And so it is Christmas. Many are probably out there celebrating the festival, having fun, parties, food, drinks and so on. But what's Christmas? Basically its a birthday celebration. Birthday of who? Jesus Christ. So what's the use of celebrating someone's birthday if the main person isn't invited? Just some thoughts about today.
Went church in the morning for Christmas service. It has been a long time since the church had a Christmas service. The past few years were celebrated during the earlier Sundays. Had a buffet lunch that ran out a little too early, probably not enough food, but the atmosphere was great. Its been a long time since the church has been overflowing with people. It was one of those few times when i had problem weaving through crowds in church and not often does that happen.
After lunch went home, rested and played a little... At least until i didn't feel like playing anymore. Man, i get bored of games quite quickly... Had dinner and here-i-m (No pun intended) now.
Sometimes i wonder if Christmas would be better if celebrated with someone special, but i realised that would be missing the purpose of Christmas itself. It's someone else's birthday, not just any other festival. But it doesn't mean i can't make the best of the celebration. The celebraton would probably be more happier with someoen special, but i guess it should steal the spotlight away from the main person.
Man... going to give the company a few days grace before i start chasing for money again... 3 months going to be 4 months... I guess can say i quite suay, so long still haven't get paid. But that's what happens when you work for a small company... Next time, look for a bigger company...
I realised after many times of emotional turmoil in my life, that usually after the turmoil, i will go through a few cycles of depression and anger. Depressed at first at the situation, then angry at everything, then depressed again for being angry and at the situation, then anger, then depression, anger, depression... Until i finally break out of the cycle when i'm finally able to pick myself up. I wonder what stage i'm at now...
Just heard on the radio, Christmas is also a time for love and desperate people. Christmas got to be more then that. Kind of screwed if people only concentrated on that part.
I guess that's all for today. Will probably be sleeping earlier, feeling fatigue getting to me... Feeling myself drifting away towards the flying pigs and floating hearts... See yah next time. And have a Merry Christmas!
And maybe the dreams of you would stop.
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