Let The Rain Wash It All Away...

WOW... The rain was very heavy today. Glad i was home before it started raining cats and dogs. Don't know why but i felt better after the rain today. Maybe i should ahve just went out into the rain and just dance around...*thinks*... or maybe not.

Rain, Rain, Come Again...
Wash Away This Unhappiness...

Guess it works. Next time i am down, i shall pray for a downfall of immense proportion such that i will be happy even thought the whole of Singapore is flooded... *thinks*... or maybe not. That will be very selfish of me... Wait. If Singapore was flooded, there would be no school right? Okay!!! Next timemust rain until Singapore flooded... no school then can sleep at home... MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!

What do you peopel think of this pic? I found it on the web and decided it will be my blog next theme!!! "I Can Make You Smile, And You Know it" And i am going to rip a joke off my friend's site. http://beinghappies.blogspot.com/ Click on the "My Memories" Section for a list of jokes. A note of warning thought: THAY ARE ALL LAME. If that didn't deter you, I am going to share one here:
A hungry African lion came across two men. One was sitting under a tree and reading a book; the other was typing away on his typewriter. The lion pounced on the man reading the book and devoured him. Even the king of the jungle knows that readers digest and writers cramp.

Need another to make my point? Here then:
Mahatma Gandhi was a peculiar person. He walked barefoot everywhere, to the point that his feet became quite thick and hard. He often went on hunger strikes, and even when he wasn't on a hunger strike, he did not eat much and became quite thin and frail. He also was a very spiritual person. Finally, because he didn't eat much and when he did his diet was peculiar, he developed very bad breath. He became known as a super-calloused fragile mystic hexed by halitosis.

Get the point? If I didn't deter you and you want some joke no matter how LAME they are, Click on the link somewhere above.

That's all for today, so till next time, KEEP SMILING!!!. Or i shall apply the action in the picture... HEHEHE...

The Sound Of Tears...

Was hearing the radio. To a chinese programme called ying yue ri ji. The first part of the show was where people write in letters to share their life experiences. Today's was someone, a she i think, sharing bout her experience in a relationship. They started off as very good friends. Then, they ended up as boyfriend and girlfriend. This was the part i started laughing quietly. Not at them but just at myself. I knew that it wasn't going to work out or else this story won't sound so sad. And i was right. Spot on. They broke up cause the guy had some sort of health problem. (Now i feel uncomfortable...) But in the end, The girl found the guy's blog and found out he broke up with her cause he never forgot bout another girl. The girl and the guy still remain good friends thought.

Why are most of the stories here about girls being on the losing end??? We guys lose just as much and maybe more too. Why does it always ends up the girl getting nost of the attention? They are more sensitive? Okay... Maybe it is also we guys don't like to express ourselves... But i am sure we also also deserve some attention...

Okay... Swee Hao's blog is back again. Or it was never off to begin with. He just changed the URL and now change back again. So till next time, keep smiling and saty happy. SEE YAH AROUND!!!

Listen To The Music...

They say the music you listen to shows how you feel. I fell like listen to a this song now:
Walking Away (Craig David)

I'm walking away,
from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better dayI'm walking away

Sometimes some people get me wrong
When it's something
I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise
Some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes
Spreading those lies, and
Well, I don't wanna live my life,
too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say, lady

I'm walking away,
from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired, baby
Things you say,
you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room, baby
Don't listen to the games they play
Girl, I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise, and
Well, I don't wanna live my life,
too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights,
I'm sorry to say, lady

I'm walking away (now I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (from the troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) (I'm walking away)
Oh, to find a better day

I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
(I've tried to solve you, baby)
I'm walking away
(oh, yeah) (oh, yeah)
Oh, to find a better day
(Oh, I'm gon, I'm gonna find a better day)
I'm walking away (oh, yeah)
From the troubles in my life
(From the troubles in my life, baby)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh,
to find a better day
I'm walking away

Or This Song:
Far Away (Nickelback)

This time,
This place
Misused,
Mistakes
Too long,
Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees,
I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed I need to hear you say
That I love you I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing,
'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

HA... Guess you can say i am feeling low now. What's the reason? I' m not sure. I just want to just walk away from everything. Far, far away. See the relation to the songs now? HA... Lauging at myself again... Is that a good or bad sign? Swee Hao's blog is down. Most likely cause he wants to comcentrate on his "O" Levels this year. I am not going to shut down this blog. This place helps me to destress.Straight after school went to the hospital for my checkup. Doctor couldn't explain why the pain happened. "Probably muscular" he said. Meaning: Muscules acting up. OH... SO THAT'S WHY...The painkillers never really worked anyway... so why am i taking them? Probably the illusion that the pain will go away. But it never does. It just comes at the wrong times. Lousey pain in the chest... wish it was just an heart ache but no... it is a lung problem... An heart ache will be so much more easier to handle... althought no painkiller can solve it, it is easier to tune out. Come on, this statement comes with experience, althought i will not like to elaborate. Just take it that i say i have been tuning out a lot of pain all the time. What kind of pain? Up to your imagination...

Got Yong Kang a birthday present yesterday cause today his birthday. He looked touched, like he didn't thought i would take what i said yesterday (that i would get him a present) seriously. Guess what? There is a condition attached to that manga i got him: he have to get me a present. MUAHAHAHA... I am evil... Remember!!! My birthday is on 1st June!!!!

That's all for today... just remember my birthday and get me a present. If you don't want to, just help me oraganise a get together on my birthday and go out and watch a movie or something. I am always most bored on that day. So till next time, stay happy. A reason to? Cause you are not going through what i am going through now, all the lousy crappiness of life...

Back on The Painkillers...

Read the title and go figue. I went back to the hospital again yesterday night beacuse the strain on my chest seemed to have gotten worst. And they found nothing wrong in the end so i got painkillers to help with the pain and my appointment at the specialist got pushed forward to next week. And the appointment is after school so i won't miss any lessons. Came back from hospital after 10pm and till continued wit hhome work... But in the end i shut everything down half an hour later and just went yo bed. couldmn't handle the load on my eyes. They were going to close anyway, why not do it sooner?

The johari window thingey from the earlier post? I found someone by the name "mE...". I wonder who is it... I didn't realise it was someone i don't know until now... even thought that person was one of teh first few to do the survey for me. I actually thought it was me but it wasn't... Man am i blind...

Should i just continue being what i am trying to become, which is someone more happier and carefree, or become back to the old me, the seemingly boring and monotonous me? I am not sure... but being the happier seems to be doing wonders for me at the moment. But being the old me seems much more real to me. But the old me is alone most of the time. It is not good for me to be alone too. Especially with my health at this condition. But if i become close to anyone now i know i will become a burden to them. Don't ask me where i get this kind of thinking from cause i am gouing to tell you now : HOME. The one place where one is supposed to feel the safest is where i am most stressed. Did i mention my bro stole $20 from me yesterday? Had to confront him to get the $$ back. And what kind of excuse did he give? "Tomorrow got some fun fair thingey in school and mommy and papa give me very little $$ and i know they won't give me any more $$..." WHAT KIND OF LOUSEY EXCUSE IS THAT? DOES NOT BEING ABLE TO GET $$ FROM PARENTS MEAN STEALING?!?!?! Okay... i will calm down... But think about it... a P6 kid stealing his bro hard saved $$... P6 FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!! If he wants respect and trust, he has to earn it.

Now... where was i? Oh... Try coming home everyday to where i have to do housework and often goes un-noticed. I do it willing, and probably a better job than any of my siblings at the moment. And no one in the house can meet my speed at doing them, even with me at this condition, chest pain and all. It gets tiring doing it day after day while seeing my little bro and sis get rewarded for their work while me getting nothing at all. And on top of that, my mom only knows how to complain. So if something is not done well, i get a verbal whipping. And everytime anyone in my family gets a verbal whipping from her, the rest of the household get affected... More worst than Jeanie on her worst day. The comparision is just so you people will be able to understand and no offence to Jeanie. REALLY! NO OFFENCE! I DON"T WANT TO DIE IN YOUR HANDS SO EARLY! I AM STILL YOUNG!!!

One good thing about the pass few days. I ahve been tuning myself out of thinking when i go to bed and has been able to sleep more easily!!! YEAH!!!

That's all the thoughts i am able to put down to words at the moment. The rest are going to have to wait till they are able to be expressed as words. So till next time, stay happy!!! And please remind me not not laugh too hard cause it will put too much strain on my lungs and remember to visit me if i end up in the hospital, if that is. (TOUCH WOOD)

I Won't Worry My Life Away

Before reading today's post, for those who haven't click this, click here : http://kevan.org/johari?name=KFZE

I am first going to introduce a song to u people. And the post will come along with it. It is by jason Mraz, The Remedy... Till searching for it... Only managed to get a version of it that a radio station recorded when he visited it, althought it is quite good. I won't use any file sharer due the amount of spyware involved. HA... another reason is that i don't want the government sending me letters bcause of me downloading too much music...

The Remedy

I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
'Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
If you've got the poison I've got the remedy

I WANT THE REMEDY!!! I NEED HELP!!!

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.

In remedy is dangerous? I till want it. You seem happier with it anyway. Hope it is not some kind of drug... XD

I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy

I have the poison... I need the remedy!!! Just pass it to me!!! I want to be happy!!!

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.

Like i am going to say, I don't care if it is dangerous... You seem happier with it anyway...

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Take my time? okie... No need to hurry? Looks like i also need patience.

Because
The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't and I won't and I won't

Guess that's the end of it. The moral of the song? STOP WORRYING!!!! STAY HAPPY!!! You still don't get it? Tell that to me next tme you see me and i will see what i can do... But till then, keep smiling!!!

Visit SGH = PAIN IN THE @$$(pratically)

Went to the hospital today for the check up on my piles today. Doc asked me if i felt okay. And I said i was, excpet for pains in teh ass everynow and then. wanted to release me until my mom decide to ask him to check. And the same thing happened again... stuck something up my ass and checked. Then he pulled it out again. It hurts. Alot. Then in the end, he concludes that i have a fissure(Layman terms: tear) in there. It is causing the pain and bleeding. But i didn't bleed until you doctors decided to check it!!! Or it stopped bleeding already... until the doctor decided on the doing the examination...

ARGH!!! Today was very boring... I MISS SCHOOL!!!! Looks like i am going crazy already... but cannot blame me... i missed so many lessons already, must get back on track. This year "O" level leh... don't work hard can die one... ARGH!!! Time to get back to work...

That's all i have for today. So till next time, keep smiling cause you don't have to go through the pain i am going through now.(update on my lungs: I still get pains now and then but they feel minor at least...) And don't let anything erase that smile off your face cause no one got the right to do that.

Check Out so far how is it like:

Arena (known to self and others) introverted, self-conscious, sentimental	Blind Spot (known only to others) accepting, clever, complex, dependable, friendly, modest, nervous, quiet, religious, shy, silly, tense, trustworthy
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Dominant Traits

66% of people think that KFZE is clever
66% of people think that KFZE is dependable

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Interesting Things On Personality...

Nat is doing this, Delia is doing this, now is my turn!!!

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Just Click on the link and answer the question. And Sorry for copying anybody but i find it interesting to find out what others thing of me. Cheers!

NEW SKIN!!!!

Nice skin, no? Cause if you say not nice i got all the right to beat you up XD. Okay, back to business... Wait a minute, there is no business for me to settle now... Just comment on the new skin if you people might. Found the picture on google.(image search for shadow) Looks like i am getting worst, ripping picture off google too... hahaha... Come on, i am not as Minda when it comes to art or photography. I have to resort to other "means" to get my skins done.

That's all for now. The prevous post was just me letting off some steam. Hope it didn't offend anybody besides me. :-P That's all for today folks... So till next time, keep smiling and be happy cause you may never get as bad a mental conditon as me.

A Letter To Myself (Don't read this unless you really want to see the ugle side of me)

Hey Kelvin,

How are you nerd? Why am i calling you a nerd? Everybody calls you that. Sure you know alot like Kah Leong, but he is the genius, so i guess you get the title of nerd. Oh, you argue that you also know about other things besides studies, but guess the name just stuck with the way you look.

Man are you such an anti-social. You saw Joan and Sammi in the MRT station yesterday but why didn't you went to say hello? A simple hi was all that was needed. Nothing more. Nothing less. You can say you got friends, but how easily do you make friends? How easily to mix around with people. Sure, you want to be with people. But most of the time, you know it, you prefer to be alone. You wish for more friends but you are just scared of people. Your upbringing? I don't know.

You are an idiot at times. For example: You can't even figure out why Nat is not happy with you. You can't even figure out what is the problem with youself at times. When it is time to speak out, you shut up. And when time to shut up, you speak out. And you speak very roughly too. Such that your mom can't understand you.

You feel unappreciated. Everything good you have done, has rarely been noticed by others. And whenever you do somethign bad, your world comes crumbling down thanks to conscience being too strong. I gues it is just not in your nature to actually scold someone, not in your nature to do anything bad thanks to your upbringing. You get jealous easily evertime your brother do something good and get rewarded, even thought it happens rarely. You can complain all you want to your mom about the biasness, but so far, i don't think she got the message.

You are a coward. Can't even admit to a girl properly that you like her. And you end up with sleepless nights over it and many other not important things liek if you could have done something about the events of the day.

One more thing. You are super paranoid. You think too much. Peopel coming up with one possibility means you coming up with tens. A simple reason for why something happened could become a complex question. Sure this helps with your maths, but doesn't help with your life much. It only makes your life more difficult to live.

Thats probably all i have to say to you for today. I hope the next time i write to you, this problems will be addressed and solved. And stop thinking so much.

Kelvin

Warning In Advance

I feel like writing a long and disturbing post but i have decided to postpone it to tomorrow to let it settle down for a while. A clue to what i may be writing bout tomorrow : A Letter To Myself.

See you people around!

Lousy Answers In My Face...

What a day... Got study in the morning... Amazing we did work instaed of chatting away and wasting our time... haha... am i laughing? Guess i am.

After that, went back home for a quick change of bags before heading back out again. This time, AMK. Same thing again, for the card game. Someone wanted to play with me although i didn't want to play as my deck was in shambles. But from the look on his face, he was really desperate so i agreed. And i got trashed in 3 turns and he never approached me to play with me for the rest of the day.(Must be the horrible experience playing with me. XD)

On the way back from my trip, while i wasn't thinking at all, a thought just came to my mind that made most of my life make sense. Why would such a simple statement just come to my mind when all the while i have been trying to figure what was missing in my life and failed to do so? The statement is both conforting and hurting at the same time, but life makes more sense after i realised what it meant. It was right in front of me but i didn't know... thank God at least he told me the answer finally. "It is just not meant to be" Whatever happened in my life, or more for whatever didn't happen, it just wasn't meant to be... Why did i waste so much time just trying to find the reason when the reason is not important, butit was just "meant to be"? HAH... Is this the answer to life? No... But it helps my life make more sense with my life getting more confusing with those twist and turns.

Well, that's all the thigns i have to say for today. Help me remember this day. This is the day when i find myself most lifted of troubles, for teh moment that is... better stop here, my mom is gettin a little irritating walking around me all the time when i don't want anyone at home to read this at the moment. I am okay with my dad but not my mom... she gets carried away sometimes...

So till next time, stay happy. Am i happy? I am not sure. But that ain't going to stop me from trying, so don't let anything stop you from reaching your goals, unless they are evil ones of course...

Get Me A Gun

Get me a gun... What am i talking? Just feel like crapping... ARGH!!!

The previous entry was on the day when i felt very bad but something good happened later. Bad because i was going for a competition with Nat and we were not on very good terms at teh moment... Don'y know why but he just want to ignore me. Don't really wants to tell me the reason. Just tells me that i know the reason why. Wish i really do thought...

What good thing happened? I ended up messaging with an old friend (important in my past, thought now everyone is also important) because i thought i heard her on the radio. Only problem was that i have decided to not get into any relationships or try to get into one since i have never beem in 1 before... I am laughin at myself now... do i even know what i am typing?? Wish i do...

DEPRESSED? I don't know. I am always feeling this way. DISTURBING? I don't think so even thought i also think so too at times... Perhaps i think too much. But i DO think too much... I want to run away from this life sometimes... And why did i just type that? Don't know... Get me a gun... I kept thinking of this phrase recently... probably the obessons of a future murderer? Like Kah Leong said, people with joint eye brows usually end up as murderers... Hmm... Probably plotting how to kill peopel now too... who knows? But next time got murder case don't look at me hor... My plan will probably take effect when i am finacially stable... MUAHAHAHAHA... Look out for in the future papers...

That's enough lameness for today. Be happy i lighten up at the end of the entry even thought it may not excatly be good thought... So till next time, don't let others wipe that smile off your face. And better listen to it or you will cause all the effort of me going through this cheesey-ness everytime i type the ending going to waste.

What is the Best Title for Today?

Hmmm... Is life bad for me? I don't think so. Some times life gets very ironic. This always applies to me: For something good(Can be very good or only so good) to happen some thing something bad (can be very bad as most of the time this is the case....) must happen. And the bad is mostly very bad things... But does the bad things cause the good things? It never does interestingly... Then why does the bad things always comes afetr the good or vice versa??? Nither affect the other but both comes one after another... Call this depressing, ShuWen? It is just plain me trying to make sense of my life, no matter how strange it is.


Will i share bout the good and bad things? No... It will just distract me from my goals... Have to get pass my "O" Levels with good results... cannot let this kind of things bring me down... Why does the good things always comes when one is not supposed to have them?? Man... life is full of and difficult confusing choices...

Signing off here now. So till next time, keep smiling :D, cause i don't think your life could be as bad as mine with the way i am feeling now. If you feel depressed after reading this entry, think of something happy, like i am trying to do now, cause that is the best way to get yourself to smile.

I Am Feeling Evil...

Feeling evil i am? I think so. Wish i was to some times, then i would do things no one else will do. I got all this theories of how to do bad things in my head but the only thing stopping me from doing it is my moral. I can think of ways to cheat people and still eb able to get away with it but i never did.(Honest!! If you not sure, i don't know how to tell you cause you may not believe me as i may have gotten away with it anyway... :P)

Today was sports day in my school. This is my last year in the school and i couldn't run in any of the events... CRAP... This recovery thing is taking its toll on me... I just wanna got run around, play basketball and run around some more. Will i recover in time for the school cross country?? Hope i do and will be able to compete well in it. (given i have enough time to train myself for it that is...)

I would like to share a song i finally remember to find after so many months. It is Gravity by Embrace. Try it out. To me it is nice to listern to. (And i hope you people won't find it to depressing thought...) It is not really depressing but just nice to the ear.(or my ear that is :P).

So till next time, keep that smile on your face or i will... nevermind... And please leave a tag if you read this. I need help to keep my tagboard alive...

Down But Never Out ( I Hope...)

I am feeling down the pass few days... don't know why or how or what. All i know is that i just feel so horrible sometimes that i wish i could just sleep. Tired? Think i am. But tired of what? Life? Studies? Health? Heart? I could just be in a daze in class and still be able to answer the questons of the teacher. This frightens me as i am not actually really listerning to the lesson. (don't tell my parents about this...) I just wish i could just sleep for a week continously with out anyone calling me up, messing up my life and pushing me around.

I can't really concentrate on maths now. All i know now is just this sense of blurness. Any of you aspiring psycologist or shrinks want to take my mind apart? I don't think i am in the mood to bother anyway. Many people probably see me as the same everyday, cause everyday i put on this mask of what you people think i am. And ShuWen, this depressing style is my style. I won't be changing style so soon.(maybe never :P)

My wireless adaptor broke dwn yesterday. And now is is back to normal again. Over used? I don't know. But i hope this doesn't happen again as my dad lost the receipt and i cannot go for an exchange...

I need to sleep more and eat more. Guess why. I lost 0.7kg over 2 months. Oh that is little. What about for someone intending to gain more weight as if he becomes any lighter he will end up as underweight and to him that is as bad as being overweight? Crap. I am jumbling up my mind. Somebody save me...(come on and sing along to the sng by remy zero)

Sorry bout the lameness again. Guess i just help myself. Now i better conclude and get to bed before i lose anymore of my sanity. So till next time, keep smiling, cause the only one allowed to be sad is ME. Get it? ME! And Swee Hao, my sis found the sound you wanted, finally...