Yup, New Skin Again...

Just completed this skin. It is supposed to be an improvement of the previous one. Hope it really is. Based on my sis opinion, this skin is actually better than the previous one. How true it is, i will find out in the coming days...

Prelims are over. Now brake for a while then before back to studying at full steam. I want to get that A1 for my sciences and maths. Is that possible? Yes. Do i think i can do it? Sometimes no. Why? Everything just keeps getting more and more difficult with each coming day. Ten year series, here i come...

Man... The gundam episode is not loading... LOAD!!! The problem with torrents: They can be very unreliable at times... I just saw some videos on how a professional gundam modeller does and paints a model. It was amazing. It was either he destroy the model or turn it into a totally beautiful piece of art... I want to take up this hobby, but don't have the space or resources... T.T

Oh well, enough for now. See yah next time.

What ever will be will be... The future is not ours to see...

I Feel A Need For A Emo Post Here...

All the very emo post has been all going to my private blog such that this place has became happier. Not that i blog on my private blog much now a days and i know the previous post was abit emo with the anger. Looks like i became a more relaxed and hapier person already. And damn... Youtube took down the video of that magician due to complains by Fuji TV or something... Now what?? Only the Japanese people can watch it?? Crap...

This year D&D, i actually wanted to ask somebody. But i asked myself, what is the use of asking?? Chances of being accepted is close to nothing at all. She's attached. And i ain't excactly the nicest looking guy on Earth. Oh well, too late to ask already anyway. Life goes on. And i got a life to live. So what if she is attached?? I still got a friend. And don't anyone come ask me about the D&D anymore. It will just be another event after the 'O' Levels. So just let me keep it out of my head.

I got bored of computer games... Everything is like the same. Now i can't get pass the a mission in Jedi Academy and thus became bored of the game. Ha. Maybe i will try playing it again some other time. Now, back to studies.

Oh well... Tomorrow is the end of the prelims. I only hope i did well but my feeling tells me other wise. The results will only be seen on Friday. Oh well... Life still goes on... It doesn't stop because of a paper.

That's enough for today. See yah next time.

Shouting At Me For No Hell Of A Reason Gets You No Where

The first time my mom came back was to complain. "Why use this spoon? This spoon is dirty!! Don't use it!!" Man... Did you tell me not use it?? No... And what is the problem with that spoon?? It is still a spoon... Oh... the nshe went on like, "Next time don't use this spoon!" for around 3 times. Being really irritated, I just kept quiet and continued eating my dinner. I was wondering if i should just walk out of the kitchen and just skip dinner totally. Then she asked, "You want some more rice?" I usually had second servings, but this time she totally spoiled my mood. I tried to ignore her but she wanted to scoop me some more rice. I muttered a no but she insisted. It was only when i gave the evil eye did she get the signal that she has already went overboard and i had no mood to eat anymore.

Man... does having a bad day at work give one the right to vent it out at home?? NO!! I don't take abuse. You think i just let you scold me for no hell of a reason, hell no. And you know that i am the one right at the moment too, so why bother to even continue?? I could have just took the folk and stabbed you. And that, won't be nice. Imagine the headlines, "Unreasonable mom stabbed to death by son with folk." Laughable? Definately.

I feel i can go on and on now cause she hasn't bothered to apologised. Not worth it?? In the end she will be the one suffering, not me. Cause out of all the people in the house, removing me will result in a problems like who is going to do the housework when my parents are busy or tired? My sis? Maybe... My bro? Never. Sure you feed me, but i am quite sure alot of parents want to haev a kid like me. Can't see you are that lucky?? I pity you...

You look at everyone else but me. I wonder why i still remain when most of the time i just feel unappreciated.

Never Expected Anything Back

Just to explain the title: I do things for people. I never expected anything back. Besides you being happy. Althought being appreciated would be nice.

Argh... I think i am addicted to Jedi Academy now... Bring on those lousey enemies!! You can't beat me!! MUAHAHAHAHA... Why can't they win?? I always save my game before fighting them. So in the end, i always win. YEAH!!! XD

Tomorrow is Maureen's birthday... So HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!! (Even thought i got a feeling she will only see this when it becomes belated birthday... Or birthday itself so...) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! Saves the trouble of the unpredictability of life, as all aspects are covered. YEAH!!! XD

Opps... Was being lame again... Don't know why but i just feel lame the pass few days... Must be the limping around the pass few days... Ha... Was lame again without knowing it... XD

I got into the mission team for the mission trip to Thailand at the end of the year. Good thing? I will be having fun. Bad thing? Will be spending Christmas out of Singapore. Oh well, nothing loss, nothing gained... And many more will gain from my work, or at least i hope so...

Oh well... Got to go now... See yah!

I tried so hard and got so far... But in the end, it doesn't even matter... - Linkin Park

Just When All Seems Well...

Just when it looks okay, everything can just go down the drain... Erm, ignore the random-ness, i just wanted to explain the random title. Just feel there is a need to explain anyway, cause study too much until must also apply what i have learned to real life. XD

For the past few days i have been gettign tired of playing computer games. Probably play it to pass time only, besides the sense of accomplishment when passing a mission, nothing more. Oh, i just started playing Star Wars Jedi Knight: Jedi Academy again. Probably cause seeign SweeHao having so much fun playing it, I decided to play... Finally i am able to pass the first mission... I remember i used to be unable to even complete the fist mission, even with cheats, as i always lose my way in the map... Oh well, now i am stuck at the mission with teh AT-ST... How am i suppose to take down a machine with just a light saber??

Go take a look at this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=nxHq1__Hccc. Man... I wish i could do that... If i could, imagine what kind of pperson i would be... *drools* Opps... Sorry... Daydreaming... XD

Just finished hanging up the laundry... Man... Tired, so i shall end here and go brush my teeeth... See yah around.

"You Have STOLEN My Heart..."- Dashboard Confessional

This, That, These, Those

Prelims... Man... Tired of studying, but also tired of playing, so no choice but to study... Good or bad thing?? For you to decide...

I stopped playing too much at the moment, but only to get back to designing blogskins for myself!!! I am planning to change skin again!! This skin seems a little too plain to me and some people. So far, it is looking good. Now all that is left is the coding. It probably will look abut the samebut i feel it looks better. Try so many colour combination be4 come up with one that i feel looks nice. Don't worry, cause it won't be yellow anymore after the change. (:

Wow... Never knew trying to teach someone DotA is so difficult... especially when i am actually a noob myself... Minda going to enter the gaming industry cause people want him to play with them for the WCG... He has to learn totally from scratch... No easy thing... Oh well, now is time for studying, not playing, so... STUDY KELVIN!!!

Nothing else much to update on now... So here i sign off. See yah around!

Seeing Stars...

YAY!! I finish new skin already!!! In less than a day!! YAY!!! Oh well, do comment on it if you want. I hope you peopel like it. :)

Look like by some divine doing of God, i signed up for the prom night. And i intend to go alone. YAY!! No dance partner!! Wait a minute, is that a good thing? Maybe not... Oh well, lets see how God work things out for me this time... If anything is going to be done that is. But i try not to expect much, cause expectations only come with disappointment.

I started on this skin today when i was sick og playing computer games. And it was done in around 3 hours. I know Minda can do one in a few minutes, but what do you expect from a kid who doesn't do blogskins so regularly?? Oh well, at least i find my own skin nice. :)

That's all for now. See yah around!

Tired...

If everything ended up the way i wanted it to be, i would have been a very selfish man. Expectations only comes with disappointment. Don't believe me? Why are you disappointed then? Because you expected smething to happen but it didn't. See? I am just tired and just typing what ever comes to my head now.

Sohould i go for the Graduation dinner and dance (D&D)? I find there no reason for me to go. Why should i go?? To "Experience the mature setting"? (Quote Miss Ming) My mom is willing to sponser, but she finds it fine if i don't go too. So Nat, It is not my mom is scared i won't get any girls, get it? Think straight. Why should i go? I would rather go for the class chalet where everybody can have fun instead of going to something which maybe the whole class may not be going... So in the end, should i go?? Tomorrow is the last day to sign up. So maybe i wouldn't go, unless by some divine intervetion of God that got my name onto the list or something forces me to go or i find a reason to go, and the chances of any of these happening is very, and i mean around to 1%, low.

Just studied finish physics. I know i know the textbook. But everytime i look at the TYS, i am dumb founded (is that how you say it??). I can't do some of the questions... Even after staring at he answer sheet for some time, it still doesn't go into my head. ARGH...

The past few days i have been having sneezing incidents. They say diferent amount of sneezing show what people are thinking about you. I forgot what the numbers are, but i keep having lone sneezing incidents, liek i sneeze onece then don't sneeze at all for the next hour. New type of flu?? maybe. Wishful thinking? Definately

So now everyday i study a little, then rest then study again then rest... Then after studying then play game for a while. At least i dont play KongKong. Childish racing game...XP

Hmmm... What else can i blog about?? Life been going on fine for me... My bro just lost $2 given by my parents... My mom isn't that supportive of my sis talent for art... I think that i got no particular talent... I don't like people calling he when i am going to sleep or sleeping already... I try my best to be a listening ear at times, but i can't be one all the time. My parents will KILL me...

I got nothing to blog about already, so that's all for now. See yah next time.

Of all times, why am i thinking about you now?

Nothing Said Nothing Done

Man, the game i am playing is down cause the server is down... Crap... Come back home because want to play but when i start the programme, "Server is not active" appears... Unfair... I was getting to love it...

English intensive is finally over!!! Ironic that i am happy now that it is over, but actually wanted it to last longer... But it would have been nice if Mr. Koh was teaching instead. Miss Kodi would also have been nice. Other than that, no comments for the rest... XD

I wanted to blog about something but i guess i forgot... the title got nothing to do with anything. It was just for show. :P so now all i am going to do is just ramble nonsense...

I got 3 blogs. 2 blogs can be found easily. The third is never meant to be found. You are looking at the first one. The second? Where i test out my blog skins. The third? Private blog. Try as hard as you might to find it but you will never. Why? It is a PRIVATE blog. And no Nat, I am not going to tell you where it is.

Little know there is a evil side to me. Todoy it showed itself, but everybody knowing me wouldn't have suspectesd me of doing anything. Cannot collect notes for absent people? Well, they will still get thir notes. Source? Somebody. XD

Going to try to play that online game again... If it still doesn'twork, i am going to just surf the web. See yah.

Crap... Crap... And More Crap...

Man, guess i wasn't so good at Dota yet... People say i noob at b-net... staying away from there from the time being. Same thign for Dota too. No Dota until some time later...

Anyway, at least i found a new game to play. and it is online too... Graphics are good... And it is fun to play and is free too. Interested?? Go to this website: http://sco.gpotato.com/. It is 3D by the way. If you are going to lay it, tell me. I just started anyway.

Nothing much to talk about now. Everybody seems to be studying so hard for their exams. Waht about me?? I just found myself a new game to play... ARGH!!! Everybody is like so hard working now, how can i just be so relaxed now??? Crap...

Very dry on ideas now, so wouldn't ontinue to blog. That's all folks. See yah.

Curse me all you want. It doesn't show what kind of person I am but it shows what sort of person you are.

Responsibilities...

Long word with heavy meaning. Without this, i may not even be here today, the way i am. If not for this word too, you won't be seeing me every other day.

This word. This word is probably one of teh factors that kept me alive all these years. "I couldn't just end my life like this", i always thought, i still had to fulfill many it.

But this very word, has cause many and me pain at times. It forced me to do the right things, hurting some along the way. "With great power comes great ________" they say. Is this power worth it?? Because of it, everything gets pushed to me at times. "You are the eldest!" "You are a Councillor!" "You are..."

There are times i wish to ignore this word and just live life as a bad guy, just for once. But i have to live up to it. It is not a choice, it is what must be done. "You have not been entrusted with it for no reason you know..."

Because of this word, my conscience is always heavy. I have problem forgetting bout the past. Mistakes i make cost me hours of sleeps. Wrong moves haunt me at night. But don't ever ask me to forget about it, cause i will never forget about it.

I meant you well but you say humans can't be trusted. I just did what I felt was right. And I will prove to you that humans can be trusted.

Windows Messenger?? I Am Sticking To Msn Messenger Now...

Man, for some sort of reason, no one seems to be able to see me shen i sign in to windows messenger. But now i managed to find back the old msn messenger, everything seesm back to norm again... phew... only found out this afternoon chattign with Maureen when she asked me why i was offline. I was like, "Really meh? Offline then how to chat with you??" And guess what? she was right. I just sent in a "complain" to the peole supposely in-charge of windows messenger. I should be getting my reply in "24 hours". And that's quoting the website. Better be worth the effort... I took such a long time just searching for this old msn messenger... Hope nothing screws up again...

Why am i thinking about you? You got a guy. I am nothing compared to him. Why can't I seem to let go? All you are is a friend in my life, and it will stay that way unless God says otherwise...

Study... Study... Study... Crap...

I must study... Everybody was in school and i was at home. So i forced myself to study... ARGH!! Physics notes... 1 chapter in half an hour... Crap... at this rate i will be churning out notes by the hour soon... But now my attention span has ended and i am back on the computer!! MUST FORE SELF TO GET BACK TO STUDY!!! Hah...

Hm... maybe tomorrow i will study Chemistry... then do a little maths... then can relax... or tomorrow whole day study Chemistry... Choices... so many choices...

Now to get myself back to studying. Unless some body just suddenly gives me a call or turns up at my door needing my services. Like that will happen. XD

That's enough for now. I better be getting back to my revision... See ya

I've got nothing left to lose. No reason to get something which I will lose some time or later right?

Is This Something To Be Upset About??

English intensive for many of you will be on this coming Monday and Tuesday. Mine will be the following Monday and Tuesday. What's the reason for this?? I Just feel upset that majourity of the class is in that group while i am in the other group. Some times life just seems so unfair. Looks like i get grouped with don't know who... When almost the whole class gets to have fun, where will i be?? At home wasting away?? Crap...

You can say i am furious over it with the more i think about it. But at the same time, i can't but help feelign that it's not worth getting angry over it. Break up class then break up class LOR... Like I care Like that... I still get the attention for my english intensive... Crap...

Oh well... Enough of my thougths for for now... See yah...


I had enough of all this feelings!! Why can't they leave me alone?!?! I want no more anger! Sadness! Hurt! Especially love! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!