My Pic!!

Man do i look ugly...

The Finale...

WOW... just finished my last exam paper today... chemistry never easy... especially when ur teacher set it... n she is the head of department for science... How can multiple choice questions be so hard even with 4 choices?!?!?!?! Oh well... at least i finished the paper...

Guess i m feeling childish today... but i got trashed at yugioh today...(a card game really...)... I got terashed so may times that i... nevermind. When i got home, i took apart my whole deck n decided to sell some of the stuff.... was getting kinda bored with it any way, time for a change.... I m still going to play, just MIA for the moment....

That's probably all i got from today... A word of advice though, never start playing games i m playing... u will go broke over it...n i ain't implying anything....

HOW ON EARTH?!?!?!?!

Man, how on earth did my teacher found out so much about my family in one go? I don’t talk about family in school…I find it strange when she told me my sis n bro names…FOUND OUT FROM A TEACHER FROM MY PRIMARY SCHOOL?!?!?! Man…my bro must be controversial at my primary school…I was noting there…N NOW HE CAUSE MY TEACHER 2 FINDOUT ABOUT ME?!?!?! Man…all those years of keeping quiet hasn’t done much at all I see…my teacher now knows my mom kills us with a lot of pressure…what I like to do…what I don’t like to do…HELP ME HERE!!!! Oh well…he is going have to face me soon anyway… ;-)

From last week onwards, I have decided to ignore my feelings for a well…they mostly get me mixed up…so for the better or the worst, I won’t know until I try… Why am I doing this? I m a troubled kid…emotions just shake me up even more…this is not permanent…it is just until I learn how to control them…n prevent it from getting me into further trouble…

That’s all from me today…And the phrase of the day is “listen to your mind n not your heart”…Contrary to the famous phrase “listen to your heart”…It only leads to certain…embarrassment… Follow the phrase or learn it the hard way, it is up to U…

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I m totally blank right now… what m I supposed to type about anyway? I m losing steam here… what ever happens now will not be interesting to me… unless something drastic happens, like if mom suddenly become a totally new person or someone close to me is suddenly gone…(but I doubt if the second ever apply to me… I m not close to any one actually…)

The fire going off soon… I need to look for a new source of passion here… a new source of will to write and maintain (what is there to maintain anyway?) this blog... I always wanted to improve this blog but couldn’t find the strength or will power to do it…(excuses, excuses, excuses…) if only this… if only that…oh well… guess I m getting a bit troublesome…wonder if my mom was listening during that parents talk yesterday… if she was, I would probably see a change… if I don’t see a change, the same she will be…

That all for today… so still next time, try not to be such a negative and lame person like me…

Dreams

Started of like visions …

Never knowing the reasons…

Seeing this people…

Again n again…

Guess I will never know…

Why I have these dreams…

Nightmare or otherwise…

What seems good here…

Ain’t the same there…

What’s happy here…

Is frightening there…

No one else knows…

What it’s like…

Having these strange dreams…

Night after night…

Shush…

Now I won’t say that no one cares for me… just because they are the minority… (that seems to rhythm) I m trying out typin my bog first in Microsoft word then coping it over… i m just not happy with what happened last time when the internet connection was unstable n lost half an entry…

Alright, iknow some people care for me… my dad… my mom (to a certain extent)… SOME of my friends… that “some” word was highlighted purposely… let’s see if anyone respone to it (he he)… it just that one of my friend offer to share her food with me last Wednesday really touched me… I was just complaining away about not eating recess n lunch when she offered to let me eat her food her father brought for her… touched I was…I didn’t accept he food as I will feel too guilty anyway…

Man… now I have to be careful what I write( or type) here… Just because of some people in Singapore started using their blogs to insult teachers or for racism… Hope I don’t end up punished like them… I didn’t type any thing wrong, did i? I will probably find out when i get any feedback from the authorities… which seems unlikely…

Guess I m stuck to ending my blog like this… so till next time u read anything here... remember to not allow any one to stop u from accomplishing ur goal… unless it is an evil one…

Understanding?

Do parents really understand everything? do thay know what we teens want?
I doubtr they do... all the more if they say they do.... accusing me of not doing my work? i m catching up with my work here man... i just came back from a camp n got more catching up to do then u will ever know..... but who cares?

I think i have gotten so used to insults that i have become numb... but who knows? i feel like crap most of the time... but who knows? My parents don't... but do thay read this blog? My dad maybe but my mom? no way... she probably too bz.... even for her own kids...

Man... I lost the other half of this blog thanks to some lousy error? wher m i to get my expressions from after i have used them all up? i will probably stp here as i want to turn in early due to a flu... if my tireness beats my insomia...(Is that how it's spelt?)....

Back To Business...

I m back from my outward bound camp...

Was it fun? I enjoyed it alot.... Now i miss it.... Who would miss me if i was at camp anyway? it was more fun there n i felt better treated there also... But good things never last long... have to get back to life... the way things was... except knowing u can now face it with renewed strength.

The camp just taught me to look at things from a different perspective... I MUST GO ON TO THE END!!!!

no matter how hard a time i m having, i must keep on enduring... how? well... by just enduring.... What else can say? ( n who bothers to read this blog anyway?)

Well... that probably all i got for today... So till next time.... ( u know wat i m about to say rite so i shall spare u the agony)...

It was an intersting boring week...

Can i use both interesting and boring this way? It still semms to make sense any way so where shall i begin from? i spent most of the week at home. That was the boring part. The interesting part was probably the same thing...

This few days have been just mainly going to school and sleeping at home... parents didn't allow me out much... thanks to that oral exam on wednesday...."U will be too tired..." thingy.... But how m i to study for oral? I just talk and talk n talk.... N i don't want to end up like my mother too.... thanks to this, i missed watching that movie with my friends....

Interesting thinsg was probably i visited my primary school with parents, not because of me but because of my little brother... He got 6 stitches on this pinky due to some incident in school... my mom went there to complain to the principal.... wanted the whole family to follow along to support her.... HOW ON EARTH R WE 2 DO THAT? U just made me go back to school so u could complain? My primay school teacher was so surprised that i was the brother of the kid that got the stitches on his finger...

That all for this week... can i say any thing more? i don't hink so... wish i could though.... how m i to do that? Hope time will tell.....

Interesting Stuff, Even If It is An Insult....

Everything around me seems interesting.... i m not included...

Just look around, the world is full of things, positive or negative, interesting in their own way...
just for example, a comment i got today " Kelvin, u 'cool' factor is 10 times of that of Wei Jin. N Wei Jin has a 'cool' factor that is negative..." For those who don't know negative numbers, lets just say it get more negative when multiplyed by a positive number. Insulting it was, but i just can't help laughing over it...

Amazingly, i discovered that i cannot work well with someone that is too good with emotions. IT just distracts me too much. this kind of people like attention n i can't help giving them attention no matter how hard i try to ignore it.... This was just discovered 2 days ago anyway... Kinda new for me...

I keep wondering how people manage to write such long posts for their blogs... how can i keep up with them? How can i compare to them? How i can i be as good or better than them? Hope this come with time.... So till next time....