I wanted to type something but i forgot what... Must be cause of 2 late nights... And my dad was like asking me this morning if i am on 24 hour shifts... My reply was simple,"It's 16 hour shift i'm working on..." XD

Thank God for holidays... Or i probably would be in the same daze i was in while in school today. Seeing stars already anyway... @.@

Guess i better go sleep soon... hopefully won't be woken up early tomorrow... See yah!

Reminders

Just came back a while ago from school. LM was ok today, being the first one of the new study year with the freshmen coming in. Was reminded of something today thanks to the video that had a small portion that was what i told someone. Was reminded of why i should find my joy in God alone. Cause God will always be there, no matter the situation or circumstances. When it seems like there's nothing left, He'll be there and it will always be more than enough. (:

Should be transferring over to my new ez-link card soon. Too busy to go change anything now. Hopefully it'll be done by Sunday.

Ok, i'm tired... 2nd day that i will be sleeing after midnight and waking up early again... Better go pack that thermometer and this laptop before sleep. See yah.

When No One Notices Me

Is when a part not meant to be seen of me appears. (:

I should be doing my assignment now, but just felt like blog before i can get my mood to do something.

It seems like i'm getting quite good at hiding the emo part of me in happiness. Yeah. Was kind of successful during the first week already since no one noticed anything weird. Probably all the hyper-ness and workload keeping me from becoming "crazy-emo-Kelvin". Not that i'm not enjoying being happy, just don't expect me to maintain it for long i guess. There will probably be days when i'm so tired i just become silent.

Ah... Stupid assignment... 1000 to 1500 words... Looks like i should just make myself a cup of tea tonight... Hopefully the caffine will carry me through...

Met Kaiyuan on the train back home last Sunday. For some reason she asked why not get into an r/s. I think i said that it's just not worth it now. Probably should have said there is a time for everything, too early and everything may end up screwed up instead. Then she asked about peer pressure, with so many people around, how to resist? Kind of said that after certain life experiences, it kind of changes your outlook on life and the things in it. Peer pressure is the lousiest reason one can give for getting into an r/s. What's the point of the r/s then? To just look cool? Or is it for something more?

I look at my maturity level, and i realise i'm still pretty immature. I look at my attitude, still too hack-care. I look at my reactions, and realise i'm still kind of rebellious. I look at my treatment of others, and realise i still don't treat people as nicely as they meant to be treated. I look at my actions, and realise they are still stupid. I look at my time, and realise the limited time i have, especially to do homework i'm supposed to be doing... =x

Looks like another habit to improve on: Stop nagging... Must be from all the constant exposure to my mom... Can't help it when i see and hear her everyday i guess. Need to get it under control...

Everyday, the pain gets lesser. Hopefully by the end of the year, it wouldn't bother me as much as it did months back. And it's not my physical pain i'm talking about.

I'm the ultimate spectator yeah? XD

Self imposed body lockdown is irritating... Can't do sports properly in fear of injury again... Going to start with a bit next week if possible. Should take some time off to sign up for gym membership too i guess.

Better go make myself a hot drink... Expecting a late night tonight...

Now to wait for it to cool down before i dare to drink it... Don't want to burn my tongue... =x

It seems like when stuff happens nowadays, i'm not surprised. Some stuffs can just be seen and known. I just don't care that much about suff happening now anyways. Too tired/busy/lazy/crazy to care. Crazy just thrown in for fun. XD

Hmm... Wonder how i'm supposed to survive tomorrow... Long day as Crusade will be having event after school. But since God has made a way for me to survive so far into the starting of school, he sure will help me survive tomorrow too!! =x

Now i'm wondering if i'm pushing my body too far... School work + FYP + Jacket design + class rep duties + Campus Crusade + whatever is coming up next. Woah... 5 things to settle with mroe to come... Life just looked a lot more dimmer... Until i on the lights that is. XD

I guess that's enough random-ness for today. Hopefully it will be able to carry me through tomorrow. See yah.

I guess it's fine with me as long as she's happy. Wasn't that the original intention?

Love Revolution

Sometimes we need reminders of how fortunate we are

Just watch the video in the link. That's one of the reasons i hate to waste food.
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Very tired now. See yah next time when i'm feeling better.

Now if only my blogging habit is as good as my study habits...

Today was a long day... Church in the morning, then went to a HwaChong Concert thing. A Chinese concert mind you. Was worried i will just be going there to fill up space as my Chinese is horrible. But i understood most of it surprisingly. And since the TV is now showing some television award thing show (Hong Xin Da Jiang), i shall have my speech too: I would like to thank thsoe who helped develop my Chiness skills, like ... and ... and ... and ... and a whole lot more which naming will take up more time than i'm allowed... =x

Anyway, shall just post pics, alot better than me attempting to be lame and trying to come up with lame jokes...
Good view thanks to XX, the one selling tickets and choosing seats for us... Now if only it was nearer to the toilet... =x

An interesting view to me i guess =x

Mel said the scenery nice, probably that's why i took it... XD

Met up with family for dinner after the concert. The plays were interesting, at least interesting enough for a Chinese lousy guy like me to understand. MC actually asked me what the guy meant at one part of the play, and i actually could actually understand it. Accomplishment!! =x Must be due to all the China friends in school i have that sometimes talk too fast for me to understand. Trained ears... XD

Oh well, that's about all for today. See yah!!

Me was Thai boxer for a day!! Ok, maybe not... =x

Hopefully the hand will be better. Flexibility have seemed to returned to the hand. Feet are a different story altogether... Talk about a weird person who post up pics of himself in bandages... XD

Oh well, see yah next time!

Sometimes i wonder if i'm ok, then i would look around me, amazed by the beauty of everything surrounding.

Then i give a sigh and smile the blues away. (:

The problem with being too tired

Yesterday's post was the result of too much work and too little rest. Trying to pick up the skill of sleeping in the bus. Almost succeed today... Hopefully won't over succeed. =x

Was super lethargic today... Kept wanting to sleep... Must have been that traffic jam in the morning... All it took was a fallen tree and the whole road was jammed up... Man... And the interesting part was that the road was still jammed up after the tree was removed... Oh well... Maybe the drivers are kaypo people after all...

Interesting thing about today was that i was tired only in school... When i got home i felt so much better... Got more things to look forward to at home? Maybe... Like that beautiful bed of mine... =x

I realised that it's actually very easy to talk to me, all you have to do is start talking about food. Maybe that's why i like talking to Reuel and MeiHsien that much... A cook and a baker... XD

Take a look at the latest blog post ( the April 22th one) : http://www.128daysinwuhan.blogspot.com/. Touching i guess. Waiting for a day where i will understand even a little of what it means. No use rushing now when i'm not ready. (:

Sometimes in life it's not the destination that matters, it's the journey. What we went through, the mistakes we make and learn from, the lifes changed, the gain, the losses, the good, the bad, the fun times, the interesting times, the weird times, the crazy times, the messes, the hits and misses, the friends, the enemies, the giving in, the possiblities, the choices, the laughters, the crying, the pain, the hurt and alot more but i'm stopping here cause i've ran out of words to say. =x

Looks like it's not just my legs that are screwed... My right hand is probably screwed up a little too... Argh... Need to find time to face the pain again... T.T

Oh well, may have been blogging alot this past few days cause of the amount of work from school getting to me and i need an outlet to just relax, be it for a few minutes or something. Get to go now anyway. See yah next time!

Oh we’re a little closer now
And finding what life’s all about
Yeah I know you just can’t stand it
When things don’t go your way
But we’ve got no control over what happens anyway
-- James Morrison - Please Don't Stop The Rain

The story of how Tigger ended up on my phone

Touch da phone and RAWR!! =x

I know what's everyone first thought whenever they see it. Let's just say that your thought is probably wrong and this is the story of the little guy.

Tigger was originally bought for somebody. It never got to that person for some reason. And so i threw it into my laptop bag cause i didn't knew what to do with it. And there it laid, protecting my laptop (while being squashed) for months. Until last week that is. My phone strap was in such a bad condition that i felt i had to remove it. Was hesistant at first cause the phone jsut felt empty without anything attached to it. Then i remembered the (squashed) guardian of my laptop and decided that it was time for a promotion/demotion (whatever you fancy) to being the guardian of my handphone. And that's how that *cough*cute*cough* fella ended on the other end of my phone.

Now the threats he must face are: girls that find him cute and try to steal him (I looking at you Mel, XX and those out there...), ants, kaypo brothers and many others that will take a long time to name. Hopefully he won't have to face any cockroaches...

*Taking a break to refuel on the lameness tank before continuing...*

Oh yah, i don't abuse my employees, so don't need to worry about welfare. He'll be well paid. =x

Ah... Looks like tomorrow will have to trouble peopel to help me with printing drawings already... stupid programme.. Oh well... See yah around!

Am i really that frightening?? As long as you don't piss me off or something, i shouldn't be frightening... I get hurt when people say i not approachable too you know... =x

Project is finally progressing at a faster pace... School just started anyway, so kind of expected. Hopefully the the pace will continue to increase, and this can be settled as fast as possible.

Today just kind of finished up part of the schematic diagram, tomorrow will clean up the drawing and send it in for checking... Oh well, that took some time... Also helped with some painting works today, now the microclipper group own the line tracer group a favor... XD

I should start packing for tomorrow... Used up too much time for housework today... Better get going already... See yah.

OWNED =x

Small birthday celebration today for Mr Sunato, Javier and Glenda. Big cake, loads of people, and tons of fun, for some that is... XD

At the end, there was a slice of cake left, which many wanted to smash on Javier's face, and i was tasked with the job of getting him to come into the room... So i i baited him, "Hey, they plannign for next birthday celebration in the room. Want to join in?" Since i know he couldn't resist the chance to take revenge, i knew he will take it... And he did. He ran into the room, only to come running out a few seconds later with a crowd of people chasing after him... Lesson learnt? Revenge is not a good thing... =x

Him after the smashing good time... =x

Wait, this is the corrected version... =x
Look like i have to be careful on my birthday this year... Getting very dangerous... =x

Anyway, was in face paint in school for the whole day. To get people to take a look at the Campus Crusade booth at the CCA fiesta. Try walking around school like this:
Ok, maybe can minus the strange smirk i have on the face. People were like asking me why i put make-up, called me cute, and asked me what on earth am i doing... Oh well... Fool for Christ i supposed. XD

I guess that's about all for now, had a smashing good day today. See yah!

Self Reflection 2

If You want to dig this up someday, I know You can, he told God. But if not, this is where it will stay.
-Joshua Harris, Boy meets Girl, Pg 40

Self Reflection 1

Still crying, i began to thank Him. "I don't understand, but i thank You," I said. "I don't understand, but i know You are good. I don't understand, but i know You're taking this away because You have something better."
-Joshua Harris, Boy meets Girl, Pg 23

When someone's action declares out loud, "I'm your friend, but i don't really care how you feel. As long as i'm happy it's ok." How will you feel?

It's interesting to see what people are willing to do just to get what they want

And i guess i find it interesting too what i would do to get what i want.

Long day yesterday, since it's already 1am in the morning. In school early morning, out getting stuff late morning, in crusade early afternoon, back at alpha centre again early evening n ended up helping alpha club, then at Uncle WeeLiang / Aunt Ellen 's place from late evening to night... Reached home a while before 12am.

Was actually at Uncle WeeLiang's place at about 6:20pm. i rang the doorbell 3 times but there wasn't a respond, so i went down to play abit of basketball before heading back up again. Who knew iwould end up playing till i'm all wet... Then when i went up, i rang the doorbell twice, no respond then knocked on the door to try... No respond again, so i rested a while before attempting knockign the door again. this time the door opened... They were at home but disabled the doorbell cause it was ringing for no reason the whole afternoon... Ah... Waited for more about an hour just cause of a faulty doorbell... T.T

Ok... My body is calling for the bed... Yet i choose to deprive it first... Until i run of things to type... Ok, i'm out of things to type about. See yah. =x

USB radio receiver sure is useful...

Looks like this is going to be another one of those holiday weeks where i spend most of the time in school... And i actually thought of this week as a school week too... Was chatting with MeiHsien yesterday and thought she had dinner late cause of school... When the polys are on holidays... @.@

And check out the piece of cardboard i (willing) paid $10 for. And i was satisfied too... =x Probably cause i have been searching for this piece of cardboard for close to 3 months already... XD
Today was out looking at parts at SimLim, Rochor and Chinatown area looking for parts again. Very tired for some reason. Hopefully i won't be falling sick anytime soon, even though i can feel something creeping up inside me... Like a fever is waiting to break lose or something. I want to enjoy my dinner at Uncle WeeLiang / Aunt Ellen 's place tomorrow... Will either be "western a la Botak Jones(cajun chicken with cheese and baked potatoes) or Chinese fried rice with a lot of 'liao' ". Quoted for mouth-watering effect, for me at least =x

Still feeling a bit groggy for some reason... Oh yah, managed to survive yesterday without painkillers!! Not that i usually take painkillers, just yesterday's pain was quite intense... Was thinking if the hospital would be a better place to be. But it turned out fine, or i think so... =x

Hmm... I think i need another piece of that $10 cardboard piece for what i want... Strange hobbys of mine... XD

I think that's all for now. See yah around.

When there's nothing i can do about things, be it for me or people, i thank God i still can pray, that he will take care of things, even when i'm unable to.

Project progress report 2 will have to wait, since my progress is like that of a snail at the moment... Wait a minute.. Saw quite a few snails today... One on the way for lunch, another somewhere else i can't remember... And maybe another one unless my memory is failing me again... Sign i should slow down to snail pace or speed up cause i'm too snail like at the moment? Hmm... =x

Are we being who we are, or are we being influenced by others, or are we choosing to become something we are not because we want something? Sure i've used my name as a joke so many times before, but that's me isn't it? Kind of grew out of the "act blur" me, maybe that's why the "HUH?"s have been reduced alot. =x

Was intending to play a little guitar today, but got carried away on Facebook trying to beat someone's high score. Kelvin, time to discipline yourself...

Abit mroe on the stuff i learn from the book i'm reading... Sometimes it's just not yet the time for a r/s. Rushing into one before the right time doesn't result good things... Main thing is to not be impatience.

Hmm... Came home a bit too late today... Have to leave earlier tomorrow... Got to go, see yah.

Crazy Dinner yeah...

Yesterday the company my mom is working at held a dinner for the families of the everyoen working there. I think the place is called Kuishin-Bo...

Was thinking of trying a bit of everything, but the problem as that if i took a little of everything, i won't be able to eat everything at all... But i still tried anyway. Result? The usual stomach ache from eating too much... =x

But the food was great anyway. The range of Japanese cuisine was immense. There there will be those hourly specials that are limited to 20 pieces. And i managed to get it 2 times, but both times happened to be the same thing... Some bamboo mussel thing... At least i didn't rush to get it, just walked into queue. Lesson learned? Don't rush for food... Or any other things life. Rushing never really give the best effort.

For the dinner, all the kids of the employee's get to spend $20 per kid to spend on the gift for the kid. And this was i got with that $20:
It's a book about relationships. More info about it here: http://www.joshharris.com/boy_meets_girl.php. I'm not in one at the moment, but just reading it to learn more. Never hurts to learn more right? Been an interesting read so far. Wonder if i should just post up what i've been learning from the book. Realised one of the reasons my previous r/s didn't work out cause i got too lazy. And another reason is i didn't let God guide and take care of it.

Oh well, life goes on. She's a friend now, which i think is quite ok already. Could have ended up worst, but thank God it didn't.

Guess i should pack up earlier today. Need to jump start my studying motivation for tomorrow. Going back to school a week earlier to prepare myself physically and mentally for school. See yah next time.

Talk about eating so much until getting a tummy ache... Again... =x

Waiting in hospitals are... boring...

Had a heart check-up yesterday. Supposedly to See if my chest pain is related to the heart. Probably muscular again, and common in teenagers... Then the doc just send me for this stress test not because he expect something to happen, but because he doesn't expect anything to happen.

The test was at first to be taken on another day, but happen to have a slot that afternoon, so waited in the hospital from 11+ to 2+ for the test... Already waited about an hour in the morning just to see the doc... Now another 3 hours for the stress test? Ok... So i waited while my mom rushed back to work...

Stress test was just me running on a treadmill until i couldn't take it anymore... Which happened to be quite early thanks to me being out of shape... Imagine running on a treadmill with stuff stuck to your body... Then with speed of the treadmill increasing in stages. Felt like i was moving when i was on the treadmill even though i wasn't. Was very dizzy after the test...

One of the nurses monitoring me seem to be someone that was on attachment since she looked quite young... Was thinking of picking up a conversation, but kind of weird talking to someone putting stuff on me... But after the test, i was dizzy and seeing stars, so i told the the nurses what i was dizzy and seeing stars. That younger nurse took out the tissue box and said, "Now i let you see tissue paper" If i was less dizzy, probably would have laughed our loud... And that was the better part of the day i guess... =x

Now wondering why i didn't see her name tag or something...

Oh well, waiting in general is boring, not just in hospitals. Thank God the psp lasted that long... Or i could be reduced to the state of playing with my handphone games... =x

I guess that's all for now, see yah.

Pissed over something no one knows about

I'm feeling pissed and feel like punching someone(Not just anyone but someone in particular) at the moment. Have been feeling pissed for a while. Hopefully the pool table and balls can survive my rage tomorrow. Don't want to end up paying more than i intended.

I guess people have the right to do what they want. But when actions disregard the feelings of others, it's overboard. But i guess that person is probably too blind to notice the feelings of others at the moment. Because i'm patience i shall not do anything yet. And that's a big YET. The day i cannot take it is the day you know what i have been feeling about your actions and how selfish i think they have been.

I'm probably a strategist by nature, even though i have yet to able to apply any successfully to some of my games. But the point is that i see strategies that people apply in life, like what he's doing to do this, what's she's doing to get that, etc... I'm currently seeing loopholes in someone's strategy. Don't know if i should tell that person since i'm kind of pissed off with that person. Or should i just let that person bang into the wall to learn, the same way i banged into the wall? I see further ahead now, and think further ahead too, even though not far enough yet, about what would happen, wouldn't happen. And that's what i see happening. Remember, the wall don't feel the pain, you do.

My main strategy for life now? Just do much and don't expect much in return. I'm happy helping others already, the returns are just extra stuff. Kind of keeps in happy most of the time. Its something to with what is expected i think, getting what is expected makes you happy, so i don't expect any return at all, happiness in the act itself. Yeah.

And talking about naming conventions, what kind of names do you expect someone who calls his his 2 bears(above) Snow and Bottle? There's nothing wrong with callign the Alpha Centre mascots Lion, Dolphine and Pooh/Rabbit/Pooh-in-rabbit-costume? Just saying don't expect too crazy names from soemone who gives 1 syllabus names to his own soft toys. And especially from a guy that actually names his soft toys... Wonder why i even typed this portion... Ok, maybe it's because it's easier to explain it here than a tagboard...

Feelign slightly less pissed already. Must be all the soft toy chatter... Hey, not a bad idea for a new type of theropy, the soft toy theropy! Okay, i will just shut up...

Hmm... Thinking about if i should go Uncle WeeLiang's / Aunt Ellen's place this Friday. If i go, i will probably be tempted to play basketball, and if i want to play means i have to rest my legs the next few days... Which means no crazy stunts for the next few days... How am i to avoid doing stupid things?? Expecially since i'm stupid sometimes? Like today where i probably ate a little too much too fast during lunch and ended up with a slight stomach ache? Ok... Will probably decide by tomorrow i guess... Ahh... Decisions and more decisions...

More mindlesss chatter in my brain again... Kind of disturbing... At least they don't prevent me from sleeping anymore... Or at least they used keep from sleeping peacefully...

The thin line between crush and obessions is easily passed. Not many people realize this i guess. Very easy to be blinded by this kind of feelings, be it the first, 2nd, 3rd or the 209th time. Always have something or someone to keep you grounded, or you may end up doing damage, some irreversible, be it to things or people. A sign of obession? Extreme feelings. Extremely delighted or extremely depressed over some reason related to that person. It blinds all sense of reasoning, expecially common sense.

Ah... Long time no post such a long post... Still the usual ramblings of a partially insane person. Not everything i want to say will be posted up anyway. The best parts are usually saved for those who actually bother about what i feel anyway. See yah next time.

Thoughts

There are so many thoughts in my head now. Some with no significance to life at all. Some so dangerous that if told to the wrong person can result in things being destroyed. Guess i'm looking for a outlet, but the problem will probably be those dangerous thoughts.

Oh well, shall keep pondering on theses thoughts then. See yah.

Say hi to the live in mascot of Alpha Centre!! =x

Before i allow my eye lids to drop any further, i shall blog a little... Was in school in the morning...
Then went to Sim Lim Tower to find parts... Then was around Rochor finding beancurd... Then went to Chinatown to look at parts too... Then to Kovan to get stuff... Then finally home... And the next thing that could probably happen is me collasping on the bed and KO-ing... Is there a way for me to keep my eyes open? Legs aching also anyway... Probably from all the walking and running around today...

Ok... Probably will be resting early... Or may end up like a zombie tomorrow... Oh well... See yah.