Chao Tar Fingers

Was at a BBQ yesterday. Campus Crusade BBQ. Ate, chat, cooked food and probably ended up with burnt fingers too. Seems like my fingers are getting used to being burnt, doesnt hurt as much has they used to. XD

Seems like my outlook on life has changed quite a bit from the past. Used to like to bring up the past alot. Now i just want the past to stay the past, and only take back lessons from them. Not going to let the past haunt me.

Was chatting with Joel and Jacob (Waitamin... Just realised both have names starting with Js...) towards the end of the bbq. Talked about NS, walk with God, life and BGRs. Listening to people sharing experiences is comforting sometimes. Helps put some stuffs into perspective. Still a long way to go for me...

One interesting thing Jacob shared about was about God opening wounds that haven't been healed properly. We either become numb to the pain of a wound, or we are healed from the pain. Both may feel the same, but are actually very different. This topic came about when he was talking about how he felt when his ex got attached. Another phase to go through will probably be his ex getting married and having children.

And yeah, this may sounds like an excuse, but true men do cry. It's not easy for men to show their emotions, so when we do, it takes a lot of courage to do so. =x

I kind of understand what he meant when he said when it felt like a dagger piercing his heart when he found out his ex was getting attached. Let go and move on, that's one of the way to deal with it. Just don't know what to do sometimes. It hurts, but yet i can't do anything about it. Got a feeling i'm getting very good at hiding it... Maybe a bit too good...

Had a medical appointment this morning. All i did was went there, waited, and saw the doctor to tell me that i'm fine and he can't find anything wrong with my heart. Got good news and bad new though. Good news is that i won't have to go back to the National Heart Centre for a while. Bad news? I still have to go back ot the hospital cause i asked for a referral to see another specialist about my legs. One day i may just learn the whole layout of SGH... Been to enough building to roughly know where most the things are... Wonder if that is a good thing... =x

I wonder if you knew your actions was causing someone else pain but that person chooses not to tell you because that person doesn't want to affect you negatively, what would you do? Or do you not care at all? Statement not meant for anyone in particular, just random thoughts after a long day. XD

Another random thought again: Love doesn't have to hurt. When it hurts, it usually means something is wrong. And then there are the usual options on what to do...

Man... Going to need a soon. Helping out in another wedding the following Saturday. Wonder how they choose ushers for weddings... Somehow i got in... Been helping out in too many? Hmm... But it's quite nice to be at weddings. Have the dreamy feel to them... And they are quite fun too!! Especially when they share their experience. The next best part will of course be the food... =x

Looks like i like listening to and reading life stories. Some are so nice that we wish it would happen to us. But the thing is that each of us have our own life stories to live out. At some point the stories of 2 people may become 1 story, or a story may become that of 2 people. All of us have a different and unique life story, that's why i don't find it boring to listen to more. The best part? It stories never end till the end of you lives. That's how i feel true stories should be: Never ending. (:

Ah... Better go to sleep now or i may end up a zombie tomorrow... See yah!