Feeling The Strain

Man... My chest have been feeling very uncomfortable this past few days... Must be careful already. Can you people help remind me to be careful? Cause i don't want to end up in the hospital until after my exams and another reason i don't feel like saying. Thanks. Maybe I shouldn't have played that little bit of basketball yesterday... I remembered i was accidentaly rammed on the chest... Ironic part was that it was a good move and i was called "The Wall" for a while...

Racial harmony day is coming... Time to start searching for a costume liao... Chinese singing competition was pulled into the group by Minda. And if i didn't go in due to Minda, Nat would have pulled me in... So either way, i have to be sporty... sigh... Look like the guy who can't sing have to learn how to sing... Die already... I don't want to sound like a frog on stage...

HAH... Thats all for now... See you people around!!


I won't give up to my condition. Don't worry about me. I know what is best for me. Remember I said i won't die before writing my will? I will keep my word.

Erm... Erm...

I just felt like blogging but don't really know what to blog about... Let start with stars...

Stars - Switchfoot

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinkin' maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast and maybe
All my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinkin' 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I feel like myself

Stars looking at our planet,
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe startin' to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinkin' 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond our own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Began to look like home

I've been thinkin' 'bout everyone, everyone you look so empty
But when I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I feel like myself

Everyone, everyone you feel so lonely
Everyone, ya everyone you feel so empty
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars
I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone

I love this song. I don't know why. Guess it just gives me the sense of being alive. Probably the rock feel in the song. And sometimes i related to the song, especially teh first 2 stanzas.

Chinese Sing competition in school again!!! YEAH!!! Onl yif Swee Hao Would participate... He is teh best among all of us in teh class... Nat could also try out... Me? I can't sing, mind you. I don't want any reported cases of death by singing. I could almost imagine this headline: "School wiped out by singing flunk"...

What else i can i talk about? Erm... Nothing? Okay... I am downloading one of my favourite anime episodes like crazy the past few days... Zoids Genesis is what its called... Erm... I keep getting pwned by WeiJin in DotA... Erm... I am going crazy just looking for a present for a friend... Erm... I found out more about my new friend Phoebe in a week than some of my friends in a year... Erm... That is all? Seems to be... Oh yah!! Racial armony day is coming, probably have to go buy costume or rent again like when i was in sec2. I was ugly in that suit. Don't believe me? Take a look at this photo...

Look like some strange kung fu character right? Imagine me playing basketball in that suit cause i did... I got a feeling i looked like some hopping zombie then...


Oh well... Thats all i am going to blog about now. See you people around!!

Turning Point

Curves have turning points. What about us humans? Are we like those line equations? Do we have turning points in our lifes? When was my turning point? I can only see two. Will there be more? I don't know...

The first turning point in my life was when i was baptised. Didn't know i am a Christian? Well, now you know. That was when everything started to get more complicated then what it seems to be. And then everything started to became simple again after talking some time to think about it. What am i talking? I really not sure how to explain...

My second turning point was when i was hpspitalised for a night, or actually a while after that event. It left me thinking: Life could end just like that. Sure my condition wasn't serious but there was a chance it could become very serious. Not everyone around me know something happened to me then as it happened during chinese new year. I decided not to tell anyone that about my condition at my ex-class gathering. They couldn't seem to be interested anyway. I also didn't wanted to spoil the mood. Since life is so fragile, living it to the fullest everyday become like an unspoken promise to myself. See me talking more to people now? That is probably due to this.

Hey, i don't know why am i doing this post today. I honestly don't. Oh well... See yah people around!!

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Very Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Very Low

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Hah... When one is bored, one do many quizes... how you take my results are your actions n urs alone... See yah around!!

I Am 67% Evil?!?!?!!?

You are 67% evil!

You are quite evil, more evil than most people are. But still, evil is just in the back of your head, and doesn't come out too often, some goodness still runs in your blood.

How evil are you?

Man... I didn't know i was so evil... Got a feeling the quiz was rigged... Maybe you should take a look and tell me. Cause all who know me should know i ain't so evil what... or am i?? XD

Now I Remember What I Wanted To Blog About

I am back!!! What i wanted to blog about was Jeanie. Her father just left for Hong Kong, i think, and before that, on Friday, she was a mess after school. And her father is going for 3 months.

This got me thinking, cause there was once my dad was in germany for training for his job for close to a year and i didn't actually cried. My dad still kept in contact with us through email. I remember once i was checking his inbox (I didn't have email then) and saw an email entitled "I Love You". Then, the "I Love You" virus was big. I decided to take the risk by opening the email, and found out it was just from my dad... Imagine my relieve then... I was young okay? I didn't know what is virus scan then...

Back on topic, Maureen hugged her dad when he left for a day, and she said that she don't actually hug her father one. Now i feel heartless... Or is it just the way i am? I don't like to feel extreme feelings, i guess... It kinda makes me feel... insecured... Oh well, at least now i know another area in my life to look into...

Now that i touched on the topic i wanted to blog about yesterday, Back to free blogging. YEAH!! Remember the stranger i met... i mean chatted with? I chatted with her a few more times the pass few days... It was funny. Man... Where did you find this kind of friends, Adrain? Or are they just your fans? XP

Thats all for now. So till next time, SEE YAH!!




I saw your face again yesterday. I almost cried.

I Am Going... Crazy?

I wanted to blog about something and now i forgot what it was... Let me think for a while what was it supposed to be about... Nevermind... I shall go rant about something else then...

Recently, someone added me to as a contact in msn messenger. I didn't know who was it. Then yesterday, i finally saw that person online. And It wasn't somebody that i knew. Let me see if i remember her name... Phoebe? Or is it Feebee? Well, she added me cause she was bored and decided to add people from wrinkyskins... Then i ended up chattign with her for a while. Starange thing... I can talk to a stranger just like that and struggle to talk to some people i have known for some time...

Oh yah... Wrinky Skins? It is a webbie mainly set up by littleGREENman, or MinDa. Then now, a few of us kana pulled in. But it is fun!!! Wait a minute... I didn't do much beside putting up the tagboard, which is going down when the guestbook is going up, and checking the email almost everyday... And the first person to get business is still littleGREENman... Then followed by Moch, or Delia. Not that i want any business or anything for myself but i am confortable with checking the email and helping with the web when MinDa asks. Looks like i don't like to get out of my comfort zone. HA...

I am now looking for a new theme for a new blogskin for my blog's b'day. Any ideas? Cause now all i am doing downloading songs now to listen to. Any recommendations for songs to listen to? All genres except techno and dance accepted.


And Please go visite the Wrinky skins webbie!! http://www.wrinkyskins.vze.com/ And give littleGREENman all the business!!! He wants to do skins but he is trying to stop designing skins for blogskins until after 'O' levels. So let he do what he wants!!! He wants to do blogskins so let him!!

That is enough for today. So See you around!!!

PROMOTING WEBSITE!!!

And here i am to promote a website!! http://www.wrinkyskins.vze.com/

Quickly go!!! Take a look and leave a tag!!

See Yah Around!!!

First Day Of School Spent At Home

YEAH!! While the rest of you people were slugging it out at school, i was at the docter's queueing up for my turn, watching FF7 : Advent Children again and resting. But can't help it, i didn't feel wel this morning, and if i went to school and wanted to go home, there will be no one to come fetch me home. Why? My mom works some where far away and my dad used up too many leaves due to his medical condition.

Oh, about my my granny? She is in the hospital now. She came back that day but the next day she wanted to go to the hospital. She requested TTSH, but TTSH was already full. And her condition was not that serious and they wanted to send her back. I heard she requested to stay. So she ended up in Alexandria(or something) Hospital.

My parents explained to me why they have been treating her like that. They said when i was bored, my gran said that she will not help take care of me, even though we were living in the same house. And the same happened to my sis. For my bro, i am not sure. And my dad's sis seems to refuse to split the cost of the medical bill bothways. From my mom's point of view, she is the aunt alwasy trying to take advantage of my family. But from my memories of my childhood, she always comes with toys for me everytimes she visits my gran. But come to think of it, everytime she visited, my mom wasn't home. My mom always said that if she saw her in our house, she will chase her out with a broomstick. Fierce... Must make you think what my aunt could have done... If you want to know, based on my mom, she used to stay in my room. The door is partially damaged due to my aunt slammimg of the door. Why would she slam the door? I don't know... probably to spite my parents as the house belongs to my parents and she gets a room for herself...

Oh well... that should be enough troubles for today. So see you people around!!

Skeletons In My Closet

I always have family problems. What i say my mom never never really listens. I can keep repeating, but now i am getting tired, cause the only one repeating her situation is her. After a while, the similarities can be heard between her and the tape recorder.

What did we 'debated' over? Well... my grandma. She wants me to not anknowledge her. Want me to not cared about what ever happens to her. Why? Well, she can't forgive my grandma for what she did long ago, like all the cursing and conflicts. C&C... ha...

My grandma was just brought to the hospital. What am i suppose to feel? Should i wish my grandma will recover soon or should i wish that she won't come back cause everytime my mom sees her, my mom gets agitated. Dilemma...

My mom is now like going, " I already gave her the option of moving to a nursing home where they can take better care of her. now look what happen!" She wanted my father's sis to contribute half of the fees but she refused. Said that she is my dad's responsibility alone. Then my gran also don't want my dad's sis to be involved.

I am just telling you my situation now. Not asking you to side me or anything. Now i am 'debating' with my mom over the fact that she treats my grandma unfairly. Because for me, it just doesn't seem right to treat a person like this. Especially when this is supposely a Christian family.

That's probably all i have to rant about now. See yah people around!!