Migration of Systems...

Hey people, i miss everyone in Peicai and Thailand... JC life is starting to get... erm... more stressful... Like the princiapl asid of easing us in... Guess the easing in period is over. Time to get myself motivated enough to study.

Didn't blog much the past few days cause there was nothing much to blog about... What can i blog about anyway?? That everyday was boring?? About how emo i can get?? About how i fidn some people irritating for no particular reason even though i don't know them?? Or maybe about how much my life sucks now??

Oh yah, last Sunday my laptop arrived. I was suppsoed to migrate over to the laptop from my desktop PC, but i couldn't bear to let go of my PC yet... Come on, the system is still very new, less then a month and i have to let go of it... And it already contains so many of my anime episodes...

I am currently watching a new anime by the name of "Vandread". Basic story line? Man and women went their seperate ways and colonised on different planets. Then this young boy by the name of Hibiki happens to get caught in a pirate ship... OF WOMEN. Over time, he and 2 other captured men became part of this crew of women... For more info, GO WATCH YOURSELF!!! XP

ARGH... Enough for now... See yah people around!!

I can't help looking back, I can't help it...

What About Me??

Somtimes i wonder if some things are worth all the trouble... Guess sometiems i may try my best to keep things as peacful as possible and try to be as tolerant as possible, but i guess some people can't really see that... It gets tiring when no one actually really understands me. No one can really say they understand me anyway, all this thoughts and feelings are mine and mine alone to experience.

Ok... Today went out for dinner with my OG at Pizza Hut at Plaza Singapura. I guess i was the only one rushing for tiem as i was given a time to be home. But thank God i managed to get my mom to extend the time for me to get home, or else i would have not have eaten at all... But i was wondering, why was it that other teens could go home so much more later than me?? Or was it my OG mates couldn't really unbderstand that i needed to go home eariler then them because of my responsibilities at home? They were so relaxed when they moved... Unlike me who was rushing so i could get home on time...

I guess other teens are different from me... I have to be the nice kid who gets home not too late and be able to do all the housework... Some say i can make the perfect husband, but who cares about that now? I can't even be bothered about it...

Oh yah... And when i wasn't home, i heard my mom went ballistic on my siblings again when my dada was asleep... Look like i am needed at home too... Guess i am needed almost everywhere... At home to be peace-maker... To be a listening ear to some of my friends... To help people to speak up... To instill confidence in others... Then so many things i want to do like going out with friends and traking time off for CCA... But guess there will always be soem people against my choices...

Sometimes i wonder if there was someone out there who will be the one to help shoulder all this burden... Will there be someone that can instill ocnfidence in me when i lack it?? Will there be someone who is actually really to just sit down and hear me grumble?? Cause i know taht a conversion can be kept going by not talking about yourself but the other party, and probably most of the stuff said about yourself will probably be forgotten by the other party... Don't say it's not true, cause i am like that some times too... We humans are naturally selfish people... We care more about ourselves then others...

I wondered if any of my OG-mates could see iwas a little agitated today... Casue i was rushing and they were taking their own sweet time to move... If they see this... Oh well, now you know... Try thinking for those who are different from you next time ok?? Life ain't the same for everyone... Not everyone got a pair of parents that are willing to let go of their kids...

Oh well... I know God is there for me to carry me through... Guess i need to have a little more faith in him...

Enough of me... Like i said how many really cares more about others then themselves?? If you can say you are such a person, good for you... Cause that is what i hope i am...

And I hurt the finger i hurt playing basketball around 1 year ago the same way... Now it is back to the state where i can't bend it...

Look through my eyes... See all the pain... Feel all the hurt and loss ... Then maybe you can say you know me...

*YAWN* I Need My Rest...

Today was... Tiring... Whole day in school... Then after that Dragon Boat Training which almost killed me... Then after that i went back to church for a thanksgiving session for the Thailand Mission Trip, which lasted all the way to 10pm and got my mom so worked up with me coming home so late... And she is still suprised that my lessons end around 5pm tomorrow...

Hey, she was the one who wanted me to go JC, and she didn't know how long it lasted? And a senior said there will be days where i would come home at 10pm... Man... I hope i would get at least get an extension on the curfew... I can't alwasy abandon everybody liek that all the time...

AHH!! I am the only one awake in my family now... Have to go do teh laundry alone cause i came home late... Oh well... See yah around!!

Lord... You are more than enough for me...

Breaking The Limit

Guess the CCAs i joined. Petanque and dragon boat. Maybe i will drop out of one of them, mayebe i will be leavign the school, maybe i can't be bothered by it at all now. Just trying out to see how it will go.

Tomorow got another dragon boat training. I took quite some time to consider going, cause i know it may not go that well with my parents, or at least the female half... I was openly discussing it with my dad and she didn't say anything... Then in teh end i decided to go tomorrow she shows me that black face but says nothing... Silence means consent right?? My dad allowed me to go, probably after i discussed that no matter what CCA i joined, i still needed a certain level of commitment. SO in the end he allowed, whiel my mom was like still giving me the black face, and also throwing a tantrum... Imagine this, my mom sayign she won't cook tomorrow cause so little peopel eating when the truth is that she is unhappy... And i am jsut stating facts, nothing more, nothing less. How are you going to interprete it is up to you...

Now my mood is spoiled. Tomorrow is going to be another tiring day... With training in the morning then having the edusave scholarship award presentation in the afternoon... Now with my mom spreading her unhappiness all around... Man... What a nice time to be at home...

My mom always asked why i can't solve the probelm with my brother being so different from me and my sis while i can help so many people outside. Guess there was once i was so sick of that question i just told her off that it is becasue i listen to what people say, unlike what she usually do. Sharp?? When i don't think she even knows what her son actually wants for his birthday?? When she doesn't know what the family needs her to do? When she can't be bothered to change her attitude for the benefit of the family?? You be the judge.

Enough of the emo stuff for today. See yah next time.

Options... So many options but not a single choice...

Erm... Where's The Dragon Boat??

Hey people, remember to look at the photos at the previous post yeah?

Just back from Dragon Boat training. It was SHIOK MAN!! Shiok in the sense that i suffered alot... XD I realised just how weak i was. I can't even do a single pull-up properly without support... Man, i am going to start training so i am being a fitter man... but yo can't really blame me for being so un-fit... Remember my lung probem?? I am still recovering for it... Any over-strenous activities will result in a slight pain in the chest... But I can only recover properly if i start training my stamina... But my only fear is recurrence... Man...

Oh well, all i can actually do now is just push myself. I plan to take my Napfa test this year. It wasn't actually nice to not have a Napfa report in my report book for my last year in Secondary school... especially when i have been getting gold and silvers in my Napfa for the rest of my years in secondary school...

Man... Tomorrow going to have PE in the morning... And after todays training, i am sure my muscles will ache alot tomorrow... God help me survive the next day... And tomorrow also have Chinese lesson some more... ARGH!!! *Sings* Somebody Save me... *Sings*

Oh well, enough updates for now... See yah next time!!

I ain't letting the past interfere with my future... That is if i can let go of it...

PHOTOS TIME!!

Leaving the airport!!
GUYS ROCKS!!
Erm... girls... erm... rocks too?? XD
BUDGET TERMINAL!!
NIGHT SHOT!!
HEY PEEPS!!
In front of a rice field
The big girl tried to get the small girl to kick me in the you-know-where... BUT THEY FAILED!! XP
GLORIOUS FOOD!! XD
The kid hanging from me was hyper man... Tim and Reuel next to me...
Group photo outside Inburi church. The kid sitting on the girl's lap was teh one who hit me 4 time you-know-where...
OUT CAROLLING!!
shot with Inburi High
Outside Thanprapom Church
At a village that takes care of the rice fields. The rest of the people are working at the fields when we were there...
We love eating, don't we??
GROUP SHOT!!!
At the Singburi Fish Festival
I LOVE DINNER!!! XD
Hey, i walked that little girl home that night... 1st time she was trying to kill me... Then forced me to carry her... then i have to walk her home... can't help it man... she is to cute... XD
GROUP SHOT AGAIN!!
Next to our mode of transport, the lorry-bus-hybrid of some sort...
Another group shot!!
I also do housework ok...
Cards anyone?
Final photo before leaving where we were staying
The pastor with his family
At the airport in Thailand
As Lilin would say, Cam-whores?? XD
The Bunnies are cool ok... Mine was called Kay. XD
Back to the budget terminal: INVASION OF THE BUNNIES!!
That should be enough photos to last a while... See yah around!!

Past & Present

Hmm... Life can only be described as interesting... (Ok, i shall warn you people first, this may end up an emo post... erm... also maybe not... XD) When i was in Thailand, i never really missed anything or anyone in Singapore. Now maybe i know the reason why...

Why?? I ain't particularly attached to anything. Even though i used to use the computer everyday, it ain't really a big part of my life, it was just a distraction to pass time. Not that i am saying that my friends are distraction but i now that life still goes on. Another reason probably was also (religious so heck care if you don't want to care...) i felt closer to God. It was like everything we did then, we were all being taken care of by someone above, maybe except for the part when i got hit in the crouch 4 times... but anyway, i tried not to be attached to Thailand or anything there as i knew it would make it hard for me to leave, but i guess i can't help it but get attached to the food, the kids and people. I couldn't help it, the kids just attached themselves to me... No matter how hard i try to hide, they will find me... Ha... XD

Man... now considering what CCA to join in Nanyang... Any suggestions?? My OGL is advertisting for Dragon Boat as he is in it... I am thinking about Petanque too... But i guess my number one fear is my health. Will Dragon Boat be too strenous for me?? But will Pentanque be too less physical for me?? I used to be in Basketball but i don't think i will join that CCA as i guess my experience of Basketball CCA in Peicai from Sec2 onwards when the new coach came in wasn't a good one... And i ain't excaltly that good at it anyway, probably rusty from not playing properly for so long... But i need a challenge... Cause basketball was challenging and i like to challenge myself... My dad was like telling me to not get a too exhausting CCA, but that would mean there won't be a challenge... Oh well, i have to make a decision for myself already anyway...

Ah well... I think i shall end here... And i guess the involvement of someone else probably also complicated up my CCA choices again... Look like i have to really decide more carefully now... Or it may send out the wrong message to someone anyway... Oh well, ending here now, see yah around!!

I guess you never really left my mind...

NANYANG NANYANG ALL THE WAY!!!

Woah... finally have tiem to post again... I was busy the pass few days ok... 3rd January was orientation day and it was tiring so i decided not to post... 4th was orientation with half the day spent at Sentosa... Then today the 5th was the longest up to 9pm+ because of... (Insert drum-roll) Disco Night!!! FRIDAY NIGHT FEVER MAN!!! XD

Let's start from the beginning... on the 3rd, the whole J1 level was split into 36 groups of around 25. Ok, i stated off liek how i would start off, an anti-social guy. But ok... I mixed around a bit... Unknowning suan people because i either mix up their names or don't know their names...We played some games and learned a dance... Then the second day was when things started to fall into place. The group got closer together through out the day. We started off with games in the school before we went to Sentosa in the afternoon. I guessed wearing the same T-shirt that day kinds of removes any sense of being an alien.

Then today, the third day, we also had the usual games and mass dancing. But the highlight of teh day was the... (Drum-roll) DISCO NIGHT!!! At least i partied better then when i was at prom night last year... Ha... Don't know why but it was fun anyway...

Through out the pass few days i also met a few of my ex-classmates, from both primary and secondary school. There were more from my primary school anyway... But we never really talked much anyway, and all of us were in different groups... except for the exception of a 1 from primary and 1 from secondary from my group...

I seems to be using more of the 3 dots now a days... Maybe because i like to leave things hanging in mid air, cause i dont like to end them. Ending things are never nice, especially if it is the ending of a nice story or something... Ha...

That should be enoguh to pass time for a while... maybe i will update again tomorrow, but until then, see yah around!!


Maybe the songs touched me, maybe it didn't... But in the end, you will never know...