I totally hate prank calls, messages and anything else that doesn't tell me whereit is from... Like what my social studies teacher, Miss Zavier, always says, "Is the source reliable?" which is not as i do not know the source!!! If the person who refuses to admit who on earth he or she is to me and sent me those funny messages is reading this, i m going to find out WHO U R.... how would I? who knows what i will do...

I remember getting a prank call from someone in the past... i found out who it was... at least it was someone i know... could have been worst... i won't tell u how for the risk "the person who refuses to admit who on earth he or she is to me and sent me those funny messages" is reading this, which whom i m suspecting will, as i think the person know who i m... no, i m very sure this person know who i m... oh well, only time will tell...

Man, i must learn to stop typing the "..." ... and i just did it again... and again... Ok... I will stop. Finally... not. The dots just seems depressing... must try out a new style... And whoever u r that keeps keeping me in suspence, will u PLEASE stop it? For the sake of the "PLEASE" in the previous sentence...

Petanque!

The title is pronouced as pay-tong... a french name... a sport it is... just learned how to play it today... it is just throwing a metal ball as close as possible to another small ball... seems quite fun to me now as i havn't touch a basketball for who know how long as my knee can't take too much strain... it hurts if i walk too much too...

Everyday i come back n hear my mom complaining... thinking of giving up hope of her changing... just have to keep on praying iguess... hope God answers it soon...

It's getting very tiring for me to ignore my heart calling out even when i know it is wrong... have to keep my feeling in control while concentrating on my studies... after my my O levels next year i will be FREE... but up to then, studies all the way then... even if i have to crawl my way out of tight situations... i will have to remember that studies are the most important now...

So until my entry, don't worry, be happy... everything will definately work out...

Classes during holidays?!?!?!

I hate holiday classes.... i m not the kind of person mentioned in by my social studies teacher... the kind the teenagers that the shops beg the schools to give extra homework and classes to to keep them off the streets... y m i getting fed up over this anyway? BECAUSE ALL I WANT TO HAVE IS FUN!!!! IS THAT A CRIME?!?!?! Y CAN'T U JUST GIVE US THE SPACE THEN?!?!

That enough shouting for today... holiday classes today wasn't so bad... 2mrw going to face maths teacher... oh well... what have i do be afraid of anyway? (besides she can call my parents n get them to scold the socks off me if i was wearing a pair?)

Gotta keep this smile on my face man... and it is proving more n more difficult to do so... i have given up hope on nathaniel ng from today onwards... at the rate he is purposly ignoring me, we probably will only end up friends again in heaven...(abit extreme comparision but... u know...)

That's all for today... let's hope my mom will start to change her attitude... provided she will admitt that she was ever wrong in the first place...

Need some one to Talk to...

Man, are the holidays boring... probably today is the most interesting of the whole week. I went back to my primary school to promote my secondary school... and i had to start reharesing my speech eary in teh morning at 7 in school... but the teacher came at 7.03... n only practice for a while... than suddenly say she got meeting then leave me in school to practice for 1 whole hour... wah lao...

When i was delivering my speech thingey, i had to mention my p6 teachers name... after mentioning her name, i paused for a moment... suddenly the students start clapping... very embarressing... at least i finshed what i was supposed to do... n 1 more thing, my p6 teacher was there too... so one can guess probably how i m feeling...

Is is ok if i complain about my mom on this blog? Only my friends know who i m n very very little of them know who my mom is... so it still seems ok...

Come on mom, dad just back from the hopital... stop pushing him around... try to understand that all he can do now is rest... n stop complaining... u r making everybody moody...

That all the nonsense i have for today... i got no one to talk to thus the title... n the entry being the longest i have so have so far... i think...

Back Again...

I m back from a tiring day... remember the earlier pic on my knee? It looked the same today... y? becaused it hurt alot yesterday... even when i was doing nothing... at least it felt better now...

My dad back from the hospital. N due to his condition, the whole family had a diet change... my bro can't seem to get used to it though... he hates his greens n almost anything that is black... choosey huh? n he called me choosey... he should probably learn to leave people alone too... if he want other people to leave him alone... same applies for respect... i m just happy i m no genocidical madman or many around will be dead already...

The link to Nathaniel's blog at the corner is down... do not know why as he has been recently cuting contact with me... don't want to hurt me he says... but how can u hurt someone who is already hurt... and not yet fully recovered? have to try to knock some sense into him one of these days...

Lost

Funny title i have here... nothing to do with any hit TV series...

My father was wared int othe hospital yesterday... juz had operation... visting him tomorrow... funny thing is that i m still going on my life as normal... i juz feel... heartless... but m i? i don't think so... it juz that recently that i learned that smiling is one of the best medicines around too... but now the smile seems fake... as fake as a few months ago when i didn't believe in smiling or laughing... at least my mom have started to cool down abit... unlike in the last post... but my bro is acting like a idiot now... Who he think he is? i won't allow him to push me around here...

Got back my results today... not very bad or too good... 5th in class and 8th in level... not bad? But i can't help thinking wat m i compared to people from other schools... my school is not actually the best in Singapore... juz hope wat i can do in enough....

Looks like i m going to end this entry with a low moral... but u out there reading this, never takes things for granted, do not make the same mistake as my bro or mom...

FED UP

Just came back from camp today... tired like crap but still did the basic house work of keeping the clothing... n when my mom came back, she scolded me... for wat u will ask. just for asking her to get a little extra food back for me... pointless scolding if u ask me...

she gets fed up over the little things... WHO SHE THINK SHE IS?!!?! WHATS WRONG TWITH MY BROTHER UNDER PERFORMING?!?!!? U WERE THE ONE THAT SCOLED HIM ALMOST EVERY NIGHT!!!!!!!!! U WERE THE ONE THAT COMPLAINED N CHOSE TO GO AGAINST ALL OTHER METHODS OF GETTING HIM TO WORK!!!!!! U WERE THE ONE THAT STRESS HIM OUT WHEN SHE KEPT MUMBLING OUT LOUD ABOUT HIM!!!!!! U WERE THE ONE THAT STRESSED THE WHOLE FAMILY OUT N WAS UNWILLING TO ADMIT IT EVEN WHEN WE TOLD U OFF NICLY OR RUDELY!!!!!!! U WERE THE ONE WHO CHOSE NOT TO CHANGE YOUR WAYS EVEN THOUGHT WE ASK U NICELY TO!!!!!! WHAT ELSE U EXPECT ME TO DO WITH MY BRO IF U KEEP INTERRUPTING ME!!!!!!!! AND SOMETIMES I FEEL ASHAMED WHEN I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT U AS THER IS NOTHING MUCH TO TALK ABOUT!!!! U call urself my mom.... but think about it... do u think i handled my things in school well as a councillor n thus can handle my bro? Like thay say, it starts at home... n it never started... n so what makes u think i handled the things at school sucessfully?

I go for my school camps mainly to get energised metally... but always get drained at home... U chose not to improve n thus i have decided to leave u behind... u can't even lead by example... thinking ur respondsibility is only to feed us... never understanding us... continue feeding us, but u have just been left behind...

Bandaged Knee

This is what my knee looked like last saturday after a vist to a chinese sensei in Chinatown...
the chinese sensei did a good job but i think i undid it at the camp...

Next Week's Rush...

Next week i will be off to camp... up to Wednesday... then back to school to do finish all the videos n pictures for the student council with some one else... How r 2 people to do this kind of thing? Guess we will find out next week, after a tiring camp...

Had a funny day today... i went to where people play card games only that i purposely didn't bring anything to play against them with... then why was i there anyway? just went there to learn any new playing styles... learned a few interesting ones... at least the people getting trashed r not me...

That's all i got today... i probably went this place as my friend didn't confirm if an outing was taking place... n got bored n decided to go there... my advice of the is thus... do not even read this section... it is noncense most of the time...

There’s Always A First Time…

First time for what today? Well, today is the first time I went to K-box(karaoke thingy)… always knew I suck at singing but this time I went because I bumped into some of my friend this morning… strange but interesting… all I knew was that I was very free today and had nothing better to do so I decided to join them… like I said, I still sang extremely horrible… to me I supposed… I never could match those high notes anyway… but a good start in singing anyway… (Singapore Idol her I come…) Probably my friends got a head start…

One more thing for readers of this blog. When u enter this blog, I hope u leave all tour unhappiness behind as only me is allowed to be depressed here. ( Selfish huh?) So until my next entry, do not wipe the simile off your face unless necessary… wasn’t necessary today anyway… so that means I also have to start listening to my own advice some times…