And here starts another week of school. By the end of the week, Kelvin will be like a lifeless zombie unless he catches up with Sleep, the one thing that has been evading him for weeks already... Let the hunt begin... zzzz...
And school begin with a slow start. Basketball lesson was just a lecture on warming up and stretching... Next up was CATS lesson. Did some questions that were supposed to bring out the creativity in me or something. Lunch was like any other lunch in school. CAEM1 lesson was like any other maths tutorial lesson. Then had talk with teachers about a focus group discussion i will be having next Monday.
The focus group discussion will be about the 4th public University. Will be among different polys and the head of the committee deciding the the plan will be there too. Minister of State, or MOS(BURGER!!), Lui Tuck Yew. And i'm one of the lucky few that was selected from my school to go for the discussion... Only 7 from NP. Lesser from other polys were selected. Lucky me... Or unlucky?? Anyway, i guess i just have to prepare myself to talk on that day... In front of people, MOS and the press... No pressure Kelvin, just load yourself up on the necessary information... ARGH...
Need... To... Go... SLEEP... See... You... Next... Time...
And to take the step forward for God.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
For The Moments I Feel Faint
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
-Reliant K
Never realised i got this song until one day my Ipod on shuffle played it. One of my favorites at the moment. The song played at a moment i was feeling a down and i guess i found the strength to continue at that point of time. Never really knew what the name of the song until the 2nd or 3rd time i heard it... XD
Had the price award ceremony today. Got only a measly $60. Those who top the modules get $50. So image those who top 4 modules... $200... Already more then what i get... Wait a minute, top 2 modules already more then me... Next time know have to aim to be top in a few modules then richer... XD
The picture about was taken by the photographer. All the people are the receivers of awards from the course ECE. I know i don't look suang... You will also if you are 3rd but get only $60 while those who are not in the top 3 get more then you for topping at least 2 modules... XD
Ah... Time to start working hard already... Thats all for the moment, see yah next time!!
It's alright, It's okay. I think God can explain.
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
-Reliant K
Never realised i got this song until one day my Ipod on shuffle played it. One of my favorites at the moment. The song played at a moment i was feeling a down and i guess i found the strength to continue at that point of time. Never really knew what the name of the song until the 2nd or 3rd time i heard it... XD
Had the price award ceremony today. Got only a measly $60. Those who top the modules get $50. So image those who top 4 modules... $200... Already more then what i get... Wait a minute, top 2 modules already more then me... Next time know have to aim to be top in a few modules then richer... XDThe picture about was taken by the photographer. All the people are the receivers of awards from the course ECE. I know i don't look suang... You will also if you are 3rd but get only $60 while those who are not in the top 3 get more then you for topping at least 2 modules... XD
Ah... Time to start working hard already... Thats all for the moment, see yah next time!!
It's alright, It's okay. I think God can explain.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Hocus Focus
Wow... 3rd day straight blogging. Haven't done this kind of thing for quite some time.
Lets see... Today i went to a block in school i had never been to before, block 1, the block where the admin stuff of the school are settled i think. Had to go there for a briefing on a focus group discussion i will be in 2 Mondays from now. A discussion with the Minister of State, Lui Tuck Yew, about the 4th university in Singapore. I got given a whole file of articles with some people's opinion on it, and i am going to have to say something that day i guess. Thinking of questions or things that i want in the university at the moment... Any suggestions welcomed at the moment cause i can't really think properly at the moment. And of all people in my school, they selected me... Or maybe cause other people turned it down and it just fell onto my lap... Oh well... I guess this can be a good time for me to do something worthwhile in a while...
Tomorrow will be price award for those people who achieved something last semester. Hope i would get enough for a PSP or more... XD Or maybe not... It may distract me from my studies... Or i can use it as motivation for myself to work harder... Possibilities... Endless, boundless possibilities. That's what life is about sometimes i guess.
My dad was more anxious then me for getting a place in the price award ceremony... He was like asking me about my attire, time, and whatever related to the price giving ceremony possible yesterday. Ha... I guess i not really excited bout it cause life still goes on as normal and with the new and worst timetable then last semester, i'm still adapting. Oh well, less then 8 weeks to holidays...
I guess thats all for now. See yah next time!!
It's like I'm walking to on broken glass, Better believe i bled, It's a call I'll never get...
Lets see... Today i went to a block in school i had never been to before, block 1, the block where the admin stuff of the school are settled i think. Had to go there for a briefing on a focus group discussion i will be in 2 Mondays from now. A discussion with the Minister of State, Lui Tuck Yew, about the 4th university in Singapore. I got given a whole file of articles with some people's opinion on it, and i am going to have to say something that day i guess. Thinking of questions or things that i want in the university at the moment... Any suggestions welcomed at the moment cause i can't really think properly at the moment. And of all people in my school, they selected me... Or maybe cause other people turned it down and it just fell onto my lap... Oh well... I guess this can be a good time for me to do something worthwhile in a while...
Tomorrow will be price award for those people who achieved something last semester. Hope i would get enough for a PSP or more... XD Or maybe not... It may distract me from my studies... Or i can use it as motivation for myself to work harder... Possibilities... Endless, boundless possibilities. That's what life is about sometimes i guess.
My dad was more anxious then me for getting a place in the price award ceremony... He was like asking me about my attire, time, and whatever related to the price giving ceremony possible yesterday. Ha... I guess i not really excited bout it cause life still goes on as normal and with the new and worst timetable then last semester, i'm still adapting. Oh well, less then 8 weeks to holidays...
I guess thats all for now. See yah next time!!
It's like I'm walking to on broken glass, Better believe i bled, It's a call I'll never get...
Monday, October 22, 2007
Undeniable
It's undeniable how brilliant you are
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
February 5th, Friday morning, purple dawn,
Broke a yawn, as I stepped through the fog, like I stepped to a song
A moment like a poem, you wish you could hold it
I shut my eyes like it's frozen, it's gone when I open
It slipped past the clouds right there where it lingered
Like your band and a girl could slip through your fingers
My feet hit the ground like a beat for the lonely
On a path beaten down by the crowds in the morning
If only I could touch past the phony
If only they were there now to hold me
As the questions keep droning
You're the only one who stuck it out last night
The only other one who caught the other line
You're the only one when this world collides
The one that I can't deny
It's undeniable how brilliant you are
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
It's my last year here
My first class moved to portable 'A'
Under construction since summer
And it's cold today
I can see my breath, and what's left of the west parking lot
And all the spaces that we fought
And it all seems forgotten, left in the bottom
In past piles of rubble, in puddles of rain water
That hurt last night when I left like that
When I won't come back
Speaking my peace to the past
I can't help but wonder. who is this wind at my back
A whisper to walk on, come on from all that
You're the only one who stuck it out last night
The only other one who caught the other line
You're the only one when this world collides
The one that I can't deny
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
How am I gonna take it away in this winter wind
You found me on a summer breeze
How am I gonna run away when the autumn breaks
Now that you gound me in the spring
Come on and sing it out
It's undeniable how brilliant you are
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
It's undeniable how brilliant you are
In an unreliable world you shine like a star
It's unforgettable now that we've come this far
It's unmistakable that you're undeniable
-Mat Kearney
Why whould i like a girl that hates me? Isn't it like fighting a losing battle?
Sunday, October 21, 2007
If Only Nothing Else Matters
COUNTDOWN: 1 week since school started, 8 more weeks to holidays.
First week of school was slightly stressful. Adapting to the new time table is going to take some time. Taking 2 extra modules this semester... I guess that was the my basic study plan for my year one, chiong 1st year, then slow down for the following year and so on. But if i'm in this class for the next 2 years too, i guess cannot slow down... ARGH...
Got 3rd position for my course in the first semester. I supposedly got that position over my friend with the same GPA as he cause i took an extra module. Ha... I guess learning extra stuff does have its advantages... XD
Man... I've got a lecturer that swears with almost every sentence he says. He actually asked us if any of us were uncomfortable with swearing, no one was so he continued doing what he does best. After a while it gets a little bit too much... Maybe cause it was the first session and thus was in a more joking mood. Oh well, if not i probably will have to get used to it...
ARGH... Suddenly having a headache... Then suddenly it disappears again... Ah... Waste my time worrying bout myself... Got to prepare for school tomorrow soon...
Don't even bother asking me if i like anyone. I would say no. Why? Cause there's no reason for you to know anything. Even if i do like that person, the answer will be no. Don't force me to lie cause i don't like it. And don't force me to have to force you to shut up.
Ah... Now to start packing my bag for tomorrow... See yah next time!!
Give Until I Have Nothing Left To Give
First week of school was slightly stressful. Adapting to the new time table is going to take some time. Taking 2 extra modules this semester... I guess that was the my basic study plan for my year one, chiong 1st year, then slow down for the following year and so on. But if i'm in this class for the next 2 years too, i guess cannot slow down... ARGH...
Got 3rd position for my course in the first semester. I supposedly got that position over my friend with the same GPA as he cause i took an extra module. Ha... I guess learning extra stuff does have its advantages... XD
Man... I've got a lecturer that swears with almost every sentence he says. He actually asked us if any of us were uncomfortable with swearing, no one was so he continued doing what he does best. After a while it gets a little bit too much... Maybe cause it was the first session and thus was in a more joking mood. Oh well, if not i probably will have to get used to it...
ARGH... Suddenly having a headache... Then suddenly it disappears again... Ah... Waste my time worrying bout myself... Got to prepare for school tomorrow soon...
Don't even bother asking me if i like anyone. I would say no. Why? Cause there's no reason for you to know anything. Even if i do like that person, the answer will be no. Don't force me to lie cause i don't like it. And don't force me to have to force you to shut up.
Ah... Now to start packing my bag for tomorrow... See yah next time!!
Give Until I Have Nothing Left To Give
Saturday, October 13, 2007
What Doesn't Kill Me Can Only Make Me Stronger
Couldn't bring myself to blog for the past week. Wasn't busy, was probably lazy instead. What ca none expect from holidays where nothing was done? Yeah...
Thursday went back to school to get notes. Couldn't get everything cause not everything was there yet... Bookshop wasn't helpful either. They didn't know what book i had to get... had to tell them what's the exact name of the book... Ah... An hour trip to spend less then an hour there, ann i couldn't get everything... Wasted sia...
Friday went back again for some ECE student helper training. It didn't exactly felt like training... I expected something more physical i guess and went prepared to move around alot... Who expected that all we mainly had to do was sit and listen to the lecturers talk like any other school day. Oh well, at least it was more interesting then actual lessons... XD
School starting in 2 days time. TIME TO CHARGE THE BATTERIES AND START THE ENGINE!!! Hope the engine won't die on the first day... JIA YOU!! This semester probably have to chiong all the way to keep up with the smart and crazily hard working people... And i heard of one guy who already finished his maths work for this semester... ARGH!!!
That should be enough craziness for now. See yah next time!!
Say Your Goodbyes If You've Got Someone You Can Say Goodbye To
Thursday went back to school to get notes. Couldn't get everything cause not everything was there yet... Bookshop wasn't helpful either. They didn't know what book i had to get... had to tell them what's the exact name of the book... Ah... An hour trip to spend less then an hour there, ann i couldn't get everything... Wasted sia...
Friday went back again for some ECE student helper training. It didn't exactly felt like training... I expected something more physical i guess and went prepared to move around alot... Who expected that all we mainly had to do was sit and listen to the lecturers talk like any other school day. Oh well, at least it was more interesting then actual lessons... XD
School starting in 2 days time. TIME TO CHARGE THE BATTERIES AND START THE ENGINE!!! Hope the engine won't die on the first day... JIA YOU!! This semester probably have to chiong all the way to keep up with the smart and crazily hard working people... And i heard of one guy who already finished his maths work for this semester... ARGH!!!
That should be enough craziness for now. See yah next time!!
Say Your Goodbyes If You've Got Someone You Can Say Goodbye To
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Weird Weather, Weird Dreams
It was so hot the past few days, then all of a suddenly it was raining cats and dogs. Not that i'm complaining or so ever, it created the best time for me to catch up on sleep, which i did. Had a dream. Quite weird it was. Looks like another item to be posted up somewhere else.
Past few days has been boring... Not much cash to go out thanks to my phone bill arriving this week... Have yet to pay it... I guess i better go find a job since i won't be going to a camp already cause my dad felt uncomfortable with Campus Crusade for Christ. Look like have to convince my parents that my CCA is okay all over again... Oh well, hope i can find one that allows me to work for 2 weeks until school opens nearby.
Man... The weather's so cool now that i feel like just dropping onto my bed and sleep. Tomorrow will probably be a hot day, followed by a few more hot days before a very cold one like today. Wonder if i predicted correctly... Only time will tell...
Whole of last week was spent playing Crisis Core: Final Fantasy 7. Slowed down a lot this week cause lost the mood to play... Tomorrow will probably get back to all the hacking and slashing and the stupid puzzles in Japanese. Should have taught myself to read some of it... Oh well, guess i will just brute force my way through the game. XD
Maybe i should draw out a layout of my room on how i want it to look like if it is ever renovated. When one has so much free time, one must learn to use it wisely. With much time needs much wisdom. Ha... That sounded like one of Spiderman's greatest quote. XD
That's all for now, over here that is. Going to record my dream somewhere else. See yah next time!!
Where i'm going, no person can follow.
Past few days has been boring... Not much cash to go out thanks to my phone bill arriving this week... Have yet to pay it... I guess i better go find a job since i won't be going to a camp already cause my dad felt uncomfortable with Campus Crusade for Christ. Look like have to convince my parents that my CCA is okay all over again... Oh well, hope i can find one that allows me to work for 2 weeks until school opens nearby.
Man... The weather's so cool now that i feel like just dropping onto my bed and sleep. Tomorrow will probably be a hot day, followed by a few more hot days before a very cold one like today. Wonder if i predicted correctly... Only time will tell...
Whole of last week was spent playing Crisis Core: Final Fantasy 7. Slowed down a lot this week cause lost the mood to play... Tomorrow will probably get back to all the hacking and slashing and the stupid puzzles in Japanese. Should have taught myself to read some of it... Oh well, guess i will just brute force my way through the game. XD
Maybe i should draw out a layout of my room on how i want it to look like if it is ever renovated. When one has so much free time, one must learn to use it wisely. With much time needs much wisdom. Ha... That sounded like one of Spiderman's greatest quote. XD
That's all for now, over here that is. Going to record my dream somewhere else. See yah next time!!
Where i'm going, no person can follow.
Monday, September 24, 2007
To Bounce Back Up
Back again. Already pass the emo phase already. The next phase should be the anger phase, but i'm not going to let myself go there this time. And i hope i will never get to that phase again. Why? Cause i would start blaming the other party instead. Then the next phase will be when i get emo and start blaming myself, only to get back to the anger stage again... Stupid vicious cycle...
Oh well, if my intentions gets mistaken, i guess there's nothing much i can do. Should have been a little more clear perhaps. Hopes everything works out in the end. Argh... Got the urge to start blaming everything but me...
I finally won Minda at bowling again!! Second time i ever beat him. How many times he won me? Erm... Countless?? :x
I need an outlet for my stress... Maybe would start jogging tomorrow, if i can wake up early enough... Got to force myself to start waking up early again...
And my private blog. You won't find it. Even if you did, u can't access it unless i allowed you to. Want to access it? Ask me. And i will see about it. Ask and you shall receive. (:
That's all for now. See yah!
Ha... Ending up in the hospital now doesn't seem like such a bad thing more. Should i purposely just give myself such a major chest trauma and let pneumothorax will recur again? Or should i just push my body to its limits?
Oh well, if my intentions gets mistaken, i guess there's nothing much i can do. Should have been a little more clear perhaps. Hopes everything works out in the end. Argh... Got the urge to start blaming everything but me...
I finally won Minda at bowling again!! Second time i ever beat him. How many times he won me? Erm... Countless?? :x
I need an outlet for my stress... Maybe would start jogging tomorrow, if i can wake up early enough... Got to force myself to start waking up early again...
And my private blog. You won't find it. Even if you did, u can't access it unless i allowed you to. Want to access it? Ask me. And i will see about it. Ask and you shall receive. (:
That's all for now. See yah!
Ha... Ending up in the hospital now doesn't seem like such a bad thing more. Should i purposely just give myself such a major chest trauma and let pneumothorax will recur again? Or should i just push my body to its limits?
Monday, September 17, 2007
Unforgiven
Looks like there are times maybe telling the truth may not be the best thing to do. I thought i could handle the hatred, but i guess i couldn't. Those eyes just sucked the life out of me. Damn it. I thought i didn't ever needed a private blog ever again, but i guess there are feelings that i don't want people to know about. Guess now i know what's the meaning of curiosity killed the cat.
All i say this: I'm sorry.
All i say this: I'm sorry.
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