Realised something after watching High School Musical on TV yesterday night and a little of Spiderman 3 (Don't ask me how i have it XP) this morning:

Nerd =
Nerd + Super Voice = Win (High School Musical etc..)
Nerd + Superpower = Win (Spiderman etc..)

Currently i think i am the first equation, which actually means it equals to nothing as far as i know now. Maybe one day i will know what it is, or i may fall under a different classification next time. Or maybe one day addition of something also comes in. But when has life ever turned out like a movie?? Wait, maybe the tragic parts are more likely to happen compared to the good parts...

Oh well, tiredness is taking over me already... See yah people around!!

And it's not hard to fall, when you float like a cannonball...

Falling Eyelids

Tiredness is going to over take me soon... Better get going to bed right after this... Let's see, this week stared off fine, maybe a little slow being the last Monday this term i have to go to school, yeah. Then my sis got Harry Potter And the Deathly Hallows cause she saw it on offer in school. She wanted to get it last Sunday but they only had stock for people who reserved it. So she jumped on the first chance she could to get it, but at a better price too, $5 cheaper. XD

Last German lesson did nothing much besides watching a heartwarming German movie about this kid who has to keep the truth from his mom that was in coma during the reunification of Germany as his mom supported a side before she ended up in that state. Seeing all the trouble the son went through so that the mom didn't know the truth was heartwarming i guess. But the mom didn't live long. And thus ended a life built on lies. Why keep the truth from the mom? Doctor's advice that due to her heart condition, she couldn't take too much shock. But i guess in the end, he learned that lying is never a good thing as it leads to more lies to cover up that lie.

Now considering if i should continue taking German classes next semester. And my group mates are trying to convince me to stay. Reason? Cause we have been doing good together so far. What i think? I was thinking about stopping after this term as staying back after school is tiring but i guess staying for one more semester won't be so bad as i decided at the beginning of the year that i would spent my first year studying... Maybe i am regretting my promise to myself but a promise is a promise i guess...

Man... I got to register for my NS soon... They send this letter about 2 weeks back to inform me that i have to register... And i also have to start studying soon... Exams are in about 3 weeks time... Wait a minute, i already have a paper next week. ARGH.

Man... and recently i realised i misplaced my allen key for my skates... Do i have to get a new one so fast after only a few weeks of usage?? Ah... Wasted...

Just read finished Harry Potter earlier. I started off on Tuesday right after my sis finished it. I guess i am a slow reader, but hey, i was busy with other stuff and wasn't willing to throw it all away for a book unlike crazy fans. The story started off ok, got a little draggy in the middle before it started to get interesting. Ah, the irony of it all. And i don't intend to spoil the story unless i benefit from doing so which i don't think i won't. I just felt too many people died in the story... =X

Man, i just forgot to do something... Looks like i have settle it tomorrow i guess... Now, time to settle the housework cause dad's out... LAUNDRY HERE I COME!!!

Now, where did i left all my suan-ing power this time??

Just Felt Like Blogging

Woah... Suddenly this week is all over... Time flew i guess, maybe a little too fast too wit hall my homework building up... Looks like i have to start being more serious now with exams around the corner... Had a presentation on Monday, where i forced myself to comb my hair... Then had a German test and skit on Wednesday... And rounding it all up was the church anniversary celebration today with a lunch.

Ok... Let's start from the beginning... The presentation ended up quite ok i guess, cause i group rehearsed a few times before the the real thing. The only problem i probably had was talking too fast... But i was talking slower then i was talking during the rehearsal anyway so i guess i improved a little... XD

Next up, German test and skit on the same day. Both are graded by the way. My group met before class for the skit. The script was last minute bu at least it wasn't as last minute as the other groups who did it on the spot... =X The German written test was much more simpler then what we thought. The whole bunch of us were ready to cheat but we didn't in the end... XD

Fast forward to today's anniversary lunch. My family was there early as my Dad was helping out in the technical side, as he always does. We actually waited for more then a hour before everything started. Oh well, it over anyway, and time actually flew then anyway... Before lunch came, a bunch of us were cleaning our utensils with tissue as the they looked dirty like they have been just taken out of a store room... Probably cause they never catered to so many people before. It was only a 2 stars restaurant anyway, so i guess too much cannot be expected. The food was only so-so. Nothing really stands out much. Where is this restaurant? Turf city level 2. Ah Huat or something i think, can't really remember the name now... XD

Hmm... i guess that's all the main stuff that happened this week. Then there are otehr stuff for me to ponder upon i guess. There was once i wished i could dream and remember every detail about them, but that never happened. Until now that is, when all i want is a good night sleep and not think too much when i sleep. Got to exhaust my mind more so my brain will also go and rest... or at least don't remember them. Or does this things and an extra meaning? I can't really remember them any much now so i guess that doesn't matter.

I guess that's all for the moment. See yah people next time!!

To see your smile from the shadows is more then enough for me.

Thinking Straight, Or At Least Trying To...

Just got back home from church helping my dad out in an event. Didn't really do much, probably cause it was my first time helping with the PA system. But i didn't touch the PA system, only played with the lights, as in switching them on and off. Now waiting for my hair to dry so i guess i have some thought floating around in my head so i decided to use the blog to sort out my thought.

Negative thoughts creates negative actions. Negative actions cause more negative thoughts. It's a vicious cycle. But some times all it takes is a little nudge from anybody to tell you that you can break from the cycle anytime you want. But why don't we want to break out of the cycle sometimes? Is it cause we enjoy this negative emotions? Wait... Enjoyment is positive, but it gets canceled out with the negative emotions. But another thing is that negative with more negative doesn't comes up with a positive in real life. If the last statement was true, imagine all the bad things that will happening now, in hope that a positive will come out of it...

Ha... Not bad, i manage to blog about what i wanted to blog about without using much details. I find using too much details dangerous as anyone can use the info against me if i do. Or maybe i like my secrets to stay as secrets. Did i tell you a secret before?? Oh... That probably means that i didn't tell you everything about it. Trust is something i'm still learning about. And looks like i don't trust too easily either.

Sometimes i wonder if i would be any better without any feelings. No hurt, no love, no jealousy, no anger, no happiness. I guess maybe not. Even thought my feelings may mess up my sense of reasoning at times, i guess that's what makes me who i am. The silly me. XD

God sometimes speak to me in the strangest ways. I guess this tiem was through a kid. No used getting too depressed thinking about something, cause there are so many more things around that makes you happy thinking about it.

Just saw a nick of my friend, "You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back." Oh well, that explains a lot about my losing streak, don't you think so? I guess holding back i what i do best now. Look like another point is to be more outgoing... Wait... Did i miss the whole point of the sentence or didn't i? That's for you to figure out cause i ain't giving too much details here.

I got a feeling i should have done something today, but i guess i didn't. Man, why did i get myself blinded by my negative emotions again... GAH... Got to work harder on this...

That's enough random thoughts for now... I guess my brain is pretty much more sorted out now. See yah peopel around!!

Was It All Worth It??

Sometimes in life, you do something expecting a certain result, but it never happens. And you wonder was it all worth it? It never turned out the way you wanted it to, neither was it the goal you were working towards. Was the effort put in worth it? Then maybe you start asking yourself, am i asking for too much? Or is this something i can never accomplish or get? Am i even meant to accomplish or get it? Or all i can do is just see someone else do/get it?

Just some random thoughts that follows more random thought ans so on until a paragraph is formed. Ha...

Recently for one of my church group discussion discussion 2 Sundays ago, we were talking about friends. then we got on the topic of close friends and my opinion was asked for. But i guess i didn't really have one cause i don't really have a close friend. Why? Not sure. My CG leader found it sad, but i didn't i guess. I was probably thinking of an excuse to get myself out of the sticky situation but i decided to keep quiet. Don't make the situation get worse right? I would probably think about it more then enough when i get back home anyway... And i came up wit ha reason: If i don't have a close friend, that means i don't share my super super secrets with anybody. And if i don't share it with anybody, that means there will be a very very low chance of anyone finding out. The only way anyone would know would probably be a slip of my tongue or my body language giving me away which i don't think will be happening soon...

Hmm... Last Saturday I went to watch Transformers with Nat, then on the next day, I went to watch Die Hard 4.0 with my church friends. 2 movies in 2 days is just too much at the moment... especially when i just my brand new pair of spectacles and am still adjusting to it... Transformers was mainly about "BOOM" and "BAM". Other then that, i enjoyed the fight scenes between the robots, besides those that were hidden by the explosions... Die Hard was also mainly "BOOM" and "BAM". It probably was just like the normal Die Hard movies but with more of today context. Look like i wasn't a spoiler for either movies. XD

Ha... That's probably all for now, see yah people next time!!

Back And Fro

BACK AGAIN TO BLOG!!! Haven't touched here in a long time... I guess the previous post was too long and thus didn't have the energy to blog after that for a while... XD

Yesterday had skating. The beginners(us) learned a little about urban-ing. And all we did was skate down a slope. BUT most of us fell... Probably cause we weren't used to it and we still didn't know how to brake properly... Most of us probably went home with one sort of injury or another... The more advanced skaters really urban-ed around the school, as in outside. I once thought ShuWen injured ans asked her if she was ok, then the only reply i got was, "KELVIN! Why you keep changing your hair??" =.='''

Hmm... Nothing much to blog about now i guess... So still next time, see yah around!!

Finally Back Home And Settled Down... For The Moment At Least...

HEY!!! I'm finally back home and thrown back into my busy schedule. Lets see... I just settled most of my online homework, so i should have left only my project to settle... And that should be settled by this Friday when i meet up with the rest of my group members... And now i can finally blogged about my past few days...

Lets start from the beginning... Last Thursday was the start of YaYA(Youth and Young Adult) camp in my church. And since i was part of the planning committee in charge of logistics with my friend Ming Ci, we were very busy... Every night for 2 nights of the camp i slept probably slightly less then 2 hours...

First day was at Bethel Presbyterian Church. It was near my house but my mom didn't want me to go back home to bath... We had some simple games that were interesting... An example was us having to form a Chinese bible verse using words taken from Chinese newspapers and magazines.And we also mad salad. My group had the most simplest salad but it was nice ok...
I spent most of the second day at East Coast as i was part of the team that had to be there early to book a place for the campers at night. It was boring as all we had to do was just pitch up tents and wait for the rest of the campers to arrive after a programme which will lead them to East Coast. We arrived at East Coast at around 11am, tents were up by 1:30pm, then lunch for us only arrived an hour later. Imagine both Ming Ci and i talking about what kind of food to expect in that 1 hour... Oh yah, when we reached East Coast, it was raining quite heavily. But it stopped in time for us to set up the tents. And after it stopped, there was a double rainbow. I missed the first one, as both appeared one after another. Double blessing? Yeah. IT was liek a sign to show us that the camp will go on smoothly. Thank God.

The campers only arrived around 7-8pm. And all i had to do was just relax. But guess what? Relax ain't exactly part of my dictionary... And i was walking all over the place just looking for something to do... Then soon was the BBQ which i didn't ate much as my throat wasn't fully recovered yet. Then night came. Me being me, couldn't relax and was awake most of the night. I walked around, stared at the stars until the clouds covered them, walked with my CG group members all the way to 7-Eleven, which was quite far away, and back again, talkign about anything under the sun, or you could say moon and stars.

Then came the last day. Most of us were up early to see a sun rise, but it ended up to cloudy to see anything, but it was still quite a nice sight.

After then we went back to to Bethel for a short break before the rest of the programmes t wrap up the camp. During that break, i went home to eat breakfast and BATHE!!! YEAH. So while everybody was asleep, i was enjoying myself. XP Ha... Then after that we had a talk about looking good which actually convinced me to go for a hair cut cos my hair was already quite long... Minda saw it last Monday. Now, my hair probably need a little bit more touching up before i am going to look better...

After breaking camp, i went to the barber as it was along the way back home. Right after reaching home, I had to start packing for a trip to Malaysia the following day... Talk about cramp timetable... It was as the church leaders are having a retreat and my dad was going so my whole family came along. So i couldn't rest that night but i decided to blog a little before i knocked out and thus my previous post appeared.

Then the next day i was in church before i slept most of the way to Malacca. Not exactly a habit of mine as i never really sleep during the day. I guess i really knocked out then. After reaching Equatorial Hotel over there, I settled into my room all alone as my room mate will only be coming the next day. We then had a short service before dinner and the theme talk of the day before bed.

The bunch of us younger people(I purposely didn't use the word kids) didn't had to attend most of the talks so see how much time we had... However in the end, we still had to attend most of the talks even though some of the content was a little too hard of those younger ones to understand. Oh well... At least i got to spent 10rm all to myself... But in the arcade only... Wanted to buy something couldn't find something that caught my eye...

The whole trip was 3 days 2 nights... Unfortunately for me, i fell sick on the second night and had to go to bed early... Probably caught something in the shopping mall when i was there that afternoon... Then i heard i missed out on some games the younger lot off us played until 5 in the morning... Oh well, at least i was at my 100% for the rest of that day anyway... While they were nodding of all over the place... XD

After that we then went back home. Along the way, we stopped by this shop which sold all kind of snacks. Outside i we saw this tree called Malacca tree. Don't believe me?? See the picture.

I guess the trip was for the family to relax also, but me being me, like my mom, couldn't relax properly. But i think i relaxed more then her cause you could see she was very tensed through out the whole trip. Looks like i still relax better then her...

These six days has been busy, fun, exhausting and reflective at the same time. I guess i may have figured out somethings. Did my head head become clearer?? I hope so. At least i know one thing for sure: I'm never alone, cause Jesus is always with me. And without him, nothing i do can actually be done properly. (:

Now thats what i call a long post... That should be enough for now... See yah next time!!

Dazed And More Dazed...

Just came back from my church camp today... Will updates details some other time when i am less tired... Why tired? I had only around 4-5 hours of sleep the past 2 night, and i am going overseas tomorrow again.. Why did i have so little sleep?? Erm... cause i was part of the planning team in charge of logistics and when i do a job, i threw away the word "relax" from my dictionary... Wait, Did i even have such a word there in the first place?? XD

Ah... I'm going to go pack my bag soon before i concuss on my bed... And i am already starting to see things further then i know they are... Dazed... Oh well, i better finish my stuff as soon as possible... See yah next time!!

Its Regrettable That I Am Regreting The Regretted

Sorry about the title, just wanted to play around a little with words and that was what i ended up with. Hey, i just regretted putting up regrettable title! Ok, that was lame... Oh well, i guess this blog post is also going to be something like the title in the sense that it probably ain't going to make much sense. What i do best yeah??

Hmm... I just decided that blog on impulse. Why? Just felt like it. So i guess this post is going to be just crap i guess. Maybe i am going to regret doing this post later, maybe not. Am i regretting doing some of the stuff i did in the past? I think so. But i guess it is no use regretting now, Since it is already over. Regretting doesn't solve it or makes the situation any better. I've been telling some people that it is no use regretting over something that has already happened, but try their best to not let such a regrettable experience happen again. Not that i haven't been following the my own advice, but sometimes its hard not to regret. Especially when some memories are stirred up randomly by some random incidents...

Look like MSN isn't allowing me to sign in at the moment... Oh well, i got to go already anyway. See yah around!!

Flu Away On My Birthday...

WHATS UP PEOPLE!!! Long time no blog, thought i gone?? I guess i has been busy the pass few days as i wanted to stay away from the computer when i could as i had been using it alot and i had a few class tests a few days back. And nest week will be my common test already...

Oh well, i will be posting up some photos i took with my phone recently... And you shoudl know i take crap photos... XD

The BEST looking food in my school as far as i know. Called KAKI FUYONG. YEAH.

I took this pic before my German class. Guess i was bored and wanted to do something dumb... XD

Some of the canteens in my school Whatever also don't have, then don't have Anything... Choosing drink very difficult at those canteens lah...

I twisted my ankle 2 Sundays ago playing captains ball at my church... Thus i ended up as the captain for the rest of the games and only coming down when necessary to limp around...

Did this during my plastic moulding lesson recently. Did i do something wrong with the heart since it is broken?? No... I purposely chose a broken heart for the mould... And guess what my classmates said?? "Looks like you like broken things..."

Hmm... Let's start on today now... I woke up with a sore throat and dismissed it as nothing more then one and decided to treat it with Strepsils like what i always do. But it doesn't go away even after 6 continuous takes. And the reason for that will be: I AM SICK. And of all the days that the flu bugs choose to disturb me. My Birthday. The day i want to enjoy... Oh well, i guess the flu is such... It never comes when you want it to, but attacks when you least expect it... I guess you got to just play with the cards you are dealt in life.

Ha... That's all i have for now... Wait, that's not all... I still have a church camp coming up that i am part of the planning team... Then also got another overseas trip right after that... Then Half my holidays gone... Oh well, at least i don't have time to do really, really stupid things... XD

Finally, that's all for now. See yah around!!!