Some how choosing to drink from dirty water means i don't mind marriage. Hmm... I guess marriage is not a easy thing. Sometimes it may be hard to swallow i guess.
4) Somehow this part shows how much i will enjoy the relationship. Drinking of it seems to be the normal respond. And my other friend actually said that he will go for a refreshing swim... Looks like he really enjoys it... =x
5) And this part shows that i don't usually take the initiative. What... I don't like to be rude... =x
6) Me placing my flowers one side and not replacing the flowers means i am willing to step aside if the other party is already in a relationship. Hmm... Made a little sense to me...
7) This question shows how fast i recover after a relationship. The faster the way you choose to get home, the faster you recover. And i chose the slowest way to go home... Wait a minute, isn't crawling slower? So maybe i didn't choose the slowest way home after all. Maybe i'm hopeing to bump into the person as i'm walking back.
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Oh well, I guess thats enough for a while. Shouldn't be revealing too much about myself. Don't want anyone to emotinally blackmail me... =x
Thats all folks. See yah.
Guess i'm still walking home. Still got a desert to cover...
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1) Let's say you have to go to the desert to find your loved one. You are wearing a pair of shoes. Would you bring along any extra pairs of shoes? And if yes, how many pairs?
1a) Don't need bring what... Already wearing one pair enough already. Even though my shoes tend to fail me at the strangest of times, the pair i wear should be sufficient.
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2) On your way you find a glass bottle. Would you pick it up?
2a) Yup, Never know when it will come in handy.
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3) After walking a distance in the desert, you got very thirsty. You saw a pond with questionable cleanliness. Would you drink from it?
3a) Drink lah... If thirsty should drink what... Stomach upset better then dying dehydrated. =x
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4) Then after walking along a while, you see a pond of better quality of the previous one, maybe of mineral water quality. What would you do?
4a) Remember the glass bottle earlier? Store water and get a drink too. =x
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5) Then upon reaching your loved one's house, you discover that he/she is not at home. Would you choose to walk into the house yourself or let the servant of the household bring you in?
5a) Let the servant bring me in. Not very nice of me to just go into someone's house just like that.
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6) You brought along a bouquet of flowers to the house, but only to find that there are flowers already in the vase in the house. What would you do with your flowers?
6a) The glass bottle came in handy again. =x My flowers are placed next to the ones in the vase.
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7) You waited for quite a while but he/she is yet to be come back. So you decide to get home. How would you choose to get home?
7a) Walk home. Since i walked there, shouldn't i walk home too?
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And now to see how those answers i gave relates to how i react to relationships.
1) I chose only the pair of shoes i wearing. Meaning that i will only be in 1 relationship at any one time. You chose more then that? Hmm... It reflects the number of relationships you can have up to at a time. =x
2) Never really got this part. When i chose to pick up the glass bottle, it means i'm willing to pick up an old relationship again. Anybody mind explaining?
3) Some how choosing to drink from dirty water means i don't mind marriage. Hmm... I guess marriage is not a easy thing. Sometimes it may be hard to swallow i guess.
4) Somehow this part shows how much i will enjoy the relationship. Drinking of it seems to be the normal respond. And my other friend actually said that he will go for a refreshing swim... Looks like he really enjoys it... =x
5) And this part shows that i don't usually take the initiative. What... I don't like to be rude... =x
6) Me placing my flowers one side and not replacing the flowers means i am willing to step aside if the other party is already in a relationship. Hmm... Made a little sense to me...
7) This question shows how fast i recover after a relationship. The faster the way you choose to get home, the faster you recover. And i chose the slowest way to go home... Wait a minute, isn't crawling slower? So maybe i didn't choose the slowest way home after all. Maybe i'm hopeing to bump into the person as i'm walking back.
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Oh well, I guess thats enough for a while. Shouldn't be revealing too much about myself. Don't want anyone to emotinally blackmail me... =x
Thats all folks. See yah.
Guess i'm still walking home. Still got a desert to cover...
A Pretty Interesting List of Questions
Someone recently asked me this series of questions. A set of questions that shows a little about what kind of person you are from how you responded. So lets start.
1) Let's say you have to go to the desert to find your loved one. You are wearing a pair of shoes. Would you bring along any extra pairs of shoes? And if yes, how many pairs?
2) On your way you find a glass bottle. Would you pick it up?
3) After walking a distance in the desert, you got very thirsty. You saw a pond with questionable cleanliness. Would you drink from it?
4) Then after walking along a while, you see a pond of better quality of the previous one, maybe of mineral water quality. What would you do?
5) Then upon reaching your loved one's house, you discover that he/she is not at home. Would you choose to walk into the house yourself or let the servant of the household bring you in?
6) You brought along a bouquet of flowers to the house, but only to find that there are flowers already in the vase in the house. What would you do with your flowers?
7) You waited for quite a while but he/she is yet to be come back. So you decide to get home. How would you choose to get home?
Will be posting my replies and their meanings probably tomorrow. Need to confirm some stuff about the questions first. The answers actually made some sense to me. Or at least it successfully predicted what kind of person i am to a certain extent... But anyway, don't take it too seriously. Just for fun mainly. =x
Hmm... Looks like tonight is going to be a late night again. May just do a little research on some stuff before sleeping. Oh well, guess i better prepare for tomorrow already. And i guess i realised that i can survive anything life throws at me, its just a matter of trusting in God and letting time do the rest. I wonder what the future holds...
That probably all for now. Too tired to think about much stuff already. Looks like the plan ot develope something new have to be on hold then... See yah.
1) Let's say you have to go to the desert to find your loved one. You are wearing a pair of shoes. Would you bring along any extra pairs of shoes? And if yes, how many pairs?
2) On your way you find a glass bottle. Would you pick it up?
3) After walking a distance in the desert, you got very thirsty. You saw a pond with questionable cleanliness. Would you drink from it?
4) Then after walking along a while, you see a pond of better quality of the previous one, maybe of mineral water quality. What would you do?
5) Then upon reaching your loved one's house, you discover that he/she is not at home. Would you choose to walk into the house yourself or let the servant of the household bring you in?
6) You brought along a bouquet of flowers to the house, but only to find that there are flowers already in the vase in the house. What would you do with your flowers?
7) You waited for quite a while but he/she is yet to be come back. So you decide to get home. How would you choose to get home?
Will be posting my replies and their meanings probably tomorrow. Need to confirm some stuff about the questions first. The answers actually made some sense to me. Or at least it successfully predicted what kind of person i am to a certain extent... But anyway, don't take it too seriously. Just for fun mainly. =x
Hmm... Looks like tonight is going to be a late night again. May just do a little research on some stuff before sleeping. Oh well, guess i better prepare for tomorrow already. And i guess i realised that i can survive anything life throws at me, its just a matter of trusting in God and letting time do the rest. I wonder what the future holds...
That probably all for now. Too tired to think about much stuff already. Looks like the plan ot develope something new have to be on hold then... See yah.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I Time Travel Everyday
Never realised i could arrive in school as early as 6:10am before. The roads must have been very clear and not much stops i guess. The timing of the buses were just right. Reached both bus stops a while before the buses i was taking arrived. So it was like a chain 2 combo. =x
I guess i have been doing alot of time traveling recently. I usually walk around some places and just have memories about that place. Memories of relaxed times. Memories of happier times. Just like time traveling back to those days. Too bad i can't travel back and change some parts of the past. May have done some things differently. But now i guess i just living each day at a time now. Time traveling once in a while keeps me in touch with reality i guess. Reminds me to live each day without regrets.
Hmm... Maybe i should consider building a Gundam or mobile suit of such during my spare time... Maybe not. Let's start with something lower... Maybe an Iron Man suit? Ah... Still abit too high... Hmm... Maybe just concentrate on drive or some way to power those stuff first... Still too high? Maybe... Develope a new way of propulsion? Ah... All the possiblities are messing with my head...
Ah... I guess that's about all for today... Need to rest soon... Woke up too early today... See yah.
I guess i have been doing alot of time traveling recently. I usually walk around some places and just have memories about that place. Memories of relaxed times. Memories of happier times. Just like time traveling back to those days. Too bad i can't travel back and change some parts of the past. May have done some things differently. But now i guess i just living each day at a time now. Time traveling once in a while keeps me in touch with reality i guess. Reminds me to live each day without regrets.
Hmm... Maybe i should consider building a Gundam or mobile suit of such during my spare time... Maybe not. Let's start with something lower... Maybe an Iron Man suit? Ah... Still abit too high... Hmm... Maybe just concentrate on drive or some way to power those stuff first... Still too high? Maybe... Develope a new way of propulsion? Ah... All the possiblities are messing with my head...
Ah... I guess that's about all for today... Need to rest soon... Woke up too early today... See yah.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
And After Resolving One Crisis, Another One Appears...
Remember the $50 yesterday? Resolved today. Had $50 placed into my account after my dad sent in a complain yesterday night after hearing what happened. That $50 note came from an ATM, so if i lose the money cause of it being broken, its the ATM problem... =x And thus, my dad made the complain, since yesterday there was no guarantee of me getting the money back.
Then today, after arriving back home, my laptop power adapter failed me... Dad wanted to attempt to use his giant power adapter at first, but decided not to in fear of laptop blowing up. =x
So i had to think fast... Attempted to try to use the adapter temporary until i could get a new one, but in the end it just didn't provide a stable output... Then i called my uncle, asked if he had a spare adapter. So i brought my laptop over to my uncle to test fit the spares he had. Took a 2 stop bus ride over, test fitted, test, said hi to cousins, then went back home.
Thankfully the adapter worked, or i guess i wouldn't be blogging and chatting now. Thank God... Imagine having to just go down to Sim Lim Squre or HP support center jsut for 1 power adapter. Would be so troublesome... And since the next few days will be satying for a while in school, and if the adapter wasn't found, i would probably have to survive without my laptop up to the weekend... Imagine the horror... =x
Oh well... Looks like i don't really time to start on my personal project yet. Tomorrow probably arriving in school about 6am++ for morning prayer, should be resting soon, so why am i still blogging? Oh well, see yah then. And hope you people enjoy the new musical addition to my blog. (:
Then today, after arriving back home, my laptop power adapter failed me... Dad wanted to attempt to use his giant power adapter at first, but decided not to in fear of laptop blowing up. =x
So i had to think fast... Attempted to try to use the adapter temporary until i could get a new one, but in the end it just didn't provide a stable output... Then i called my uncle, asked if he had a spare adapter. So i brought my laptop over to my uncle to test fit the spares he had. Took a 2 stop bus ride over, test fitted, test, said hi to cousins, then went back home.
Thankfully the adapter worked, or i guess i wouldn't be blogging and chatting now. Thank God... Imagine having to just go down to Sim Lim Squre or HP support center jsut for 1 power adapter. Would be so troublesome... And since the next few days will be satying for a while in school, and if the adapter wasn't found, i would probably have to survive without my laptop up to the weekend... Imagine the horror... =x
Oh well... Looks like i don't really time to start on my personal project yet. Tomorrow probably arriving in school about 6am++ for morning prayer, should be resting soon, so why am i still blogging? Oh well, see yah then. And hope you people enjoy the new musical addition to my blog. (:
Monday, November 24, 2008
From Full to Empty
Man... Today must be one of the weirdest day in my life... After school i went to buy something. Just as i decided what to buy and was paying with my allowance, a $50 note. The shop keeper said that since the $50 got a hole, she can't accept, and that i should go to the bank next door to exchange or something. So i went to the bank.
I made my way to the general inquiries to find out what i was supposed to do with my damaged $50 note. Waited for about 10 minutes... Then was told to go to the normal queue. Another 10 minutes gone.
Finally was my turn. The person serving me said i that i could get the full value back, even thought the note was crumbling apart. When the note came to her, the mouth of the president on the note came out... But anyway, she went to the back to do some discussion. Then she came back with the note taped up, saying that the note has to be sent to MAS to see the value and that i won't be getting anything back. Only after the value have been decided will the it be credited into my account.
I was stunned for a while. Wait a minute... I came in with $50 and left with $0 in my wallet? So i had no choice but to leave empty handed. Went back to the shop and asked them to help me hold on the the item as i'm cashless at the moment. Probably going back tomorrow or Wednesday.
Oh well... Collected my allowance again from my dad anyway. See if tomorrow have time to go down. Hopefully the other item i was eye-ing will still be there, didn't even have the chance to approach the shop today... =x
I guess that's about all for now. See yah.
I made my way to the general inquiries to find out what i was supposed to do with my damaged $50 note. Waited for about 10 minutes... Then was told to go to the normal queue. Another 10 minutes gone.
Finally was my turn. The person serving me said i that i could get the full value back, even thought the note was crumbling apart. When the note came to her, the mouth of the president on the note came out... But anyway, she went to the back to do some discussion. Then she came back with the note taped up, saying that the note has to be sent to MAS to see the value and that i won't be getting anything back. Only after the value have been decided will the it be credited into my account.
I was stunned for a while. Wait a minute... I came in with $50 and left with $0 in my wallet? So i had no choice but to leave empty handed. Went back to the shop and asked them to help me hold on the the item as i'm cashless at the moment. Probably going back tomorrow or Wednesday.
Oh well... Collected my allowance again from my dad anyway. See if tomorrow have time to go down. Hopefully the other item i was eye-ing will still be there, didn't even have the chance to approach the shop today... =x
I guess that's about all for now. See yah.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
And To Some Special People Out There
Family brought along my 2 young cousins for a steamboat dinner today. Not really the easiest thing to take care of them when they want to run all over over the place. Thank Goodness they didn't today. But was still tough enough. Didn't really eat much cause was getting food to my cousin. Had to have him sit on my lap to and fro. Man... in about 6 months i don't think i will survive him sitting on my lap. It was already so tiring just taking care of 2 cousins for 1 dinner. I salute parents and caretakers, for their endless dedication to kids, no matter how tiring they can get.
I guess seeing kids at the end of the day can be rewarding too, especially when they just run over and give the hug that brightens your day after a long day of work. And i remembered there was once Jeanie said she didn't like kids, now she pampers her daughter so much. =x
Hmm... Lets see if i can learn a guitar song in 2 to 3 weeks. trying plucking this time. My strumming needs more work, but i guess i would like to try this song first.
Man... 2 more weeks to common test... Looks like time to start studying already... Time to start looking for motivation to study. Last semester common was probably both the saddest and happiest time for me. Sad cause my family left me at home while they were in Malaysia for church camp on my birthday. Happiest cause i realised how much one could care for another. What about it? Just something pleasant happened i guess. If only things stayed that nice...
I guess that's about all for now. Going to prepare for tomorrow. See yah.
I guess seeing kids at the end of the day can be rewarding too, especially when they just run over and give the hug that brightens your day after a long day of work. And i remembered there was once Jeanie said she didn't like kids, now she pampers her daughter so much. =x
Hmm... Lets see if i can learn a guitar song in 2 to 3 weeks. trying plucking this time. My strumming needs more work, but i guess i would like to try this song first.
Man... 2 more weeks to common test... Looks like time to start studying already... Time to start looking for motivation to study. Last semester common was probably both the saddest and happiest time for me. Sad cause my family left me at home while they were in Malaysia for church camp on my birthday. Happiest cause i realised how much one could care for another. What about it? Just something pleasant happened i guess. If only things stayed that nice...
I guess that's about all for now. Going to prepare for tomorrow. See yah.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Long Day Again...
So today was another long day. Woke up at 6am to get to the toilet, before going back to sleep again, only to be woken up at about 8:50am again by my dad. Had to go wash up n prepare to get to a wedding. Had ushering duty that requires me to wear a pink top. Had to spend some time searching for one. Finally found one from an ex-classmate on Thursday. Thanks goodness. IF i didn't find one by then, would probably have to buy one on Friday already.
Lets get back to the wedding of Matthew and Rebecca. The bride was stunning. Never saw her so beautiful in the past few years i have known her. She kind of took the attention off Matthew, but Matthew was looking quite handsome too. The wedding was beautiful. Don't know why, but i jsut felt it was beautiful. After about 5 years of courtship they tied the knot. Quite a long time of courtship. I guess they finally reached the end of a journey of courtship and started a new journey of marriage.
A joke was cracked during the presentation by Pastor Keith:
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Lets get back to the wedding of Matthew and Rebecca. The bride was stunning. Never saw her so beautiful in the past few years i have known her. She kind of took the attention off Matthew, but Matthew was looking quite handsome too. The wedding was beautiful. Don't know why, but i jsut felt it was beautiful. After about 5 years of courtship they tied the knot. Quite a long time of courtship. I guess they finally reached the end of a journey of courtship and started a new journey of marriage.
A joke was cracked during the presentation by Pastor Keith:
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Dear Tech Support,
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slowdown in overall system performance — particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed undesirable programs such as NFL 5.0, NBA 3.0. and Golf Clubs 4.1. Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.5 simply crashes the system. I’ve tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.
What can I do?
Signed,
Desperate
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Dear Desperate:
First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System. Please enter the command: “http: I Thought You Loved Me.htm” and try to download Tears 6.2 and don’t forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.
But remember, over use of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5 Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background, that will eventually seize control of all your system resources).
Also, do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program. These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.
You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. We recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7
Good Luck,
Tech Support
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I guess its this kind of events that makes you think about what the future holds for you. Are we meant to be single forever or is there someone out there for us? Or is that person right in front of us already? And more questions leads to more questions. If we knew what our future holds, will we still work as hard as we can for it? Or are we going to just slack cause its going to happen anyway? And will we regret not giving our best now?
Hmm... Looks like got a few more things to organise before i can slack again. Need to get people to do stuff again... And just when i could take a break from everything around me, more stuff appears for me to work on...
Oh well, guess i should be resting early. Need the extra shut eye. Catching up what i lost while doing IS project earlier this week. Let's see if church holds anything interesting tomorrow... Let's see... If i sleep by 10:30 to 11, then wake up about 7 to 7:30, should have about 8 hours of sleep... should be enough to last for a while...
I guess thats that. See yah.
I guess its this kind of events that makes you think about what the future holds for you. Are we meant to be single forever or is there someone out there for us? Or is that person right in front of us already? And more questions leads to more questions. If we knew what our future holds, will we still work as hard as we can for it? Or are we going to just slack cause its going to happen anyway? And will we regret not giving our best now?
Hmm... Looks like got a few more things to organise before i can slack again. Need to get people to do stuff again... And just when i could take a break from everything around me, more stuff appears for me to work on...
Oh well, guess i should be resting early. Need the extra shut eye. Catching up what i lost while doing IS project earlier this week. Let's see if church holds anything interesting tomorrow... Let's see... If i sleep by 10:30 to 11, then wake up about 7 to 7:30, should have about 8 hours of sleep... should be enough to last for a while...
I guess thats that. See yah.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Just a Thought i Had
Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words, they hurt the most. Words pierces the heart, through the bone, to the core of what we are. Words, they can destroy life. Destroy relationships. Destroy hope. Destroy everything.
But words, can also build. Build life. Build hope. Words can encourage. Keep us all going on. Words can be used to heal, both physical and psychological injuries. Words can bless. Brighten another day with a line or two.
So what will you choose to do with your words? To hurt or encourage? To destroy or to build?
But words, can also build. Build life. Build hope. Words can encourage. Keep us all going on. Words can be used to heal, both physical and psychological injuries. Words can bless. Brighten another day with a line or two.
So what will you choose to do with your words? To hurt or encourage? To destroy or to build?
How Do You See Things?
Life is hard when everybody around see things in terms of impossibilities, while you are the only one who see things in terms of possibilities.
Everybody see despair while you cling on to hope.
Everybody see a half filled glass while you see enough water for a drink.
Everyone looking for the lost instead of seeing the found.
So what are we all looking at and concentrating on? What we have? What we want? What we hope for?
I guess i'm the more forgiving one, continue being nice to those who still continue to just don't treat me as nice. I'll be fine anyway. I won't let anger take over.
First time and this kind of thing happen, and i can't even make up or do anything about it. I guess there will always be people around to screw up other people's hopes. All i have now is a hope so tiny that i keep locked up somewhere that no one can access. A small hope that keeps me going on everyday. If you instead to screw that up also, please give up cause it can't be touched. Its the little hope in everything i have in life, whether be it family, school, work, friends, love, God. The last bit of hope that can't be smashed. And it will only die out when i die myself.
I guess thats about it for now, need to use the washroom and start on soem housework. See yah around i guess.
Everybody see despair while you cling on to hope.
Everybody see a half filled glass while you see enough water for a drink.
Everyone looking for the lost instead of seeing the found.
So what are we all looking at and concentrating on? What we have? What we want? What we hope for?
I guess i'm the more forgiving one, continue being nice to those who still continue to just don't treat me as nice. I'll be fine anyway. I won't let anger take over.
First time and this kind of thing happen, and i can't even make up or do anything about it. I guess there will always be people around to screw up other people's hopes. All i have now is a hope so tiny that i keep locked up somewhere that no one can access. A small hope that keeps me going on everyday. If you instead to screw that up also, please give up cause it can't be touched. Its the little hope in everything i have in life, whether be it family, school, work, friends, love, God. The last bit of hope that can't be smashed. And it will only die out when i die myself.
I guess thats about it for now, need to use the washroom and start on soem housework. See yah around i guess.
About the Previous Post
The post was going out to a few people. If you think it applies to you, what can i say? Just reflect on what i said and think for yourself.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Sometimes When The Limit is Reached, Any Further Will Mean No Recovery
After being broken to a certain extent, some things can't be broken any further. Any further and its probably means it can never be repaired. Yesterday had this interesting analogy for my understanding relationship class. A relationship can be liken to a laptop. It needs to be maintained. And when there is a problem, you can either choose to try to solve it yourself, find help from friends, or seek professional help. And if the problem cannot be resolved after all that, probably time for a new laptop. But i find there is one factor missing in this. If the laptop has a problem but one just isn't willing to even to try to solve it, nothing will still get done.
I guess i don't see much hope now. When everybody around just say go, why am i still choosing to remain? For all people reading, please don't say sorry if you don't mean it. I guess not everyone who makes mistakes are willing to make up for it. Whats th sue of saying sorry if you choose to do nothing about it and just continue? Please reflect. Enough said.
Burned my finger during PDPR lesson today. Was looking at Lucas board when my finger wondered to my soldering iron and rested there. Only after a while i realised that it was getting painful and removed my finger, but i guess it was too late and now my hand is functioning with one finger less.
Why was i being nice in the first place? Just convey a message but yet chose not to hear. I wanted to keep it going, but i guess you don't. Maybe i'm the heartless one now. But why is it that my conscience is clear? Get snubbed for doing the right thing? What happened to the values? Blinded by something? Someone? Look into your heart. Look into your heart and just say what you feel. Let no one control what you feel or think. Look into your conscience. What does it tell you to do? Only when we follow our own conscience will we not feel guilty. So are you thinking and feelign for yourself or being influenced by another?
Looks like everytime i be nice someone walks over me. Go ahead then, if your conscience allows you to. I'll recover. I just hope that you are able to reflect on what you did and am going to do.
Looks like i lost more then part of me, i guess i also misplaced a few screws in my head. During wedding reaharsal yesterday, was kind of wacky, probably due to not enough sleep. Was the same today. Ah... Maybe thats why acdcidently burned myself too.
Today was J's birthday, wished her birthday and chatted a little i guess. Used to be interested in her so long ago, but i guess now the feelings aren't there anymore. I guess i probably won't be going into a relationship any time soon, don't think i can love another properly at the moment anyway. And that will probably be that case for quite a long time.
I just hope people can put themselves into my shoes and see things from the way i see. Do you think before doing or saying something? Or do you just shoot without care of what people say? If both males and females are humans, and all humans are emotional beings, thus shouldn't it be right to assume that all people can be sensitive? Its just if we allow ourselves ot be ourselves.
Letting out steam. Some people just never choose to understand all the points of view before making a judgement. Who are we to judge people?
Ah... Enough for today... Too much frustration in this post already.
I guess i don't see much hope now. When everybody around just say go, why am i still choosing to remain? For all people reading, please don't say sorry if you don't mean it. I guess not everyone who makes mistakes are willing to make up for it. Whats th sue of saying sorry if you choose to do nothing about it and just continue? Please reflect. Enough said.
Burned my finger during PDPR lesson today. Was looking at Lucas board when my finger wondered to my soldering iron and rested there. Only after a while i realised that it was getting painful and removed my finger, but i guess it was too late and now my hand is functioning with one finger less.
Why was i being nice in the first place? Just convey a message but yet chose not to hear. I wanted to keep it going, but i guess you don't. Maybe i'm the heartless one now. But why is it that my conscience is clear? Get snubbed for doing the right thing? What happened to the values? Blinded by something? Someone? Look into your heart. Look into your heart and just say what you feel. Let no one control what you feel or think. Look into your conscience. What does it tell you to do? Only when we follow our own conscience will we not feel guilty. So are you thinking and feelign for yourself or being influenced by another?
Looks like everytime i be nice someone walks over me. Go ahead then, if your conscience allows you to. I'll recover. I just hope that you are able to reflect on what you did and am going to do.
Looks like i lost more then part of me, i guess i also misplaced a few screws in my head. During wedding reaharsal yesterday, was kind of wacky, probably due to not enough sleep. Was the same today. Ah... Maybe thats why acdcidently burned myself too.
Today was J's birthday, wished her birthday and chatted a little i guess. Used to be interested in her so long ago, but i guess now the feelings aren't there anymore. I guess i probably won't be going into a relationship any time soon, don't think i can love another properly at the moment anyway. And that will probably be that case for quite a long time.
I just hope people can put themselves into my shoes and see things from the way i see. Do you think before doing or saying something? Or do you just shoot without care of what people say? If both males and females are humans, and all humans are emotional beings, thus shouldn't it be right to assume that all people can be sensitive? Its just if we allow ourselves ot be ourselves.
Letting out steam. Some people just never choose to understand all the points of view before making a judgement. Who are we to judge people?
Ah... Enough for today... Too much frustration in this post already.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
"I Need Help" Notice
Anybody got a pink long sleeve collar shit? I need to borrow for a wedding this Saturday... Being an usher again. =x
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
An Article i Came Across
Came across this while searching for some school work stuff. take a look if interested.
http://buen-amigo.blogspot.com/2007/08/love.html
http://buen-amigo.blogspot.com/2007/08/love.html
Hmm...
Why does it feel like someone out there isn't telling me something? Maybe i getting paranoid from not enough sleep again...
I guess 1 reason people may feel bad is that their conscience is telling them they are doing something wrong? Or what else can it be for? I wonder if people can bear to tell me the truth. I don't bite or kill, at least not yet anyway. But there's no reason for me to do any of that unless u give me a reason to right? Oh well, better get ready for rest then... Good night/morning, depends on how you see it.
I guess 1 reason people may feel bad is that their conscience is telling them they are doing something wrong? Or what else can it be for? I wonder if people can bear to tell me the truth. I don't bite or kill, at least not yet anyway. But there's no reason for me to do any of that unless u give me a reason to right? Oh well, better get ready for rest then... Good night/morning, depends on how you see it.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sometimes I Wonder What I'm Doing
Today was another day in school. Only thing special bout today was that i actually rushed around after school to interview people. Interview people about cross cultural relationships. Realised that when they had problems, it wasn't mainly cause of cultural differences, but of the usual problems that couples have, like just arguments over housework and other small stuff.
A relationship that is built on feelings won't last. Feelings will go up and down, and so the foundation won't be stable. Feelings are a good starter, and use it to get to know a person. They are valid part of a relationships, but relationships built on it are shaky. So proceed further then that if you want to last. Learned that from a interview earlier.
Looks like i should go back to video editing again... T.T
A relationship that is built on feelings won't last. Feelings will go up and down, and so the foundation won't be stable. Feelings are a good starter, and use it to get to know a person. They are valid part of a relationships, but relationships built on it are shaky. So proceed further then that if you want to last. Learned that from a interview earlier.
Looks like i should go back to video editing again... T.T
TIME FOR VIDEO MADNESS!!
Looks like my leisure and rest time will be drastically reduced tonight. Time to start video editing. FOR SPARTA!! Er... I mean for project... =x
Wish me all the best. See yah!
Wish me all the best. See yah!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
And All That's Left Is One
Long day today. Legs feel like jelly. Probably from all the running around today morning. Was a student leader in a trip to farms around. Thank God everything turned out fine. Now if only i can say the same about my life...
Straight after the trip, went down to church. Reached about 3, had my lunch before slacking while waiting for youth to start. And when it finally started, i was the only one from my CG to come... Chat with Pastor for a while before he had to go cause of a bad headache... So bad that he left his bible behind. =x
So that's about it for today. I'm wondering what u should do. Should i just proceed with my crazy plan or should i formulate another? And will the plan backfire? Possibilities? Chances? So many things to consider...
Oh well, i wonder if more consulting is needed... Pastor said too many opinions can mess up my thoughts... Hmm... Maybe it could...
Straight after the trip, went down to church. Reached about 3, had my lunch before slacking while waiting for youth to start. And when it finally started, i was the only one from my CG to come... Chat with Pastor for a while before he had to go cause of a bad headache... So bad that he left his bible behind. =x
So that's about it for today. I'm wondering what u should do. Should i just proceed with my crazy plan or should i formulate another? And will the plan backfire? Possibilities? Chances? So many things to consider...
Oh well, i wonder if more consulting is needed... Pastor said too many opinions can mess up my thoughts... Hmm... Maybe it could...
Friday, November 14, 2008
List of Questions
Still thinking of what to do. How to respond. What to expect. What to do. What am i expected to do. What i should do. Who should i ask. Where should i go. How to do it right. How to solve the problem. How to not be overwhelmed. What should i think. What am i expected to think. What should i do first. Where to find the answers to the list of questions i have.
Ah... Trying not to be controlled by the situation. Not to let it control my feelings. Hopefully everything ends up fine. Fine as in that things meant to be settled will be settled. Problems solved. No matter what the result is.
Ah... Need to rest... waking up early again tomorrow for event... See yah...
So what am i waiting for?
Ah... Trying not to be controlled by the situation. Not to let it control my feelings. Hopefully everything ends up fine. Fine as in that things meant to be settled will be settled. Problems solved. No matter what the result is.
Ah... Need to rest... waking up early again tomorrow for event... See yah...
So what am i waiting for?
Monday, November 10, 2008
Slow Fade
Here is a video i saw recently on a blog of a friend. Kind of good song. People never crumble in a day.
Here is the original video. Wanted to compare what's the difference.
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
-Casting Crowns
Saw this phrase somewhere: "Love is a choice, not a feeling." When to look up a little. Saw a interesting reply: "Love is a chosen feeling." So its both? Some stuff i found related to it: http://www.relationshipweb.com/archives/1996/contents/0067.htm
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080330114702AA5SWga
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/?qid=20080328110541AA5QJxY
Just some random stuff to digest on. Enjoy i guess. =x See yah around.
Here is the original video. Wanted to compare what's the difference.
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
-Casting Crowns
Saw this phrase somewhere: "Love is a choice, not a feeling." When to look up a little. Saw a interesting reply: "Love is a chosen feeling." So its both? Some stuff i found related to it: http://www.relationshipweb.com/archives/1996/contents/0067.htm
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080330114702AA5SWga
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/?qid=20080328110541AA5QJxY
Just some random stuff to digest on. Enjoy i guess. =x See yah around.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Possiblities
What do you see when you look into the future? Do you see a stable job? Do you see a partner? Do you see children? Do you see a family? Some of the stuff i was wondering about when i saw Jeanie's blog. Life doesn't always turn out the way we want it to, but its what we make out of it that counts. When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. And maybe add a little sugar too.
So what do i see when i look into the future? 1 year back i probably could only think of just getting a job that i would involve helping people, like a social worker or such. Now? I see myself with an engineering job before probably doing something else. And i see a family too. Kids running around. A capable wife. Probably came from a dream a long time back, about 4 months back i guess.
There was once in secondary school i dreamed that i was older and married. My wife in the dream told me she was pregnant, i was so taken aback by that statement i woke up immediately. Just frightened then i guess. If i ever get the same dream again, i don't think i will be so frightened already.
So are we frightened by the future? Scared of what the future holds if we take a certain path? Scared that if the future will end up horrible? Sad? These are only some possibilities. What if it ends up beautiful? Happy? We will never know unless we walk down the path. No matter what the future holds, i know all things will work out fine. It always does. Which will you regret more? Taking or not taking the path? Just some thoughts i was thinking about.
When you look towards the future, do you see obstacles? Do you see the bumps on the road? Ditches? No one said life was going be a smooth ride. Or are you going to always try to find a smoother road? And will that road lead you to same goal you wanted? Every obstacle you overcome brings you closer to your goal. Are you going to give up cause it gets too hard?
Looks like i just came up with something to try to motivate myself to keep going on. Thinking out loud. And the bible once said that God won't tempt us beyond what we can bear.
I'm contemplating not going to school tomorrow. Body is feeling weak for no reason today. Maybe cause today could have been a happy day, but its just a normal day. To see the potential of what things could be, but isn't.
I guess i should still pack my bag for tomorrow. See what happens. See yah.
Happy 4th months if we are still considered together.
So what do i see when i look into the future? 1 year back i probably could only think of just getting a job that i would involve helping people, like a social worker or such. Now? I see myself with an engineering job before probably doing something else. And i see a family too. Kids running around. A capable wife. Probably came from a dream a long time back, about 4 months back i guess.
There was once in secondary school i dreamed that i was older and married. My wife in the dream told me she was pregnant, i was so taken aback by that statement i woke up immediately. Just frightened then i guess. If i ever get the same dream again, i don't think i will be so frightened already.
So are we frightened by the future? Scared of what the future holds if we take a certain path? Scared that if the future will end up horrible? Sad? These are only some possibilities. What if it ends up beautiful? Happy? We will never know unless we walk down the path. No matter what the future holds, i know all things will work out fine. It always does. Which will you regret more? Taking or not taking the path? Just some thoughts i was thinking about.
When you look towards the future, do you see obstacles? Do you see the bumps on the road? Ditches? No one said life was going be a smooth ride. Or are you going to always try to find a smoother road? And will that road lead you to same goal you wanted? Every obstacle you overcome brings you closer to your goal. Are you going to give up cause it gets too hard?
Looks like i just came up with something to try to motivate myself to keep going on. Thinking out loud. And the bible once said that God won't tempt us beyond what we can bear.
I'm contemplating not going to school tomorrow. Body is feeling weak for no reason today. Maybe cause today could have been a happy day, but its just a normal day. To see the potential of what things could be, but isn't.
I guess i should still pack my bag for tomorrow. See what happens. See yah.
Happy 4th months if we are still considered together.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Sometimes it feels like the whole world is against me. Everyone talking behind my back. Probably just me being paranoid again.
Heard from people today that usually after waiting for 2 weeks, they give up already. And here i am, into my 4th week. I wonder if there is something wrong with me or am i just plain crazy?
I wonder why there are some things people don't tell me in my face when it would probably be better. Just say it and it it done with.
I wonder about my observation skills. My body is quite sensitive to changes to the environment, sometimes a little temperature drop can cause me to get a cold. I can 'feel' the people around me talking. I used to unknowingly listen, but now i tend to filter out surrounding conversations. My mind used to be able to be able to play back a scene i remember and analyze the sounds around me. Now, the ability is just a memory.
I think i'm working on a new blogskin for myself. And thats the interesting thing. I only think i am, so it probably will take some time to accomplish. =x
I think i'm more composed then when school started. Am able to control myself better. Still i na process of restoration. Leaving it all in God's hands.
Just came back from the doctor's. Going for a x-ray tomorrow to make sure that there is nothing wrong. Random chest pains are scary especially with a history of pneumothorax. Recurrance probably means operation i guess. And the last time a doc discribed it to me,"First cut you open, find the area, apply powder to stick lung to lung wall, then stitch it up again." At least it would mean there shouldn't be an recurrance after the operation...
I wonder what am i blogging about. Seems to be messes in my life. So my life is made up of messes? Or are those only part of my life? Hmm...
To reflect on the situation, that's what some told me. Currently, i'm powerless to do anything. Thus i'm leaving it in God's hands. Nothing much else i can do without messing it up further.
I have the weirdest mom on earth. One minute she can be condemning me for falling sick, next minute asks me to take care of myself. Maybw i got the mood swings from her.... =x
What left? I don't know, probably will find out soon.
Recently found out the difference between envy and jealousy. Envy involves 2 parties, which is one party envy the other for having something he/she doesn't have. Jealousy involves 3 parties, with one being jealous that one is giving another more attention. Everybody is bound to struggle with these stuff in their life.
I seem to be typing about anything under the sun at the moment. I wonder why my laptop needed charging since i didnt use it until now.
I wonder how bear is doing.
What is the meaning of love? Sacrifice? Is it just an emotion? What is it? Giving up your life for another? Showing care and concern? Expecting nothing back for everything done? What is it?
Recently heard a song on the radio. Quite interesting lyrics. 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's. "There's 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you, I love you... There's only 1 way, 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do, i love you..." Cute song i guess, have yet to be able to find it online yet... =x
Look like i won't be jogging for a while. My body is punishing me for eating mac yesterday. Ah... Oh well, looks like no fried stuff for a while...
I think that's enough random topics for today. Goign ot get some rest before waking early again tomorrow. See yah around.
Heard from people today that usually after waiting for 2 weeks, they give up already. And here i am, into my 4th week. I wonder if there is something wrong with me or am i just plain crazy?
I wonder why there are some things people don't tell me in my face when it would probably be better. Just say it and it it done with.
I wonder about my observation skills. My body is quite sensitive to changes to the environment, sometimes a little temperature drop can cause me to get a cold. I can 'feel' the people around me talking. I used to unknowingly listen, but now i tend to filter out surrounding conversations. My mind used to be able to be able to play back a scene i remember and analyze the sounds around me. Now, the ability is just a memory.
I think i'm working on a new blogskin for myself. And thats the interesting thing. I only think i am, so it probably will take some time to accomplish. =x
I think i'm more composed then when school started. Am able to control myself better. Still i na process of restoration. Leaving it all in God's hands.
Just came back from the doctor's. Going for a x-ray tomorrow to make sure that there is nothing wrong. Random chest pains are scary especially with a history of pneumothorax. Recurrance probably means operation i guess. And the last time a doc discribed it to me,"First cut you open, find the area, apply powder to stick lung to lung wall, then stitch it up again." At least it would mean there shouldn't be an recurrance after the operation...
I wonder what am i blogging about. Seems to be messes in my life. So my life is made up of messes? Or are those only part of my life? Hmm...
To reflect on the situation, that's what some told me. Currently, i'm powerless to do anything. Thus i'm leaving it in God's hands. Nothing much else i can do without messing it up further.
I have the weirdest mom on earth. One minute she can be condemning me for falling sick, next minute asks me to take care of myself. Maybw i got the mood swings from her.... =x
What left? I don't know, probably will find out soon.
Recently found out the difference between envy and jealousy. Envy involves 2 parties, which is one party envy the other for having something he/she doesn't have. Jealousy involves 3 parties, with one being jealous that one is giving another more attention. Everybody is bound to struggle with these stuff in their life.
I seem to be typing about anything under the sun at the moment. I wonder why my laptop needed charging since i didnt use it until now.
I wonder how bear is doing.
What is the meaning of love? Sacrifice? Is it just an emotion? What is it? Giving up your life for another? Showing care and concern? Expecting nothing back for everything done? What is it?
Recently heard a song on the radio. Quite interesting lyrics. 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's. "There's 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you, I love you... There's only 1 way, 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do, i love you..." Cute song i guess, have yet to be able to find it online yet... =x
Look like i won't be jogging for a while. My body is punishing me for eating mac yesterday. Ah... Oh well, looks like no fried stuff for a while...
I think that's enough random topics for today. Goign ot get some rest before waking early again tomorrow. See yah around.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Memory Lane
Dad got back from the hospital today. Everything seems fine. Played Ultimate Frisbee today. Shoe got covered in so much mud i that i have to wash it, and go home with soggy shoes. Got home, got scolded for being dirty. But what's the use of going there if i don't play the game anyway?=x
Was walking along memory lane. Thought about when i first came to poly. The first thing for me was to just come here, study hard and show those who doubted me for choosing to come to a poly. Love was the very last thing on my mind. One of those push factors for me to get out of NYJC was that seeing someone was abit weird for me. I couldn't study properly with her there.
When i entered poly, i was thinking that i wouldn't tie myself down in anyway. And look at me now. I guess life is funny this way. Some things come when you least expect it. Never thought that meeting her would change my life so much. Thats the irony of life for you. And i was happy. Just glad that things actually ended up this way.
Ha... Just looking and back and reflecting i guess. To see how interesting life have been so far. Memories which i will treasure. Paths i have taken.
Should be getting some rest soon, had a tiring day. See yah. And try to live life without regrets.
Was walking along memory lane. Thought about when i first came to poly. The first thing for me was to just come here, study hard and show those who doubted me for choosing to come to a poly. Love was the very last thing on my mind. One of those push factors for me to get out of NYJC was that seeing someone was abit weird for me. I couldn't study properly with her there.
When i entered poly, i was thinking that i wouldn't tie myself down in anyway. And look at me now. I guess life is funny this way. Some things come when you least expect it. Never thought that meeting her would change my life so much. Thats the irony of life for you. And i was happy. Just glad that things actually ended up this way.
Ha... Just looking and back and reflecting i guess. To see how interesting life have been so far. Memories which i will treasure. Paths i have taken.
Should be getting some rest soon, had a tiring day. See yah. And try to live life without regrets.
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