Motivation / The Irony Of It All...

There are two titles cause i feel like discussing about two things at the moment. On to the first topic...

What all of us want now: motivation to work hard. We want people around us to help encourage us. There is nothing wrong with that. I believe this year, even thought it may be the hardest for us in our lives in secondary school, we can only get through if we work together. (Don't ask me why am i typing about this, i just felt the need to for don't know what reason.) Now here is the hard part: Working together as a class. Not that i am doubting our class spirit or anything, but what we seem to lack is the power to channel it to where ever we want it to. We have class spirit, but it only comes in short burst of energy. I have never seem the class more united than anything compared to last year. We still seem still be progressing in terms of class spirit. But are there people being left out of the development? Are there cliques that are unwilling to change? These cases cannot be found, interestingly.

Many of us are feeling the pressure now, with so many class tests and with the 'O' Levels drawing nearer by the day. I have learnt it the hard way that depending on oneself will only lead to alot of problems for oneself. But the problem for me now is to break out from my comfort zone. I prefer to be alone sometimes and am also anti-social at times too. I want to have more friends. But sometimes getting myself to become more socialble is easier to visualise then do. I can visualise from all different points of view how am i going to socialise more, but in the end i get tongue tied and the plan never gets into action. My results now may seem nice and may look like it is my own, but i own it to many people around me who has been supporting and teaching me.(Want me to name some? The whole class lah...) And i want to thank you peole for the help you have provided me. But i am an unfinished product, a rough diamond. The end result can only be seen at the end of the year, which i hope by then all of us will be glitterin brightly.

WOW... I can't believe i just typed all that... (quote Calvin: "On fire!!") But back on track, The second part...

The irony of it all.
The person who seems to need the least help may need the most help.
The person who seems the most logical may be the most illogical.
The person who seems the most socialble may be the most un-socialble.
The person who seems to need no friends may may need friends around.
The person who seems the most happy may be the most depressed. (The past me. Now i m not sure)

People around you may say they do not need help, but fro all you know, they really need it. People may say they are not in pain, but the truth is that they may be in alot of pain. (peopel who know me well enough will know this applies to me) People may not seem to be suffering, but they be suffering inside. Why does this happen? They don't want people to worry about them cause they will feel very guilty for sharing their burden with other people. And if the other person gets in to trouble because of them, the guilt may become unbearable.

I am here now to tell this people(me included, cause i need soem convincing too...) this: You are not alone. There are people around you who are willign to help you through your difficult times: FRIENDS!! PARENTS!!(althought some may disagree with the second one...) But remember, you are never alone. There will always at least someone around you who will be there for you. Take your time to find that person. Cause that person may be just right next to you. And when you feel down, remember there is always someone out there who still cares for you even though you don't knwo who it is. You may not know who that person is, but he/she will taking care of you quietly, something like a guardian angel. So cheer up people, cause life shouldn't seem so bad after what i have just pointed out.

Look liek this is my longest post to date... WOW... I still can't believe i managed this feat... Oh well, till next time, try to stay smiling for me okay? If i make you puke, just smile for yourself.